July 18, 2009
Heartbroken .
Why am i back to posting with tears ?
Her :
Although I've decided to keep everything inside me ,and I had tried my best , to act strong on the outside , but its really disappointing to accept the fact that , you can completely forget me . I cant forget you , i still miss you , i still do . Its kept unknown by me . I hate the fact that you're a not a faithful one . I just cant forget you , and you can even forget my number . Or never even save it . I really don't know what to do anymore . You're in my heart every second , however you can forget me like this . Its true , i'll have to accept it . Despite it is sharp , really knife like , through my heart .
Friends :
Everyone is drifting away from me , i know . People hates me , i know . There is someone backstabbing me , when i did not even do things but were accused like fcuk , i know . Somehow nobody trusts me . Neverminds , nobody can actually do this if one trusted one another . So yeah , the main source we're lacking is trust . I can't do anything to change it already . So yeah . Guys , hope that you all can stay in contact with one another and stay strong within your friendship . I'm out of this , not willingly , but forced . Take care .
Yongquan :
You're right . 初恋难免是最难忘的 . Sorry , but i still cannot forget her . Yeah , we're in the same type of boat . The different thing is that you have sailors with you , but i'm alone .
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Why am i still tearing with the already - happened truth ? I still love you , i still do . I just cant take my eyes off you , if you'd noticed . But now , everything left are those memories , and those remained are fantasies . Which will never ever happen . Fairytales have happy endings , but for me its just the negative .
I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight . I felt so numb to see this bitter end . Perhaps , this is the end of beautiful illusions . Those broken pieces will not be mend to , please at least remember me .
The Last Three Words : I Love You .
Now i finally understand , that your truth is a deception meant to poison me .
Please live happily ever after , without my presence .
darryl .
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let it go
7/18/2009 09:21:00 PM
