July 7, 2009
HI i am yongquan . Actually , I am not in a very good mood right now .
I don't know why whenever i tried to put in effort in things , people will never give even a slightest appreciation . Hais . NOt only that , they try to make it funny , It felt humilating okay . When I try my best, people will felt that it was not enough .... I know i am weak in english , thats why i told you guys to guild me , but not to try and make fun of me . You can always teach me after the lesson , why must you all shout out the pronounciation , and tried to make it funny , To you , it may be funny , But to me , I felt very humilated . You all kept laughing and teasing me about my english . I try my best to improve . But everytime when i have the confidence , You all will laugh at my mistakes , and my confidence fell all the way to the bottom of the heap again, with this , i don't know if i will be able to voice out my comment again the next time , because my comments are like nothing . Maybe , I am unjustify . Maybe i need sometime to think. Or , maybe , it is my fault from the begining . Don't know why , my effort is always like nothing .
Secondly , I don't know why i will feel Some kind of "uneasilyness" in school some times . I feel that my friends are hating me , is it because of me did something wrong , is it ? i don't know , Just felt that with me around , nothing can goes right . Sometimes , I felt darn lonely for nothing , I felt very left out . I want to know , just what is the problem with me that make everyone distancing away from me .
Nevermind , Hope if i can get normal again . Hope I can get used to the environment in the school from today onwards.
Labels: Is it my fault to cause everyone to distance away from me ?
let it go
7/07/2009 05:59:00 PM
