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July 22, 2009

HI I am yongquan . Today got something happy for me , and something I have pondered for long . Happy thing is that finally we have go through one more O level test . The chinese listening comprehension . sad thing is that , I Nearly got into quarrels again . Maybe , I thinking of dropping down this class vice-chairman position . I don't think I am suitable to be in this position . Although I like being the class vice-chairman. I don't know . Can anyone please tell me what to do? should I drop , Or should I stay . I hate teachers that always look at all my negative side , if this continue , I think I will lead the class to more chaos . Fucking irritating , I cannot control my temper anymore . Can't you teachers give me just a chance to change , I want to change , but everytime you all give me a very angry face and scold me when I did something wrong , While other do something more serious than me , You just don't care . Maybe its me afterall . Hais . If this continue , I may end up in the mental hospital .


Go on , I really hope that she will complain me to mr ong , and let me drop of my vice-chairman position . Afterall , I don't like her , She sucks . How we are going learn when you don't want to mark our works and always give us to copy . Even if you explain , I still do not know if my answer is correct , And you bloody hell gave me a smelly face . Hence , whenever I saw you , I don't feel like asking you any question , because I knew that the day will come when I lose all my temper , slam the table and burst out shouting at you . And then , somemore , you say that history student also don't know how to do source-based questions , then when harry used history method , You say it wrong . And still say don't use history method on social studies . I use social studies method , Every of my answer is wrong , You call me to perfect it , when I do not even fucking know how to do ..... I use history method many times on my milestone , and what did you do ??? you just give me a fucking red cross and gave me L1 . I really don't understand you . What I do Is always wrong .


I know I have bad records in the past , but did you ever see me trying to change . Even since , I take on the role of vice-chairman , I have been trying very hard . It painful , But no matter how I say, YOu will never feel it . you suck on the way to the core . You just look at my negative place and try to pinpoint me . I hate you ... I hate you . There is very less teacher I hated so much . be happy , You are on the list . You pest ! Someone from cambridge say your method is wrong , You still want us to do your method ??? You are not even considering out O level result , You just want your face , don't you ? I don't like you . I wish you get lost of my sight . You can say ITs fake . But , last time , when Yi xiang and I are sitted together , doing our work and whispering , and others are talking so loudly . Tell me what did you do , You scream at us !! I really hate bias teacher , especially who always look at my negative part to pinpont me ... I really hate her . God , please either kill me , or make her disappear from my sight . I cannot bear any much longer . I hate her . Do you know ? OH , You don't even fucking care about us . You just care about those who scored well for your social studies milestone . Don't you ? Do you ever care of us , those who get very low for social studies . did you ? I really hate you . Tell me what can I do ? You really suck .


One day , I am going to burst . My head is very pain . Tell me , should I ? should I give up the vice-chairman position ? I am afraid that I will drag the class to trouble . But I cannot control my temper . What can I do ? It hard . It really painful . Can anyone of you really feel the pain that I am hidding in my heart ? I bet no one can . Because , You all have not gone through what I had gone through ? Should I quit ? should I ? I really need some opinions . I love the role , but i hate the teacher . SO , should I continue .


It's so much pain typing out all this , I wish to shout it out .... But , I cannot .... I hate me ... I hate that teacher . Hais . Mr ong , I'm sorry . I think I cannot do the vice-chairman role . I am tired from all these quarrels . SOrry.

Bye everyone .

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7/22/2009 06:24:00 PM