July 26, 2009
hi guys . I am yongquan . Sorry for not blogging these few days . Do not have much time to blog recently . Hahas . I'm here to post about friday and saturday .
Friday , skip the school part. After school , rushed home , bathed ,cooked for my dogs then brought it down for a walk. After that , me and chen jun cycled to buang kok to meet harry and others . Played basketball . Then after that got taiji with the neighbourhood people . So went to the fitness to play . Then run when "mata" come . Lols . so funny , I was giddy at that time , everybody run , so I run also . lols . Run to the bus stop and camped there . After that makan and then celebrated jun liang birthday . FUN . Then cycled with some guys to some place to chit chat . lols. So funny . hahas . talk until 2 plus , everyone return home . Jun liang help me cycle another bike to my home . After that , I send Jun Liang home , and I cycle back to my home . Slept at 4.30 . Hahas , Have a very fun night with the company .
Saturday . Nothing interesting . Just skip till 9 something in the night . Went to 188 to find yi xiang , chen jun , dean , and harry . when i reach , dean immediately ask me " **** *** Got gang ah ? " lols . The star is the name , slowly guess . Then i jitao stun tio , How i know , and I don't wannt know about it , lols .... Then I walked chen jun home and Walked yi xiang and harry to their bus stop . Waited for their bus and settled off with dean to my bus stop , and only to find out that the last bus is gone . zzz wtf . Dean accompany me to near my ah ma house . I bid farewell to him and continue my jorney home . LOls. reached home . bath , now posting . hahas . Have a very good night .
See , Do you understand what are friends . They are my friends , and I love them . If you say you do not have friends , then you are damn wrong and you are a bloody fucktard . Because when you say you do not have friends , do you know you really hurt your friends' feelings ? You don't treat people as friends when they treat you as friends . But when you do not have friends , You try to seek for them . Are friends a friend or an eqiupement to you ? When everyone started to distance away from you , You should start reflecting on what you have done , But you are doing the other way round and do not admit that you are wrong . Nevermind . If you continue to treat friend as your equipment , then I assure you , 1 day , you will not even as 1 friend , and on that day , You will sure regret and filled with remorse . To be frank , I am starting to depise you too . I don't know if I will stop despising you , But 1 thing for sure is that you sure need to change your attitude towards friends .
This is what I have reflected from last time when I thought I have no friends . Friends are just around us .
PS
(TO HER )
LOLS me also haven't get selected by poly yet . lols .
Labels: friends is not an equipment ...
let it go
7/26/2009 02:32:00 AM
July 22, 2009
Tagged by jasmine
If there's a hot guy/girl, asking you out for a date, what would you do ?
-Steady
If there's a stranger followed you home, what would you do ?
- Run around , make him tired .
A group of girls was staring at you at your school canteen, what would you do ?
- Maybe stare back . DEPENDS.
If you're alone at home and your brother/sister prank called you, what would you do ?
- off my phone
If your friends took your phone & they don't wanna admit it, what would you do ?
- Don't know . Depends.
If there's a hot guy/girl followed you home, what would you do ?
- Ask her what she want ...
If somebody purposely drop your stuffs, what would you do ?
- Start my temper and maybe will hit them.
If somebody punch your stomach, what would you do ?
-Punch them back
If you could handle 10 problems, what would you do ?
-Handle my temper problems, friends problem , get all desired result , family problems , and etc etc.
If your mum scold you for no reason, what would you do ?
- shout back and kept on quarelling until one of us stop.
Your parents confiscate your phone, what would you do ?
- Don't know (depend)
If facebook was closed down, what would you do ?
- Nothing .
If you are rich, what would you do ?
- I will buy what I want , eat what I want .
If you could live 100 years, what would you do ?
- Be together with the girl I love for 100 years .
If your country having winter season, what would you do ?
- I will play with the snow .
If your school 10 feet away from your house, what would you do ?
- Then I will slowly stroll to school .
If you're mind reader, what would you do ?
- Read everyone mind .
If your friends hurt your feelings, what would you do ?
- Don't know . (depends )
If your phone dropped into the drain, what would you do ?
-attempt to retrieve it .
If your friends left you alone at the void deck, what would you do ?
- go home .
If you have 100 chocolate bars in your fridge, what would you do ?
- eat them in one day.
If your parents gives you freedom, what would you do ?
- Play until late at night.Won't miss out any talks with friends.
There's a big rat in your room, what would you do ?
- say hi to it . call my dog to play catching with it.
If there's 100 different kind of insects in your room, what would you do ?
- spray Brygon
Your school had just collapsed, what would you do ?
- Woohoo ! no more studying
There's 100 different kind of junk foods in your fridge, what would you do ?
- jio friends to stay overnight at my house.
If you have $100,000, what would you do ?
- Have fun .
Your friends were insulting you, what would you do ?
- insult them back
Your house went black out, what would you do ?
- I will use a torch to light my way.
If your teacher didn't came to school, what would you do ?
- Depends.
There's zombies coming when the siren is on, what would you do ?
-I will sing the song called "ZOMBIE"
There's a group of zombies running across the road, what would you do ?
-I will have fun looking at them get knocked down by cars
10 zombies trying to attack you, what would you do ?
- Defend myself
If a group of your classmates join you to kill the zombies, what would you do ?
- Kill the zombies
If the zombies trying to attack your family, what would do ?
- defend my family
If you have time machine, what would you do ?
- Use it and go back to the time when she say she love me .
If you got 100 boxers in your wardrobe, what would you do ?
- wear a different boxer every day.
If you are gay/lesbian, what would you do ?
- Fuck all boys
If you miss any one of your lessons, what would you do ?
- call my friends to let me copy the notes and tell them to explain to me .
Tagged : Kar wong , chen jun , ashley , joey , cheng kiat , kevin ,
let it go
7/22/2009 07:05:00 PM
HI I am yongquan . Today got something happy for me , and something I have pondered for long . Happy thing is that finally we have go through one more O level test . The chinese listening comprehension . sad thing is that , I Nearly got into quarrels again . Maybe , I thinking of dropping down this class vice-chairman position . I don't think I am suitable to be in this position . Although I like being the class vice-chairman. I don't know . Can anyone please tell me what to do? should I drop , Or should I stay . I hate teachers that always look at all my negative side , if this continue , I think I will lead the class to more chaos . Fucking irritating , I cannot control my temper anymore . Can't you teachers give me just a chance to change , I want to change , but everytime you all give me a very angry face and scold me when I did something wrong , While other do something more serious than me , You just don't care . Maybe its me afterall . Hais . If this continue , I may end up in the mental hospital .
Go on , I really hope that she will complain me to mr ong , and let me drop of my vice-chairman position . Afterall , I don't like her , She sucks . How we are going learn when you don't want to mark our works and always give us to copy . Even if you explain , I still do not know if my answer is correct , And you bloody hell gave me a smelly face . Hence , whenever I saw you , I don't feel like asking you any question , because I knew that the day will come when I lose all my temper , slam the table and burst out shouting at you . And then , somemore , you say that history student also don't know how to do source-based questions , then when harry used history method , You say it wrong . And still say don't use history method on social studies . I use social studies method , Every of my answer is wrong , You call me to perfect it , when I do not even fucking know how to do ..... I use history method many times on my milestone , and what did you do ??? you just give me a fucking red cross and gave me L1 . I really don't understand you . What I do Is always wrong .
I know I have bad records in the past , but did you ever see me trying to change . Even since , I take on the role of vice-chairman , I have been trying very hard . It painful , But no matter how I say, YOu will never feel it . you suck on the way to the core . You just look at my negative place and try to pinpoint me . I hate you ... I hate you . There is very less teacher I hated so much . be happy , You are on the list . You pest ! Someone from cambridge say your method is wrong , You still want us to do your method ??? You are not even considering out O level result , You just want your face , don't you ? I don't like you . I wish you get lost of my sight . You can say ITs fake . But , last time , when Yi xiang and I are sitted together , doing our work and whispering , and others are talking so loudly . Tell me what did you do , You scream at us !! I really hate bias teacher , especially who always look at my negative part to pinpont me ... I really hate her . God , please either kill me , or make her disappear from my sight . I cannot bear any much longer . I hate her . Do you know ? OH , You don't even fucking care about us . You just care about those who scored well for your social studies milestone . Don't you ? Do you ever care of us , those who get very low for social studies . did you ? I really hate you . Tell me what can I do ? You really suck .
One day , I am going to burst . My head is very pain . Tell me , should I ? should I give up the vice-chairman position ? I am afraid that I will drag the class to trouble . But I cannot control my temper . What can I do ? It hard . It really painful . Can anyone of you really feel the pain that I am hidding in my heart ? I bet no one can . Because , You all have not gone through what I had gone through ? Should I quit ? should I ? I really need some opinions . I love the role , but i hate the teacher . SO , should I continue .
It's so much pain typing out all this , I wish to shout it out .... But , I cannot .... I hate me ... I hate that teacher . Hais . Mr ong , I'm sorry . I think I cannot do the vice-chairman role . I am tired from all these quarrels . SOrry.
Bye everyone .
Labels: I hate her to the core ... I hate myself too . I hope she will see this . Let her know my hatred to her . please somebody show/tell her.
let it go
7/22/2009 06:24:00 PM
July 21, 2009
Hi , its yongquan again. went to school today , nearly late , because I went to buy sweets at prime even though it is 7 something .... reach school and then lessons all the way . After school , have english and history remedial . After that went compasspoint . The guys ate macdonald while I slack . I don't want eat . Anyway , Clarance say I very fat . ELL . Ok , from today onwards , I want to go on my sec two kind of diet le . Eat 1 time daily . Sobs . I don't want be fat . lols . At the moment , I will try to train some muscle , because , I don't seems to growing any taller , don't want waste time , so train some muscles ....
After that , went rivervale mall . Shopped awhile then return home . Now blogging to you guys . Got to do some training a while more .
Ps- Not quite happy yesterday . Don't understand and Don't want to understand .
What I know that I have tried very hard to change myself . But some of
the people still cannot see the change in me . They won't understand how much
I have gone through . Nevermind .
I am now unsure of my mood . Lets just say that I won't emo . What the use of emoing .
Labels: It's impossible . No. I must forget everything about love . smile yongquan =)
let it go
7/21/2009 07:55:00 PM
July 20, 2009
HI i am yongquan ... Just reached home and use computer until now then post .
Had social studies milestone . I got the factors and examples all right , hope that I can get well , Even if I have to lose the 2 dollars to darren . It worth . Then mr ong and Co birthday celebration . I have 2 cakes and ate 11 carrot cake , 3 garlic bread , 3curry puff . owned ... Recess never eat . lets skipped all the way to the path back to home . I am really very sorry , harry . Sorry . It slipped out of my mouth accidentally . Sorry .
After that went home . Now posted . Going bathe soon . Everyone , BE happy ...
Labels: When I am trying to forget her A second her drifted into my mind Now my brain is cramped .
let it go
7/20/2009 08:08:00 PM
Tagged from Jasmine ,darryl
1.History of your password:
-justinlow ... my christian name
2.Last text message received from:
-Harry
3. Last time you cried:
-Yesterday nearly when i hear of something bad ... but never... It will be stupid of me to cry for such things again....Hope it will be solved soon....
4.Current feeling:
-Guilty , Because WO DUI BU QI HARRY...
FOUR HAVE YOU EVERS:
1. Gone on a date:
-Yup
2. Lost someone special:
-Isn't it very obvious ....
3. Been depressed:
-Last time. I promise myself I will not be depressed again . Hope I can accomplish it...
4. Been drunk and threw up:
-Nope.
THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:
1. Made a new friend:
-Yes. Lots of Friends .
2. Laughed until you cried?
- Yes.
3. Met someone who changed your life:
-Her . But she was gone . But she still change my life anyway.
4. Found out who your true friends are?
-Yes ... They are all around me when I am unhappy .
~~~~~
From now on, you can't tell lies,
Are you ready?
- Yes
Think back six months ago, were you single?
- Yes
What do you carry with you at all times?
-Handphone , Wallet , MP3 and tissue .
When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
-Nope .
How are you feeling?
-Guilty .
Is something wrong right now?
-No .
Are you mad at someone?
-NO I'm not .
What's on your mind?
-ERM , Bestie ,Friends and Friends .
Are you jealous of someone right now?
- last time i am really jealous of him but I found them I am just wasting my time and I decided to stop .
Do you have a piggy bank that's actually shaped like a pig?
- BOH
Do you want to start over with anyone?
-I am really to start over with her , but it is impossible. So what the use of answering this question . LOLS.
Do you know if anyone likes you?
- My family .
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
- I do not really know . Ask My friends .
What are you supposed to be doing right now?
- Bathing and studying ...
True love or 1 billion bucks?
-True love .
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
-1 big 1 small by my mom OR very small by classmates .
Anything you would change about your life right now?
-Of course . It will be stop loving and missing her . Because I must save it for the girl that can reciprocate my feelings.
You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
- Dragon on the back , Tiger on the front . Monster face on the right leg . Snake on my left leg . Skull on my left arm and randy ortan tattoo on my right arm. Cool isn't it . I know what my brother will do when he read this . He will tag and say , You try putting tatoos , see what mummy , daddy and him will do to me ... lols.
Could you cry right now?
-No . It so stupid .
Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
- Before , Yes . Now I don't know .
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
-I don't ... Sometimes I need to say out what I am thinking to make a person change . If not he/she may keep on to be a guy that i dislike .
Are you okay with the life you live?
- Yes through it was Not very perfect .
Last person you told a secret to?
-Clarance and chenjun
Do you like hugs?
- Yes . But I still have not really hug before . But I sure the feeling of hugging someone you like/love .
Do you believe true love can conquer anything?
-I believe . But , for now , I should concentrate on my O level.
When was the last time you cried?
-Yesterday nearly . so not counted . So should be a few weeks ago?
How much money did you spend today?
-4 dollar something.
What are you sitting on right now?
-Chair
Who's the last person you IM'd?
-Msn? Cheng Kiat
What's something you really want right now, be honest.
-To be true , like what it require , I want her . But In reality , It is impossible , so I just want everyone to be happy.
How do you feel about your hair right now?
- So little hair , how to feel ?
What did you do yesterday?
-Study social studies and slack and sleep all these ba...
Would you forgive a friend for telling your biggest secret?
-It depends .
Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?
-Yes .
When's the last time you said you were fine and you really weren't?
-few weeks ago
Is someone on your mind right now?
-Maybe still her ? I still need time to forget
Whose birthday is coming up?
-My on 19th august and charmaine on 21/22 August . lols .
Were you happy when you woke up?!
-Yes , It was a new day . And I should be meeting my friends soon .
What is one emotion you are feeling right now?
- (:
What's the last thing you ate?
-lor mai kai
Are you easy to get along with?
-No . If I said I am easy To get along , Then i am lying to you.
Ever cheated on someone?
- Yes .
Who is the last person to send you a text?
-Harry
What are you currently listening to?
-A Twist in MY story By second serenade .
Tagged :
Kar Wong
Chen jun
Ashley
Joey
Cheng Kiat
Lols . Copy and paste if you want , lols ....
Labels: Yongquan
let it go
7/20/2009 07:10:00 PM
July 19, 2009
Tagged from Jasmine .
1.History of your password:
-banditpr0 ? some of you knows
2.Last text message received from:
-Melvin
3. Last time you cried:
-Yesterday
4.Current feeling:
-Sian still need study SS.
FOUR HAVE YOU EVERS:
1. Gone on a date:
-Yeah
2. Lost someone special:
-Of course
3. Been depressed:
-Yeah
4. Been drunk and threw up:
-Wanted to .
THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:
1. Made a new friend:
-No .
2. Laughed until you cried?
-No .
3. Met someone who changed your life:
-Not really .
4. Found out who your true friends are?
-Yes . Definitely .
~~~~~
From now on, you can't tell lies,
Are you ready?
-yup
Think back six months ago, were you single?
-Yes.
What do you carry with you at all times?
-Handphone wallet mp3
When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
-Sometimes
How are you feeling?
-screwed
Is something wrong right now?
-Yes .
Are you mad at someone?
-Yes.
What's on your mind?
-K*
Are you jealous of someone right now?
-Yes
Do you have a piggy bank that's actually shaped like a pig?
-No
Do you want to start over with anyone?
-Absolutely yes. Definitely.
Do you know if anyone likes you?
- Nobody likes me .
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
-Yes .
What are you supposed to be doing right now?
-Studying for my test tomorrow.
True love or 1 billion bucks?
-True love.
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
-They only said I got small eyes. (same as jas) -.-
Anything you would change about your life right now?
-Yes
You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
- Skull , on my shoulder ?
Could you cry right now?
-Yes.
Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
- Definitely yes .
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
-Always .
Are you okay with the life you live?
- I'm just lacking her .
Last person you told a secret to?
-Chenghan , melvin , francis .
Do you like hugs?
-Yes .
Do you believe true love can conquer anything?
-Idk .
When was the last time you cried?
-Yesterday .
How much money did you spend today?
-None.
What are you sitting on right now?
-Chair
Who's the last person you IM'd?
-Msn? Raphael .
What's something you really want right now, be honest.
-I want to be dead .
How do you feel about your hair right now?
-Thick .
What did you do yesterday?
-Went to swim , and slacked .
Would you forgive a friend for telling your biggest secret?
-I wanna know he's under what circumstances .
Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?
-Yes .
When's the last time you said you were fine and you really weren't?
-Few days ago .
Is someone on your mind right now?
-Her .
Whose birthday is coming up?
-Yongquan ? August 19 .
Were you happy when you woke up?!
-No , because there is a freaking test tomorrow.
What is one emotion you are feeling right now?
-
What's the last thing you ate?
-tempura
Are you easy to get along with?
-Yes .
Ever cheated on someone?
- Yes .
Who is the last person to send you a text?
-Melvin
What are you currently listening to?
-Sweetheart , you're sadly mistaken . (alesana)
Tagged :
Yufei
Yongquan
Darren
Labels: darryL . ™
let it go
7/19/2009 05:18:00 PM
Hi , I am yongquan ....... Today , basically , went to swimming with Kevin , francis , choon kiat , darryl , raphael , yang de . After that , Played basketball with usual basketball friends all the way till 9 something .Skipped gym as something happened in the middle. After that , Went mac . ATE ......
Went compasspoint after that . Then at last went back to Rivervale mall . And then chatted with Chen Jun and Clarance ,While my mum is Forcing me to go home ..... diao .... Then , ran home ... Bathed , now posting . Hope everyone have a good night . My mum forcing me to off computer le . Got to go . bye . Take cares .
Ps - To her ...
- kai xin dian hao ma ?
Labels: Sometimes if you think too much You will find Yourself deeper .. Lets not think and be happy .
let it go
7/19/2009 01:28:00 AM
July 18, 2009
Heartbroken .
Why am i back to posting with tears ?
Her :
Although I've decided to keep everything inside me ,and I had tried my best , to act strong on the outside , but its really disappointing to accept the fact that , you can completely forget me . I cant forget you , i still miss you , i still do . Its kept unknown by me . I hate the fact that you're a not a faithful one . I just cant forget you , and you can even forget my number . Or never even save it . I really don't know what to do anymore . You're in my heart every second , however you can forget me like this . Its true , i'll have to accept it . Despite it is sharp , really knife like , through my heart .
Friends :
Everyone is drifting away from me , i know . People hates me , i know . There is someone backstabbing me , when i did not even do things but were accused like fcuk , i know . Somehow nobody trusts me . Neverminds , nobody can actually do this if one trusted one another . So yeah , the main source we're lacking is trust . I can't do anything to change it already . So yeah . Guys , hope that you all can stay in contact with one another and stay strong within your friendship . I'm out of this , not willingly , but forced . Take care .
Yongquan :
You're right . 初恋难免是最难忘的 . Sorry , but i still cannot forget her . Yeah , we're in the same type of boat . The different thing is that you have sailors with you , but i'm alone .
-
Why am i still tearing with the already - happened truth ? I still love you , i still do . I just cant take my eyes off you , if you'd noticed . But now , everything left are those memories , and those remained are fantasies . Which will never ever happen . Fairytales have happy endings , but for me its just the negative .
I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight . I felt so numb to see this bitter end . Perhaps , this is the end of beautiful illusions . Those broken pieces will not be mend to , please at least remember me .
The Last Three Words : I Love You .
Now i finally understand , that your truth is a deception meant to poison me .
Please live happily ever after , without my presence .
darryl .
Labels: darryL . ™
let it go
7/18/2009 09:21:00 PM
July 16, 2009
HI i am yongquan . Today , nothing much happen ....
lols ....
Just wanted to ask , who wanted to go on saturday . PLease give me your answer by tomorrow , thank you .
Labels: People will change overtime . No matter if it is to the good side or the bad side .
let it go
7/16/2009 07:49:00 PM
July 15, 2009
It's Not Over by Secondhand Serenade
My tears run down like razorblades and no, I'm not the one to blame: it's you or is it me?
And all the words we never say come out and now we are all ashamed. And there is no sense
In playing games, when you done all you can do.
But now it's over, it's over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it. Now it's over,
It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back, but it's over.
I lose myself in all these fights; I lose my sense of wrong and right. I cry, I cry. I'm
Shaking from the pain that's in my head. I just want to crawl into my bed and throw away
The life I led. But I won't let it die. But I won't let it die.
But it's over, it's over. Why is it over? We had the chance to make it. Now it's over,
It's over. It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back.
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart. Don't say this wont last forever. You're breaking
My heart, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together. We could be over
And over, we could be forever.
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart. Don't say this wont last forever. You're breaking
My heart, you're breaking my heart. Don't tell that we will never be together. We could be over
And over, we could be forever.
It's not over. It's not over, it's never over, unless you let it take you, it's not over,
It's not over, it's not over, unless you let it break you. It's not over.
let it go
7/15/2009 09:21:00 PM
Sorry you can put the blame on me by AKON
As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for
I’m sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect
I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry I’m not always there for my son
I’m sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl
[Bridge]
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me
[Chorus]
You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me
Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn’t agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief
I’m sorry that your son was once a thief
I’m sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry your life turned out this way
I’m sorry that the FEDS came and took me away
[Bridge]
[Chorus]
I’m sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I’m sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say
Why doesn’t anybody wanna take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I’m just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I’ll take that blame
Even though the blame’s on you [3x]
I’ll take that blame from you
And you can put that blame on me [2x]
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
Secondhand Serenade : Twist in My Story Lyrics
Slow down, the world isn't watching us break down
It's safe to say we are alone now, we're alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver
I'm counting the seconds until you break the silence
So please just break the silence
The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears
So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
And I'm longing, for words to describe how I'm feeling
I'm feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside down
It turns around, say what's that sound
It's my heart beat, it's getting much louder
My heart beat, is stronger than ever
I'm feeling so alive, I'm feeling so alive
My whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears
So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
I'm finally waking up, a twist in my story
It's time I open up, and let your love right through me
That's what you get
When you see your life in someone else's eyes
That's what you get, that's what you get
So you see, this world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
This world doesn't matter to me
I'll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can't take my eyes off of you
Labels: Yongquan
let it go
7/15/2009 09:07:00 PM
HI , Just to blog for a little today . Just to say , I am very disappointed in myself ... I am also very disappointed in other things . I am feeling very negative now .I promise I do not want to Quarrel again , but I don't know why I just cannot stop myself . 2 quarrels . Hais , Headache . I am not going to be emo . Just feeling very stress recently . Nevermind , I will heed My Friends advice . Thanks Yi Xiang , For helping me . Although we do have quarrels last time , you still helped me . Thanks ...
My temper is errupting everytime , but I do not mean it .I just could not control it . I hope someone can help me .Thanks Yee zheng , Cheng Kiat , Yi xiang , Xinwei , and others , from stopping me to do anything silly . Thanks . If you read my blog , I am truly very grateful at you friends .
Okay, shall not say anything more of the events . I shall ask again who want to go for swimming , gyming and basketballing on saturday .
SWIMMING will be in the morning . Gyming will be at about 5pm . Basketballing will be at 7 pm . Hahas , we should at least excercise once or twice a week .
I'm feeling so stressed now , do not know if I can stop quarreling with people again . Hope I can !
Labels: Maybe I should not expect much from you . I don't know if I can control my temper .
let it go
7/15/2009 08:41:00 PM
July 12, 2009
HI , I am Yongquan .... I'm here to post for yesterday ....
The story starts like this , I went to ss remedial , Then bla bla bla . After that , walked home ... Bathed , Lied on my bed .... Harry called me to go Buangkok play basketball . Me jio darryl to go together ... PLay Play PLay . 1st round won .... second round lost ... Sobs . they say I never play seriously ... I'm sorry. lols... 3rd round , lost ... guys taller than us ... Even taller than kevin wor ... Nevermind , in the three games , I block people 3 times... Actually all the game can win de ... But height advantage wor ...
After that , Fetch harry to compass to meet Yixiang and his groups ... They take 86 while I ride My bike to 188 to play basketball .... Me reach 1st ... hhas . don't praise me , I will hao lian de ...hahas . start playing basketball ... play with 3 person ... 1st round won , but won in a very angry mood . They super duper guailan ... They bang into me , supposed to be charging foul , say me foul... I run two steps and jump they say I travelling ... ZZZ. WTH ... NEvermind , 2nd round , we lost . But that match confirmed lose de . Even I had to acknowledge it ... But i believe I can win them 1 day ... After that match , I have cramps , borrowed counterpain from ahlisoh ... After that called my brother down...
We wait until they down and I told them that those boys very guailan ... 1 of them very kaobei... then , the details shall remained unknown ... Just know that the guys that guailan us , don't dare to play guailan with my brother ... AND the guys that play rough with us don't dare to play rough with my brother ... ZZZ ... HUM JI ... Want bully small again ...FUCKTARDS ...
After that , ME , YX and Cj played match with my brother and his friends ... me and chenjun plus one of my brother friend versus yi xiang , my brother and another friend ... we lost . But i accomplish something .... Ya , I block my brother ball 3 times ... and i kept guailan him as my didi , because i taller than him ler ... lols ....
OK , I shall end here ... hahas . I love basketball ... I going to toughen myself up , and if I meet up with any troubles outside again , I need not ma fun my brother again , and i can settle myself ... Going to train .... Maybe next week going for GYMING and SWIMMING , who wants to join ???
PS ( for her)
- just went to your blog ....
- just wanted to say , cheer up ...
- don't bu kai xin le k?
- promise ?
Labels: I want to become taller and muscular .... I want all my friends to be happy and away from any harms ...
let it go
7/12/2009 04:44:00 PM
July 10, 2009
Hi I am yongquan . Today was a normal day . Fun and Laughter as usual . And before i start today story , I am going to wish Guo Wan a Happy Birthday !!! I am really sincerely about it , though I seems like playing with it in school. Lols . Today , I reminisced about DPA . And then again , I do not know which Poly I should apply to and also , which course I should go to . I don't know what my interests are . I am afraid to go For JC because of my English results . And For poly courses, I am afraid of becoming tired of the course after awhile. Sians. I am so troublesome .maybe , I am going to find out what types of jobs are suitable for me before i choose the course . Opinions for my course , anyone ?
Labels: It will be my birthday soon . I do not need any presents . I just wish to have all my friends and bestie to be happy and to be together everyday . Or a small little gathering ?
let it go
7/10/2009 05:45:00 PM
July 9, 2009
2nd post of the day by yong quan .
Just want to say some Quotes from yongquan . ( a little random )
-think before your actions , if not the consequences may be too big for you to bear , and you will regret why you do all this .... This is a phrase that was told to me by one of my friends when I was emoing for nearly fighting with some others . I think this is good , as No one will want to regret for something bad you had done . Am i right?
- Love may be sweet between the right parties . But if a third party decided to barge in , this love triangle will be full of sadness , and plots to take out the other party . Actually , when you like someone who is already with someone , I think that you should not barge in and spoil the relationship as slowly when hatred is formed , You will regret that why you have barge in .... Don't let your emotions or feelings misled you . Thats what I had learnt .
Labels: I seriously think that everyone should follow these as it really benefits by not letting yourself hate yourself and regretting in future . GAMBATEH =)
let it go
7/09/2009 07:15:00 PM
Hi . I am Yongquan . just came back from school , and view other peoples blog before blogging . Lols . Today is fun . Have dirty jokes together with my dirty Peng you , hahas . then played with karwong with dirty girl filming me zao gen lols . bian tai . then went chemistry. Mr low taught us chemistry practical . After that , actually decide to wait for Dnt students , so talk with karwong . But later decide to go home together with karwong. And then realised i forgot to take kar wong books . Ran back to take , and then walk back to bus stop . lols . What an day! Lols . Hope our lives will be more prosperous after today . Lols .Peace .Love triangle and all those conflicts .With kevin spiderman "swish" and chenjun "woosh" , hope they gone soon . hope , we can have a more peaceful life from today onwards ...
Labels: 如果你爱一个人 不一定要和他在一起。 看着他开心 你也会开心。硬来是不会有好结果的。 Not emo . This sentence is not for me.
let it go
7/09/2009 06:40:00 PM
July 8, 2009
Hi , I am yongquan . Everyone , be worry , I not upset anymore , I am going to prove to everyone that my english can improve all the way till A1 in O level. In this coming english milestone , I hope I can really get a A2 or B3 , if that really happens , I will jump around like mad . . . . . .
today , reading passage was easy , but i am quite worried about my conversation , not that well done . I don't have any idea what to say . Lols . It has passed , I can do nothing about it . And the last thing I want now is to Emo again . So i rather stay happy .
To her .
I am really happy that you tagged again to console me . Really very grateful . I know I may have wronged you many times in the past . My only hope now is to get your apology and maybe we can be back best friends Like before In early months of secondary 3 . When i was a mischievous boy , Always running around disturbing you . Hahas, the days of running around have passed , as I cannot show bad impression to teachers any more . Mr ong gave me his trust to be the vice-chairman , and i must show him I can do it . Hence , Maybe , we can be back friends , maybe studying together all those . You agree , bestie ?? Aren't you supposed to be my bestie ? lols . Stay cheerful . =) Don't emo . Got problem can tell me , I try my best to help you .
Labels: Slowly slowly . One step by one step . I have already forget a little about you . Hahas . Won't emo ler . I am happy boy .
let it go
7/08/2009 07:09:00 PM
July 7, 2009
HI i am yongquan . Actually , I am not in a very good mood right now .
I don't know why whenever i tried to put in effort in things , people will never give even a slightest appreciation . Hais . NOt only that , they try to make it funny , It felt humilating okay . When I try my best, people will felt that it was not enough .... I know i am weak in english , thats why i told you guys to guild me , but not to try and make fun of me . You can always teach me after the lesson , why must you all shout out the pronounciation , and tried to make it funny , To you , it may be funny , But to me , I felt very humilated . You all kept laughing and teasing me about my english . I try my best to improve . But everytime when i have the confidence , You all will laugh at my mistakes , and my confidence fell all the way to the bottom of the heap again, with this , i don't know if i will be able to voice out my comment again the next time , because my comments are like nothing . Maybe , I am unjustify . Maybe i need sometime to think. Or , maybe , it is my fault from the begining . Don't know why , my effort is always like nothing .
Secondly , I don't know why i will feel Some kind of "uneasilyness" in school some times . I feel that my friends are hating me , is it because of me did something wrong , is it ? i don't know , Just felt that with me around , nothing can goes right . Sometimes , I felt darn lonely for nothing , I felt very left out . I want to know , just what is the problem with me that make everyone distancing away from me .
Nevermind , Hope if i can get normal again . Hope I can get used to the environment in the school from today onwards.
Labels: Is it my fault to cause everyone to distance away from me ?
let it go
7/07/2009 05:59:00 PM
July 6, 2009
Hi i am yongquan . Just here to post for the three days .
On friday , went to jalan kayu with friends , ate and proceeded to walk home as it was already 12 midnight , no bus le. Then i stomachache so ran with zan kai 1st . Then 1 plus then reach home .
On saturday , Went to study with the EX- study group , excluding dorothy as she was busy . Actually planning to study ss , but I am quite inefficient that day , as i did nothing . Played basketball with aches , and at last went to yee zheng house to sleep . And I sleep throughtout the night on the bed unlike karwong and kevin , I so shuang sia .
On sunday , Went to makan at 1 something , went home and slept to 7 o clock , ate maggie mee . then slept again at 12 something , Sorry Chen jun , Pangseh you , i cannot go out .
OKay . This column is for her again .
- 原来你根本没把我当作一个忘记他的棋子。原来从一开始都是我在自作多情，从一开始都是我的错，从一开始都是我的愚蠢使得我今天的痛苦。对不起，我的自作多情让你受了很多委屈，痛苦，与无奈。其实是我太天真了。是我从去年9月疏忽而造成给我们的一切痛苦。其实我根本不该设法恨你，应该被恨的其实是我。其实你从一开始就没喜欢过我对吗？ 你只是因为我喜欢你而不想弄我伤心才无奈的让着我吧？是我想太多以为你是真的爱上了我吧？对不起。。。。。对不起。。。。。全都是我的错。。。。。我太天真了。。。。是我疏忽了你对我的感觉。 我这次真的彻底的完全错了。
Labels: It was my fault at the start . I have misunderstood your feelings towards me . Hence I will and I must forget you and this will be the last apology and tears left for you.
let it go
7/06/2009 06:19:00 PM
July 3, 2009
lols . i am yongquan . this is my 2nd post of the day . jus wanted to say that i found 2 songs very nice . lols . jokes .
依然是朋友
情人节的前一天,他离开你身边
却剩下你到至今的想念,
那一夜我陪着你,你哭了一整夜
你是否知道我对他一样很想念
直到有一天我和他碰面
在那间我们常去的咖啡店
才知道有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间隐藏了什么
除了我自己没人懂
可是你,你怎么说
你知道好事不是从此避开我
哦,我一样难过
多希望我们不曾相识过
那一夜我陪着你,你哭了一整夜
你是否知道我对他一样很想念
直到有一天我和他碰面
在那间我们常去的咖啡店
才知道有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们之间隐藏了什么
除了我自己没人懂
可是你,你怎么说
你知道好事不是从此避开我
哦,我一样难过
多希望我们不曾相识过
才知道有些感受
我和他谁都不曾说出口
我们都是最好的朋友
谁会有勇气去开口
不在乎不再难过
我们还有好大好大的借口喔～
故事的最后
我们都不曾失去过什么
我们依然是朋友
噢～
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IPrkMpPhF3U
visit this website for the song if you want .
星期三的約會
牵着你的手
我们走在雨后的街
经过了那间我们熟悉的咖啡店
今天是什么天
懒得去想
反正有你在身边
管他什么时间
你说有很久已经没有这样约会
很想念一起开心聊天的从前
今天是wednesday
什么电影在上演
去电影院持续十分钟的时间
我喜欢 这样渺小的世界
这样雨后的天
没有一点压力的感觉 我喜欢
我要牵着你的手 一起走到电影院
电影的世界 有太多美丽的画面
我们的世界 总有太多的不完美
你不在电影里面 你就在我的身边
这样的画面 就已经最完美
我喜欢 这样渺小的世界
这样雨后的天
没有一点压力的感觉
我知道 这样靠在你的肩
就让我觉得安全 很安全
电影的世界 有太多美丽的画面
我们的世界 总有太多的不完美
你不在电影里面 你就在我的身边
这样的画面 就已经最完美
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nOIH3y6Y5GI&feature=related
this also lols .
I remember that your birthday was on wednesday last year too . :) remember , 我们依然是最好的朋友.... stay cheerful . hahas . forgetting process .
Labels: listen to the song . We are still the best of friends
let it go
7/03/2009 07:35:00 PM
Hi I am Yong Quan . Today, again I cannot control my temper , only control a little nia. nearly quarrel with mr ong .
But never shout at him as before . sians . I must control . I need to take care of the class. I will never lead the class astray again . I will try all my best to stop them from following my past footsteps .
I must . I am the vice-chairman , and I will take care of the class , i must . I will show others that I can be trusted with . When people put their trust on me , I must do that thing , but it must depend that if it is a good thing or a bad thing , This is a good thing , It can help me to change for the better . Hope i can . :)
Smilee , another lesson learnt today , anyway , late and reached school at 7.30 . Only wake up at 7.20 in the morning , then walked quickly to school , first time late , sad . Hais . Should have wake up . Worried about my testimonial now .
Took my height and weight , realised that I have been growing 5 kg every year since secondary 3 . seondary 1 to 2 is 45 kg , secondary 3 is 50 , secondary 4 is 54 . lols . I need to eat lesser le wor . Remembered that I ate a lot this year lols . And , my height is 164 , same with shu hao . lols . jump yong quan , jump , must grow taller . ZZZ .
Today, chemistry taught oxidation , It was quite easy , and today is a miracle , I can concentrate fully in mr low class like in secondary 3 , hope my result can maintain at A1 , or improve more . Wooh . A-math and E-math still the same , cannot concentrate fully , must control ler . Hey , 1st in O level , 1st in prelim , 1st in class 4A and 4B , I am coming . I must concentrate le . I don't want to lose out again . Felt so bad for my this year result and thats the consequences for not studying . Hope I can continue to work hard for my studies . And no more Emo !
PS Her columnAre you the one that called me to 加油 on my table ? Is that you? Did you know that You are the girl that I dread to see everyday ? Do you know that you are the only girl that kept appeared in my dreams . Hahas . Nevermind if you don't know , I know you don't love me . So , I promise I will forget you sooner or later . Remember , no Emoing ... The 1st step was tough , but it was a small step , i will proceed with the 2nd step to forget you If I see the chance . Goodbye my love . Hope you can stay happy ,pretty , cute , kind , friendly forever . Hope you can find the one that really suits you . :) ZAI JIAN . Got any unhappiness or problems , Can still come and find me , I will try my best to help.
Friends column Hey friends , Sorry for not able to keep order in the class and brought you all so much punishment . I promise I will not do it again . From today onwards , I will be a Responsible , Considerate vice-chairman . I will stop fooling around . If I offended you all in anyway , I apologise here . Sorry . I must control my temper from today onwards!!!! Self-control.
Labels: 在痛苦爱情和朋友的中间 我选择了朋友。 而在变坏和变乖的中间 我选择了变乖。 希望大家能自持我的选择。
let it go
7/03/2009 05:51:00 PM
July 2, 2009
Hi , I am yong quan here . I am happy for these few days of being the class vice-chairman. I got my 10 demerit today . Although It was bad , But it sure serve as a lesson to me . I will try not to make that mistake again .
Lols , Today 4 monks appear in the school.
Thats me , karwong , zankai , kevin . lols .
Many things happened today .
Mrs haffidz back , still so humorous as usual .
Lols .
Then we the 4 monks formed a lame organisation
called the monk organisation to backup each other .
Lols .
Raping organisation is gone .
Then , today , i shall make a promise to myself . I will try my best not to quarrel or fight with anyone again . Even if I am angry , I will try my best to "contain " the heat . I don't want to disappoint Mr Ong again .
Today school is fun fun fun , except I again Emo for her again . NEVERMIND , It would be over , I will Forget her soon ,It just time . I must and i will .
I will try to improve my behavious in school everyday , bits by bits , until I can really fit into the position of vice-chairman .
Anyway , after reading chen jun post, i also felt that i had neglected many of my best friends , which included - Yee zheng , Karwong , Chenjun , Kevin ......
They are the best type of friend you can ever find in here .
They care very much towards each other
When i am sad , they are always the 1st to appear .
Thank guys .
I will Try my best to change for the better from today onwards .
And karwong , I hoped that this position of vice-chairman,
Can really be my turning point .
I needed some self-control from today onwards ....
lets meet again tomorrow , best friends and monk organisation.
Bye . Good night . (:
Labels: 我一定会放下你的。 今天为你送书包就是我的第一步。 加油 yongquan
let it go
7/02/2009 09:56:00 PM
July 1, 2009
Yo , i am yongquan , As what karwong had mentioned . the raping committee is quite inefficient for a long time , and a organisation is coming soon . Lols . Funny , but powerful . Lols . You all will notice tomorrow .
Anw , this few days of being the vice chairman , the feeling is quite good . I wish i can be better and help in the class development . Hope so . Ya , lols . Jiayou yongquan.
Labels: I will be back to my old selves soon . i love my friends . i will change
let it go
7/01/2009 09:59:00 PM
