July 19, 2009
Tagged from Jasmine .
1.History of your password:
-banditpr0 ? some of you knows
2.Last text message received from:
-Melvin
3. Last time you cried:
-Yesterday
4.Current feeling:
-Sian still need study SS.
FOUR HAVE YOU EVERS:
1. Gone on a date:
-Yeah
2. Lost someone special:
-Of course
3. Been depressed:
-Yeah
4. Been drunk and threw up:
-Wanted to .
THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:
1. Made a new friend:
-No .
2. Laughed until you cried?
-No .
3. Met someone who changed your life:
-Not really .
4. Found out who your true friends are?
-Yes . Definitely .
~~~~~
From now on, you can't tell lies,
Are you ready?
-yup
Think back six months ago, were you single?
-Yes.
What do you carry with you at all times?
-Handphone wallet mp3
When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
-Sometimes
How are you feeling?
-screwed
Is something wrong right now?
-Yes .
Are you mad at someone?
-Yes.
What's on your mind?
-K*
Are you jealous of someone right now?
-Yes
Do you have a piggy bank that's actually shaped like a pig?
-No
Do you want to start over with anyone?
-Absolutely yes. Definitely.
Do you know if anyone likes you?
- Nobody likes me .
Are you good at hiding your feelings?
-Yes .
What are you supposed to be doing right now?
-Studying for my test tomorrow.
True love or 1 billion bucks?
-True love.
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
-They only said I got small eyes. (same as jas) -.-
Anything you would change about your life right now?
-Yes
You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
- Skull , on my shoulder ?
Could you cry right now?
-Yes.
Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
- Definitely yes .
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
-Always .
Are you okay with the life you live?
- I'm just lacking her .
Last person you told a secret to?
-Chenghan , melvin , francis .
Do you like hugs?
-Yes .
Do you believe true love can conquer anything?
-Idk .
When was the last time you cried?
-Yesterday .
How much money did you spend today?
-None.
What are you sitting on right now?
-Chair
Who's the last person you IM'd?
-Msn? Raphael .
What's something you really want right now, be honest.
-I want to be dead .
How do you feel about your hair right now?
-Thick .
What did you do yesterday?
-Went to swim , and slacked .
Would you forgive a friend for telling your biggest secret?
-I wanna know he's under what circumstances .
Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?
-Yes .
When's the last time you said you were fine and you really weren't?
-Few days ago .
Is someone on your mind right now?
-Her .
Whose birthday is coming up?
-Yongquan ? August 19 .
Were you happy when you woke up?!
-No , because there is a freaking test tomorrow.
What is one emotion you are feeling right now?
-
What's the last thing you ate?
-tempura
Are you easy to get along with?
-Yes .
Ever cheated on someone?
- Yes .
Who is the last person to send you a text?
-Melvin
What are you currently listening to?
-Sweetheart , you're sadly mistaken . (alesana)
Tagged :
Yufei
Yongquan
Darren
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let it go
7/19/2009 05:18:00 PM
July 18, 2009
Heartbroken .
Why am i back to posting with tears ?
Her :
Although I've decided to keep everything inside me ,and I had tried my best , to act strong on the outside , but its really disappointing to accept the fact that , you can completely forget me . I cant forget you , i still miss you , i still do . Its kept unknown by me . I hate the fact that you're a not a faithful one . I just cant forget you , and you can even forget my number . Or never even save it . I really don't know what to do anymore . You're in my heart every second , however you can forget me like this . Its true , i'll have to accept it . Despite it is sharp , really knife like , through my heart .
Friends :
Everyone is drifting away from me , i know . People hates me , i know . There is someone backstabbing me , when i did not even do things but were accused like fcuk , i know . Somehow nobody trusts me . Neverminds , nobody can actually do this if one trusted one another . So yeah , the main source we're lacking is trust . I can't do anything to change it already . So yeah . Guys , hope that you all can stay in contact with one another and stay strong within your friendship . I'm out of this , not willingly , but forced . Take care .
Yongquan :
You're right . 初恋难免是最难忘的 . Sorry , but i still cannot forget her . Yeah , we're in the same type of boat . The different thing is that you have sailors with you , but i'm alone .
-
Why am i still tearing with the already - happened truth ? I still love you , i still do . I just cant take my eyes off you , if you'd noticed . But now , everything left are those memories , and those remained are fantasies . Which will never ever happen . Fairytales have happy endings , but for me its just the negative .
I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight . I felt so numb to see this bitter end . Perhaps , this is the end of beautiful illusions . Those broken pieces will not be mend to , please at least remember me .
The Last Three Words : I Love You .
Now i finally understand , that your truth is a deception meant to poison me .
Please live happily ever after , without my presence .
darryl .
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7/18/2009 09:21:00 PM
June 30, 2009
Not really in the mood to post now yeah .
Fcuking not feeling well . Having a headache after a nap just now , but forget it .
Guess i shall not post for the time being . Shall go MIA in this blog .
I should take more time revising work , and sorts .
Sorry guys . But weekends sure will uh ... Promise . (:
Alrights , gotta work on my algebra now .
Goodbye ...
PS: Swine Flu invading me ? Maybe ?
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let it go
6/30/2009 08:51:00 PM
June 25, 2009
Due to many's request , i decided to post after some rounds of dota .
Anyway , today went to 'wulu' dnt as many people didn't go as it was optional . ;O Go there till damn sian and buay tahan so went back after lunch . I don't think i will be going back tomorrow le bah . I rather stay at home do work sehhs ~
Hmmms , dunno why nowadays quite emotional . Abit jiu happy , abit jiu sad . Weird ~ And i don't period/moodswing . ;X Oh yea , speaking about homework ... i bet alot of you havent complete bahh . Especially history and english . As these two heavy weight champions will kill us , so please try to complete this 2 at least yeah .
As for me , i've completed history and english vocab and Heroes~ Still have oral , paper 2 and letter to go . Monday still got history test , arghhhh crap ~ (copied from javier) . So , sunday will be studying for that . And i will have to complete my homework before that yeah .
Nothing much to talk about also ... Actually wanted to play maple private server but damn lazy download , install and extract blabla , so 算了吧~ Yufei this cb called me to play cos he want to try out the pirate job . -.-
Hmmms , alrights . Joke of the day ~ :
A Texan is visiting Australia for the first time; He sees a sheep and starts laughing; he says to his Australian guide " oh, at home in Texas, sheep are twice as big!" He then sees a cow ands bursts " Puff, in Texas, our cows are much, much bigger!" And suddenly, he sees a kangaroo and asks, "What's that?" the guide answers " oh, that's just a grasshopper...”
Laugh if you understand , point me middle finger if you don't . ;X
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let it go
6/25/2009 11:44:00 PM
June 18, 2009
Tired .
Back from intensive dnt and a game of basketball with my buddies .
Yeah , anyway another 悲剧 happened today . Shall not further elaborate on it yeah . Just to say , get well soon kevin . Remember that earpiece is banned from dnt now . ;X
Alrights , nothing more to say . Felt so left out nowadays . I don't know what happened , what the fuck i did ? I don't even did anything wrong or betrayed you guys and now it seems like its my fault . What the fuck . Idk what to say le . Fcked up now .
Maybe i'm suppose to be all alone yeah ?
: I can't explain myself at all ... (It Ends Tonight)
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let it go
6/18/2009 11:07:00 PM
June 17, 2009
What a 'fun' day yeah ? :D
Anyway , it takes courage to post this yeah , cos yee zheng and harry told me not to , but i defy them . :DD
Alrights , today damn 悲剧 . Total about 3 悲剧 bah .
Plus 3 经典 . Rofl . Here i go ~
Meet yufei raphael kevin yeezheng vivian michelle harry karwong on bus 43 and off we go for east coast . Then kevin meet us at there as he cabbed there and he waited for us about an hour ? LOLS . Poor kevin . hahahhas .
Then rent bikes , and started our day . Cycled around and here the first 悲剧 begins . Karwong and Kevin are playing with each other and harry noticed it , and wanted to copy them as well . So , he misunderstood them and started to hump the bike , by jumping on it . However , the bike don't like harry's dick and it rejected . As a result , harry fell and hurt himself . lols . 悲剧 ...
So we continued our journey by cycling around . While cycling , vivian and michelle was cycling side by side . And here comes another 悲剧 . Yee zheng intercepted them by riding his bike through them right in the middle . So , vivian lost balanced as her bike knocked on yee zheng's bike . This made vivian fell and a big scar on her leg .. Awwww , another 悲剧 .
So , yee zheng 良心过意不去 , and decided to sent her to a clinic to prevent infections of her wound . OK . HERE COMES THE 经典 PART . Vivian went to see the doctor and 3 followed . LOL . WTF ? Okay , lets think this way . Vivian of course must go so forgiven . Then yee zheng wanted to pay for her medicine fee , so also forgiven . However , michelle for there for what ?! Okay , lets put it this way . She was concerned about vivian since they are the only girls in the group . Okay sorta forgiven . NOW NOW , KEVIN GO FOR WHAT ???? ROARS . PANGSEH ALL OF US SIA . SHIT YOU . lols .
Now the third 悲剧 . Here left me yufei raphael harry and karwong only . Since time is almost up , and no point continue to cycle anymore , we're ordered to return our bikes . Okay . Here is the problem . There are 9 bikes in total and there are only 5 of us . LOLS . Gg-ed . So how ? Bo bian , go two rounds loh . So karwong took care of the bikes while me yufei raphael and harry went to return the bikes . We cycle cycle , then realise that , we need actually 20 mins to reach there BY BICYCLE . AND WE HAVE TO WALK BACK AND CYCLE BACK AGAIN . WTF WTF WTF WTF . Damn 悲剧 can . wa . Train our leg muscles sia . -.- Anyway , the distance between the incident place and the bicycle shop is around 2.5km ? Kao ..
So we went to return the bikes and started to walk . On the way , damn many jokes la . And we damn buay tahan liao loh , keep whine and kaobei . lols . But still bo bian . So walk loh . Walk walk walk till we damn tired . Then yufei called karwong and say , we now 全速赶过去 , which is damn joke la . HAHAHAHHAAS . So when we reaching , we act like we ran till damn tired lidat . HAHHAHA . See karwong straight away run . ROFL , WE DAMN BITCH . Then again cycled back there . Gan tired sia . Anyway , we walked back took around 45 mins . LOLS !!
Okay , the total distance is like .... Normal group cycling ( around 2km ) + first journey to return first 4 bikes ( 2.5km ) + walk back to get another 4 bikes ( another 2.5km ) + second journey to return next 4 bikes ( another 2.5 km ) = Around 10km ? Own la sia .
Okay , when me raphael and yufei are on our second journey , we mastered the free hand riding . hahhahas . We damn joke la . Keep cycle then let go our hands and act like we running . LOL . damn funny sia . hahahhas . This is the second 经典 one . rofl . Like all people around us staring at us . Then somemore at the end there me and yufei both let go and guailan . HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA . DAMN JOKE .
Alrights . Returned all our bikes and we went to take bus . Decided on jalan kayu for our dinner but karwong not joining us . So we went off . Reached jalan kayu and harry got some daiji with his dad . Poor harry ~ So after that , got a place to settle down and we started our dinner . We are like eating halfway and i'm sweating cos damn hot while yufei and some of them are like , 流鼻涕 - ing . LOLS . So we asked them for tissue paper . However , on the menu , there is a roti prata called tissue . Here comes another 经典 one . We asked him for tissue paper and he thought we want that prata , then like cannot communicate . ROFL DAMN JOKE . Then raphael ran to toilet to get tissue , even more 经典 . ROFL . HAHAHHAS . damn funny .
Then took bus while 'fighting' with kevin and i 伤痕累累 . Scratched by him again . -.- damn you kevin . lols .
Reached home and now posting . ahhh~ damn tired . Okay , a summary for this :
Me , yufei , raphael , harry walked for around 2.5km and cycled for 7km . （悲剧）
Karwong waited for around an hour （悲剧）
vivian fell down （悲剧）
harry failed to hump a bike and fell down （悲剧）
Mastered free hand riding （经典）
Communication failure with black ants （经典）
Darryl is hurt by kevin （悲剧）
Waste money （悲剧）
leg muscles trained like fuck （经典）
tired
Enjoyed~ :D （经典）
Hahahahs , such a wordy post . Omg , alrights gotta run road le .Take care and goodbye all~ .
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let it go
6/17/2009 10:04:00 PM
June 16, 2009
What the fuck is happening to me ?
Why the fuck am i still expecting so much ?
What the fuck am i thinking ?
What the fuck am i doing ?
Why the fuck am i still so concerned about you ?
Why the fuck am i typing this ?
What the fuck am i blogging ?
Why the fuck i have no mood ?
Why the fuck i wanna kill myself ?
Who the fuck am i ?
What the fuck i did ?
Why the fuck do i have this life ?
Why the fuck should i carry on ?
Why the fuck am i writing ?
Why the fuck do i still love you ?
Why the fuck do i still want you ?
Why the fuck do i still need you ?
Why the fuck do i still miss you ?
Why the fuck am i still carrying on this ?
Signing off .
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let it go
6/16/2009 06:41:00 PM
June 10, 2009
Coool , some of your true colours are revealed .
Now i finally understand the whole thing . Humans can be so practical , and so realistic . Sighhhs , no comments . People do change easily , guess i should not trust people too much . Shall not go in depth of this interesting thing .
Alrights , not much things to post . Just to say that we're flooded with homework . Crap , dying le . All subjects have homework , and not those little little de , its like a pile . Ahhh , how am i gonna finish all ?!?!?!?
Alrights . Some updates on homework :
English : The Worksheet is to be completed .
Maths : 2D , 3D worksheet + 10 graph
Physics : memorize all physic formula
Chemistry :
SS : Workbook exercise and one sbq
History : 12 sbq (8 to be handed in when school reopens)
Dnt : 10 ideations by monday and our practical to be completed when june hols ended .
Coool , guess its not finished yet . Ahhh , gotta finish my 'aims' le . Which is 2 sbq and 1 ideation to be completed by today . GANBETTE !
Take care all , and one thing . Don't trust someone who seemed to be very ncie to you , it might be a PROPAGANDA .
愚蠢的人类 ...
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let it go
6/10/2009 11:26:00 PM
June 4, 2009
Tired day ~
Had Chemistry practical for the first lesson . Managed to learn something .. But still , cant escape the fact that i'm sleepy throughout the lesson . ;X
Physics next ... Slacked for quite long ... Nothing much . Lols .
After that was history . hahahas , before that ... SOMETHING FUN HAPPENED !! OMG , someone is raped .. By many many guys .... Who ahh ? Hahahahs . I was one of them of course . He was stripped ~~~ AHHH , kelian de mao mao ... Opps , bu neng shuo de mi mi . HAHHAHAS .
After that , went for some random chinese oral practice . Quite random through , but i didn't flunk that . Hahahhahs . Managed to recall some points from my si han . And i scored a 9/10 for reading . ( Read too fast and 1 wrong word ) -.-
As for conversation , scored a 24/30 . ( Not enough elaboration , and used things like 'for' and 'then' ) So overall was a distinction . Quite happy about that . Anyway , mr tan told me to be tidy . ( No unbuttoning and no messy hair ) . lols ...
Went to dnt and i totally forget my thingy . Crapped , and then yi xiang was ba zhan - ing mdm lim . So i lan lan go slack . ;X
Went to play basketball next ! WOOOS . So long never play with friends le sia . Definitely enjoyed . Those peeps include yongquan chenjun yixiang harry zan kai kevin clarance shu hao . And also damn funny la . hahahs . More of this kind of relax time PLEASE . hahahs . (:
Damn sian sia , tmr whole day math and then is dnt . Math still okay uh , cos i nid to improve . ( PS : i know mr ong will come this blog . HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA ) Dnt also okay uh . But i nid some sleep . ;X
After that , went to my house downstairs to slack with yongquan . Had a man's talk . Quite long never chat le bahhs . Felt quite comfortable after that . (:
Alrights , gonna do some work le . NO TIME FOR SLACKING !!
Cya peeps ~
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let it go
6/04/2009 08:49:00 PM
June 2, 2009
Tired day .. Alrights , chang hua duan shuo .
Basically , went to E hub to watch movie ( Angels and Demons ) with my good friends , which includes yufei , chenjun , yeezheng , chenghan , raphael , kevin , cheng kiat , xin wei . That movie is very nice , shall say its highly recommended . I'll grade it 4.5/5 . hahs .
After that , went to fish and co to makan as all of us was starving . Hmmmms . had some fun there as well . Anyway , chenghan did had some fun there also . ;XX Bu neng shuo de mi mi . xD
Alrights , after that went to bugis to get some books . Chenjun , xin wei and cheng kiat didn't go . So we meet gerald and karwong and off we go to the destination . Managed to find some books but i only bought 1 . While the others also bought quite a few books . Da feng shou ba . After that , raphael yufei and i went to some guitar shops to hang around . Anyway , due to yufei's 'great' idea , all of us are forced to pay 1.50 for the national geographic book , hahas but neverminds . It will help us gain certain knowledge .
So went to eat some tako yaki with yeezheng . He influence me de .. ;X Anyway , the 3 jokers ( kevin , gerald and karwong ) went to expo for the food fair . LOLS . Bwg ~
So we went to compass while i get my soya ice cream at Mr bean . It did remind me about some memories yeah ~ Neverminds .
After that , we met clarance and dean while waiting for bus . Awwww , what a small world . The cutest thing is they also went to watch movie , and also angels and demons . LOLS . Singapore is really small , what do you think ?
Hmmms , summary :
Had fun ... ( Definitely )
Bought a book . ( The Black Angel )
Earpiece spoilt . ..l.. Cb . -.-
Waste money~
3 blisters . LOLS
Tired
Broke~
Alrights , thats all for today . Anyway , cianyuhh is back from malaysia !! Omg , miss her sia . :X Somehow . hahhas . Cause she told me to do so .
Kkays , gonna dota le . Bet you guys sure enjoyed yourself today .
Goodnights~
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let it go
6/02/2009 09:10:00 PM
June 1, 2009
Sighhs , sian uh .
Basically , today's paper i think i can score at least a b3 bahhs . But thats not enough ... I want an A1 . lols , but somehow no confidence after checking answers with Chen li li lao shi ...
Alrights . It's already over , don't care . Kkays , actually suppose to catch a movie with yufei and company de .. But full , so too bad .. Postponed to tomorrow . Anyway , our great mr philip tan said that we worked very hard so give us a day off , which is tomorrow . Three Cheers For Mr Tan ! (:
I bet you guys have lots of planning for tomorrow bahs , including you . Sure going out with your usual friends and sorts . Aiya , i don't care le . Even if i care , also pointless . Waste my effort only . But i wonder if i really can or not . Suan le .
Hmmms , after some dota with my friends , now i'm back to some free time ... So i came to post . Anyway anyway , cianyuhh is back to malaysia . Omg Omg !! But neverminds , only a few days . hahahahs , if not nobody pei me when i need a listening ear le . Thanks baby , sure will miss you !! (:
Oh yeah , i will also like to thank Wennes Alethea . hahhahas , she's also my great friend which always cheer me up !! Thanks uh , hhahahs . Got problem must find me also . :D:D
Thanks girls ... My life would be dull without you all around . (:
Really appreciated it , hahas . Thanks !! :D
Alrights , planning on what to do le .. Chenghan brother gonna use com so he cant host . Sian 1/2 .
Alrights . Go slack le ..
Seeya ~
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let it go
6/01/2009 09:35:00 PM
May 25, 2009
Tiring day , took chinese paper 2 in the morning and went through in the afternoon . Totally flunked that paper , and i know most of us did too . I must say that it is difficult , and i have damn lots of mistakes . Guess my chinese is still sucky yeah ?
Anyway sian - ed 1/2 when i know that we will have to take a paper 2 and a paper 1 everyday until chinese o level come . OMG , just bear with it bah . I want my distinctions . (:
Yea , today you're absent . Just to tell you to take good care , and get well soon . Chinese 'o' levels is around the corner , can't afford to fall sick . You must really recover soon , lessons without your laughter and voice seems weird to me . Without your presence made me feel empty . Even though we didn't talk , i'm already pleased when i can see you . I don't expect too much , yeah . So take good care , and must really recover as soon as possible .
Nothing to post already . Dota - ed just now , with those normal dota-mates . First round and we won . Good start ? Hope so .
Alrights got to go take a nap . Cya guys .
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let it go
5/25/2009 06:14:00 PM
May 24, 2009
Turning back the pendulum back to the days we have , seems to hurt alot . Now , when i'm alone , its impossible not to think of you . But for me , it seems like you had never liked me before , never . This is how i feel at least . Maybe your heart is filled with someone else , and that person is on the same boat with me , missing you every second .
i've decided to post out my feelings , remember that day when i saw a name ? Just a simple name would pierce through my heart . You can try if you don't believe how pain it can be . Imagine a person you like and she knows that you like her , but you saw somebody Else's name on her wallpaper ? And the saddest thing is you're with her . I tried to hold back my tears , and i've succeeded , but its unavoidable that i want to be alone , thats why i went off so quickly . I'm sorry . To you , it might just be a simple name , but for me , it really hurts a lot . During the days we had together , have you ever put my name on the wallpaper ? Yea forget it , i should not expect this . I cared so much about is because i love you . Still loving you , but you might not know . Seeing you in school everyday is really hell, especially when you talk to other people, play with other people. But I just can’t do anything about it. I’m just a normal friend right now, I can only suffer in silence. Go home and emo. Nobody knows it hurts so much. Sighs , the name you love , the name I'll always remember , until my death bed .
Why am i still writing this for you ? Why am i still so sad for you ? I should have know this will happen . You are like a razor , leaving a deep scar in my heart , i just can't forget you . I'm trying my very best right now . Wish me good luck .
I think now you're starting to hate me , which is good . I'm sure you can find a better one , to take care of you . Wish you all the best . And promise me , to be happy all the time . I felt like dying when i know you're unhappy , but I'll just make the situation worse , so i just kept quiet , wishing for somebody to cheer you up . So no matter what , you must be happy ,and really must take good care of yourself , and don't do silly things anymore .
Goodbye my love .
A word will cheer me up :
不在乎天长地久 ； 只在乎曾经拥有
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let it go
5/24/2009 12:07:00 AM
May 19, 2009
A Poem for you .
Three years to the day and it's all the same,
You're still inside my head, still inside my brain,
Not one of these pills can control the pain,
And all of my world's gone up in flame,
Your ashes may be gone, but your soul still here,
Still haunting me, the cause of my fear,
I'm all fogged up, nothing is clear
A physical ache!
A mental break!
Tearing me down from the inside out now,
A terrible shake!
An earthen quake!
Every building' 'round is falling down,
Revealing your feelings to me,
The colors I'm seeing come in black or white,
The colors left with you on that fateful night,
You once told me it'll be alright,
But now I'm losing my will to keep up the fight,
A physical ache!
A mental break!
Tearing me down from the inside out now,
A terrible shake!
An earthen quake!
Every building' 'round is falling down,
Revealing your feelings to me,
Do you know me know you've popped my heart on the ground?
Have you missed me since you left without a sound?
Now my soul is lost never to be found,
And I'm selling my body off by the pound,
A physical ache!
A mental break!
Tearing me down from the inside out now,
A terrible shake!
An earthen quake!
Every building' 'round is falling down,
Revealing your feelings to me,
I Miss you .
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let it go
5/19/2009 09:13:00 PM
Posting now while waiting for chenghan and we can start another round of dota .
Hmmms mid year exam had finished , but i still feel the same , not happy or whatsoever , maybe Chinese o level is coming already . Gonna score distinction for that yea .
Alrights , today's paper is fine for me , but when discussing with friends , realise i had quite a lot of mistakes , but i don't give a damn since its over . Whats the point worrying over it right ?
Anyway tomorrow got english oral , guys remember to bring your english magic booklet or you'll be slaughtered by Mrs haffidz , lols .
Sian , quite moody these few days . Cannot decide whether to talk or not to , both is wrong . -.-
Omg , chenghan is back , kkays just to say a few more words .
I miss you , but i know i should keep a distance away from you .
Since it doesn't really matters to you anyway . I need doraemon , to give me those machines i want , especially a time machine . To the past , and also to the future .
I want to know lots of things , now its like all unknown to me .
Yea , wish that you will really take care and don't do those silly stuffs anymore . I'm not there anymore , you don't need me anyway .
Just to say , hope you'll be happy and take good care .
Goodbye .
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let it go
5/19/2009 07:22:00 PM
May 2, 2009
This post will be about some emotions thingy and sorts . Sorry guys , bear with me .
All my friends now say that my words or even messages have secret agenda , when i don't even have one . Its still normal , the way i always talk or i type . Why do you guys do not say me last time ? I really have no secret agenda and you guys just don't believe . Its not the first day you all know me right ? You all should know i'm straight-forward and does not think before i speak , and now you guys say i got agenda . I don't know what to do anymore . Anyone tell me what to do ? You guys really think that i got secret agenda in my words ? If thats the case then i really got nothing to say le , i cant change how you think right ? Even my best friend say that too , when he really knows me well . Just to say that i can swear with my life that i have no fcking agenda , believe it or not . I think i will have to give one-word answers to every questions le . I will be as quiet as possible . I don't want to lose friends anymore , at least until the end of 'o' levels . I treat my friends the best , giving them my everything , i don't want this , i want back my old friends , i want the trust . I don't know how it started , that you all start to hate me . i want a time machine , i want back the past , where we enjoy ourself , and have no such problems . I want back the past , where we know each other well , and know what each other are thinking . I want back the past , where our friendship is much stronger than anything else in the world . I want back the past , where we help each other . Now its so much different , sighhs , i really want back the trust . Can i do anything to mend the broken friendship ? I will go crazy if this carry on . Soon , i'm going to collapse . I'm sure ..
Sorry for all grammar or language mistakes . My english is bad .
Goodbye .
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let it go
5/02/2009 10:09:00 PM
April 17, 2009
As requested by chenjun , I'm here to blog after many days of slacking .
Nowadays is so sian . Idk why , mainly because my mood bahhs . Sad , happy , emo , average .
Start from today , walked to school with yongquan , chenjun as usual . Went to school . Had dnt .Joked and fool around , enjoyed . After that was P.E . Had our 2.4 (boys) , ran despite the pain that distract me every time it strikes me like needles . Overall result was around 11.25 or maybe 11.28 . Was thinking of retake-ing , but neverminds .
After that was recess , couldn't eat due to the pain . So ate a mouthful and threw the rest away . Went back to class and changed . Had lessons ..
After that went to spc during the break , and bought some food and sorts . Went back to class for our Chinese mock exam once again (paper 1) . Overall did okay for me , but quite no mood when writing . Completed my paper and relaxed abit .
Next was Maths paper1 test . Wah crap , its so tricky . It surely killed many people in our class , including me . But mr ong promised to treat me makan if i passed , lols .
After that went to eat with yongquan . It happened again , sighhhhs .
Chatted for a while , actually was emo-ed for a while under yongquan's block and went off .
Now was blasting music and emo-ing . Singing like nobody's business .
Gonna do work later bahhs . Tomorrow got remedial . Sianz .
The pain is coming again , hope it kills me .
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let it go
4/17/2009 09:51:00 PM
