Hellos ,

Today was such a raping day , lols . Many victims for yongquan , and also got many videos , hahahhas . But its confidential , so could not post . (:

Anyway today had lessons as usual , after that went to spc bought something den went back to school . Makan-ed and went back to class .

Anyway , Kimberly was not well so wish her get well soon . (:

Had english and was super sianz , drawing things , lols .

Den was humanities remedial . Did our history sbq and finished .

Slacked in class and started our raping session , lawls .

Lazy elaborate larhhs , super sick jiu dui le . :X

Den went to PP with yeezheng and yongquan to replenish our energy after our raping sessions . Bubble tea-ed and walked home .

Slacked with yongquan a while under my house and said goodbye .

Now posting and will be doing dnt and chinese later .

Take care all , dun emo . (:

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let it go
3/31/2009 07:50:00 PM



Hais , something happened again .

Idk what to do , idk whether you're referring to me or not . I dare not ask , i'm afraid i do something wrong again , sighhhs .

But we're still friends anyway .

Hais , life sucks .

Anyway i owe jasmine a quiz to do , gonna do it now ..

Write the names of 16 friends you can think in ur mind.
And then answer the questions, say you're guessing if you don't know.
But at least guess on all of them.
After doing this, tag 21 unlucky friends to do the same thing.

1. Kimberly
2. Yongquan
3. Chenjun
4. Harry
5. Jasmine
6. Karwong
7. Darren
8. yufei
9. Yee Zheng
10. Raphael
11. Kevin
12. Clarance
13. Joey
14. Xinwei
15. Vivian
16. Cianyuhh
17. Choonkiat
18. Francis
19. Melvin
20. Ashley
21. Cheng Han


1. How do i meet 7? (Darren)
- Punggol secondary school , classmates .

2. What would u do if u and 15 had never met? (Vivian)
- Never den never loh ,

3. What Would you do if 20 and 1 dated? (Kimberly and ashley)
- Quite impossible actually .

4. Have u seen 17 cried?(Choonkiat)
- I dont think so .

5. Would 4 & 16 Make a good couple? (Harry and Cianyuhh)
- They don't know each other , lols .

6. Do u think 11 is attractive? (Kevin)
- He is very attractive ..

7. What is 2's Favourite colour? (Yongquan)
- Most probably Black . :X

8. When the last time i talked to 9?(Yee zheng)
- Just now in school ?

9. What language does 8 speaks?(yufei)
- Chinese , english ..

10. Who is 13 going out with?(Joey)
- IDk ? lols .

11. Would u ever date with 17?(Choonkiat)
- Never !!

12. Where does 18 live?(Francis)
- Sengkang .

13. What is the best thing about 4?(Harry)
- He makes a great friend , a friend i can trust ..

14. What would u like to tell 10 right now?(Raphael)
- DUN BITE ME .

15. What's the best thing about 20?(Ashley)
- She's friendly .

16. Have i ever kiss 2? (Yongquan)
- never will !

17. What is the best memory you have of 5?(Jasmine)
- When i know our birthday is the same !! lols .

18. When is the next time u will be seeing 4? (Francis)
- Tomorrow in class!

19. How is 7 different from 6? (Darren and Karwong)
- Darren is white , karwong is .. tanned .

20. Is 2 pretty? (yongquan)
- He's sexy .

21. What is the first impression of 15?? (Vivian)
- Goldfish . :X

22. How did you meet 3? (Chenjun)
- Punggol secondary school. HAHA.

23. Is 15 ur best friends? (Vivian)
- Friends .

24. Do u hate 12? (Clarance)
- For what ? He's my friend .

25. Have u seen 18 in the last month? (Francis )
- Yes ..

26. When was the last time u saw 16? (Cianyuhh)
- Never see before .. :X

27. Have u been to 5's house? (Jasmine)
- Noppe .

28. When's is the next time u will see 10? (Raphael)
- Probably tomorrow.

29. Are u close to 11? (kevin)
- For me is yes , for him idk .

30. Have u been to the movie with 4? (Harry)
- Yes ..

31. Have u gotten any trouble with 8? (Yufei)
- Noppe ..

32. Will u give 19 a hug? (Melvin)
- We always did . :X

33. When have u lied to 3? (Chenjun)
- Not Sure .

34. Is 11 good in socializing? (kevin)
- very . :D

35. Do u have know a secret about 8? ( Yufei )
- I Don't Think So .

36. Describle the relationship between 12 & 18? ( Clarance and Francis )
- Classmates and good friends .

37. What's the best thing about ur friendship with 9? (Yeezheng)
- Always get to suan him ..

38. What's the worst thing about 6? (karwong)
- He's too sexy .

39. Have u ever have a crush with 12? (Clarance)
- you'll never know .. :D

40. How long have u know 2? (Yongquan)
- Around 3 years 3 months ?

41. Does 11 Have any boyfriend or girlfriend?? (Kevin)
- idk . he won't tell me .

42. Have u ever wanted to punch 1 in the face? (kimberly)
- Of course not , bu she de ..

43. Has 21 meet ur parents (Cheng han)
- yes , saw before when he came over to my house .

44. How did you meet 11? (Kevin)
- Classmates . PSS

45. Did u ever accidently phyciscally hurt 3? (Chenjun)
- I dont think so , ask him .

46. Do u live close to 7? (Darren)
- Sengkang and pasir ris ..

47. What's 8 Favourite food? (Yufei)
- C*m . :X

48. What kind of car does 1 have? (Kimberly)
- For the moment , not yet .

49. Have u travelled anyway with 9? (Yee zheng )
- noppe .

50. If u gave 14 $100, what would he/she spend it on? (Xinwei)
- Her boy , eat and shop ?

Alrights , done with the quiz .

Today school as usual sianz .

After that went to compass to eat with francis , harry , chenjun , jasmine , vivian , qiao lin .

Ate subway which reminds me of her . Neverminds .. Sighhs .

After that shopped around and went home .

Now posting and i'm so sian , idk what to do .

Moody , sad , emo ~

SIGHHHHHHHHHSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS~

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let it go
3/30/2009 05:58:00 PM



Yo peeps , i'm here for a rest after studying my ss . hahahs .

Gonna do a quiz as i've got nothing to post now .. (:

1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?** Cheeks . (:


2. How do you feel when you woke up this morning?** I'm sleepy . lols .


3. Who was the last person you took photo with?** Once upon a time ..


4.Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?** Yes i do.


5.Would you ever donate blood?** If someone needs it , i will .

6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the oppsite sex?** Quite some , hahhas .

7.Do want someone dead?** Somehow yes , but its confidential , if not i'll be the one who is dead !!

8.What does your last message in your inbox say?** =.= i just use hao comp siol . (HOE CHEN JUN)

9.What are you thinking of right now?** Thinking of her and SS ~

10.Do you wish someone was with you right now?** Yes , her .

11.What time did you go to sleep last night?** 12 + , was preparing notes of ss .


12.Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?** Bossini , lols .


13.Is someone one your mind right now?** Her

14.Who was the last person to text you?** Chenjun .

10 PEOPLE TO TAGGED TO DO THIS QUIZ:
1 - Chenjun
2 - LoGuan
3 - Xinwei
4 - Kevin
5 - Fei-ge
6 - Karwong
7 - Raphael ( hehehehe dog ) LOL
8 - Joey
9 - Jasmine
10 - Harry



15. Who is 2 having relationship with ?** Single but unavailable , i guess . (:
16. Is 3 a male or a female?** Female to a larger extent . But however .... xD
17. If 7 & 10 get together will that be a good thing?** HARRY AND RAPHAEL , LOL , they 2 together will be hairy dog .
18. What is number 1 stuyding about?** Most probably maths and Ss .
19. Is Number 4 single?** he dowan tell me ! KEVIN ARE YOU SINGLE ?
20. Say something about Number 5?** Yufei , is a fcking clever china imported guy , lols . His maths and science is gay and he's a great friend too . :D
21. What do you think about Number 3 & 6 being together?** IDK . OWNED
22. Describe Number 9** Jasmine ? Dunno her well~~~~ :D
23. What will you do if Number 6 & 7 fight?** Watch how karwong own raphael , LOL and somehw i think this happened before . (:
24. Do you like Number 8?** Joey , hmmms . She's a great friend but lil too noisy sometimes . Basically , she's not bad !! . (:

Alrights , my rest time is over , gotta continue my SS right now . Goodbye~
Good luck to all for their milestone ss test tomorrow ! A1 A1 A1 !!

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let it go
3/29/2009 08:17:00 PM



Guys i'll skip days that i did not post , lots of things happened , hais ..

Saturday today . Got ss remedial as usual , so cycled to sch with yq and cj .

Had our remedial and so , after that cycled to punggol plaza to makan with yq .

Reached there , saw (Mr) Benny low and yeezheng and co.

Ate tgt and den cycled home . Now posting and yongquan was with me too , but he's sleeping , lols .

Yupp , he's at my house . Saturday is soo boring , nowhere to go , only can emo emo emo ..

Super stress nowadays . Sick + Studies + Parents + her . I cannot take it anymore le .

Did something and some of you might noe , but nothing serious actually ..

Hais , i'm at fault :

I'm the one that misunderstood you and thought that we might have the chance .

Maybe from the start , you only treated me as a friend , never even love me before .

Everything was just me , imaginating . Everything was fake , even though it was so real .

I'll try to disappear in your life , yea try my best .

Hope that you will be happy , be together with the one you love , and also stay healthy .

Hope that this will giv you the life you want , no freedom , no restriction . Can talk to whoever you want , do whatever u want to do . Message anyone , go out with anyone . Need not care for anyone's feeling ..

Good for you .

Sighhhs , even though i'm prepared for this ending , i'm still sad .

I dunno what to do anymore , maybe concentrate on my studies ? Maybe , but not in the mood .

I'm sad , it hurts , it really do .

The scar was left because of you , my love .

Goodbye ,
with love .

Labels: darryL . ™ (:

let it go
3/28/2009 02:28:00 PM


i am yongquan. tis post is for myself onli, lol. and i wan to say yongquan dun go back to ur old ways or go and become badder. although u had done some wrong tings tis month, but as long as u dun repeat it, i am sure tat u will become a better student.

Labels: dun let my emotions control my action. NO

let it go
3/28/2009 01:08:00 AM



i am here today to post on mar 21,22,23,24,25,26,27.


mar 21 , nth much normal day . slack

mar 22, did hw and study till near 4 in the morning. so onli 1 hour slp.


mar 23, went hist milestone. tink will not score well as not well prepared, and has onli 1 hour slpt in the night . sch . then self study, went home and do hw, and at last slp.


mar24, dreamt bout the whole class of 4a and 4b together with the basketball teams all coming to my hse to sleep. boys 1 room and girls 1 room. then still got 1 room maybe for my parents and brother ba. lol. then bla bla bla.


mar25, sched, went e math self study. then after to a math self study at multiplex with 5na . then did 10 question and go go go.


mar 26, sched . phy self-study. then did hw till 6 sth , went home. went home bathe ,did hw and slp


mar 27, today, a math in the 1st lesson. study then hooray it PE now. have 2.4 practice and ran 3 round in the sch. wat good news for mi is i ran first and in 5.30 mins. yay. then did some pull up. pe over. charleen passed mi the class key. i went to drink some water then joey call mi to go up pass the key. then about halfway. i was shouted from the 3rd floor by charmaine , charleen and xinwei and bla bla bla....... charmaine shouted "we are all waiting for u"
charleen shouted"i passed u the key for a reason."
Xin wei shouted " Oi quick come up , every1 was waiting for u leiiii!"

then wtf lor. they nvr run kaobei kaobu. after running muz drink water mah. then they passed mi the key , of course i drink ler then go up ma, if not i juz go up, i no nid drink ah. if they want to go to the class, y pass the key to mi, y dun take it urself. man , i nid to drink leiii.and aso, when it is not ur prob, dun step in, veri kaobei, shout until like u r the victims like tis.then called mi run up when i holding drinks, wtf u run giv mi c la. cb. act until i ur dog, u my master like tis. not tat i scare u then i nvr shout bak. it is all onli because if i good tis term, i can get someting good. so wtf u tink, u wan the key u ownself run down take from mi la. Fuk man, make mi nvr eat in recess. Cb, because of 1 key, make until mi cannot eat. and u all happy la. cb. ok same word . NOT HAPPY COME FIND MI LA. LIKE I SCARE U ALL LIKE TIS.

i dun wanna speak anymore, later u all tink tat i trying to make u all guilty or paiseh or whatever la. u all ownself self-reflection la. put urself in my shoes k? wah lao. u all dun even tink how i feel man. i robot huh.


after recess, e math. juz study. then bla bla bla bla.................


then after sch. stay with darren till 12.42 to record our oral. then rushed down to eat. then heng reach on time , if not sure till kb. after tat , did compo. finished , passed up and went to play basketball til 6 sth . went spc, buy old chang gee. then walked home.


now bathed , blogging to u all. Good night!

PS
i am fuking pissed off by the blogskins man.

Labels: making mi liking a girl which dun like mi and then making mi been prejudiced by every1?, y am i exist in tis world? am i supposed to live in tis world? if yes, y god muz be so cruel to mi

let it go
3/27/2009 11:44:00 PM



Boooo ! ~


Guys , i'm back from compass . lols .


Today got school as usual . (lazy elaborate)


After that got physics remedial , yawns so sian .


Den went to meet (L) and went to compass as i nid to buy my lecture pad . =P


Went to library , hahahas .


She borrow lots of books while i only borrowed one .


Miracle right ? i read books , hahhahaha , but its in chinese . xD


Anyway i got something in mind to buy for her birthday le , but nid to save money first , so may skip some meals . :D


After that she bought her food and bla while i bought my chocolate .


Anyway i'm so tired and weak today , feeling giddy , cold , running nose , kept on sneezing .


Gotta be flu bahhs , hope it dun turns into fever . lols .


Now doing maths , so sian and came to post . :D


Tomorrow is friday !! weeee ~ Got pe somemore !!


4B : REMEMBER TO BRING PE ATTIRE !!


Gotta finish my work le , byebyeeeee . (:

Labels: darryL . ™ (:

let it go
3/26/2009 08:17:00 PM



Hey peeeps , i'm free from homework as ytd managed to finish hsitory and english .

Now posting after one round of dota with raphael . Just now slept for 2 hours , so now i'm not sleepy yet . :D

Sianz man , heard some informations from chenjun from his friend from sji , saying that our subject combi sucks like hell . People take pure history / pure geog , we ss+hist , ss+geo . -.-

People take pure chem , physics . We combine science , lols .

No higher MT also , how are we gonna survive in Jc or Poly ? Crap ..

Super sian , sad also .

Dun feel like elaborating much . Just moodless , sad bahhs .

Hais , what i need is a chance , to prove how much i love you .

Maybe i haven't show enough love , or maybe you don't need the love .

I really don't know what to do now . Maybe just let natural take its course ?

Alrights , now waiting for chenjun to finish his shit business and gonna dota again .

The only way to relieve stress ? I cant find other things to do .

Everytime wanna play basketball den surely will rain , like we're banned from playing .

Dunno how many years nvr play already , sure deprove . Sighhhs .

Feeling quite sick , giddy and lil headache . But never show , if not like very what .

Just silent ~~~ Nobody cares anyway ....

Labels: darryL . ™ (:

let it go
3/25/2009 10:43:00 PM



hey guys , i'm back to post after finishing some of my homeworks .

Nowadays is so mooodless , maybe due to excessive stress .

Teachers bomb us like homework , worst then the osama bombing US .

I know its for our own good , but we seriously need some rest .

For 3 months , i do not have a real good sleep .

I'm so tired and may lie down between lessons , in the end kana scolded by mr ong .

I had always tried my best to stay awake , maybe i would need more effort ? Maybe .

And weather is like , hot is burning hot , cold is freezing cold .

Making me feeel so uncomfortable , feeling so sick .

Many of my friends are also falling sick . Somemore enclosed area in our class , bacteria spreaded easily .

Lessons everyday till 5 . reach home bathe , eat , bla bla 7 . Do not even have the time to rest and muz straight away start homework , if not could not finish .

Milestones every monday . Wasn't saturday and sunday meant for us to rest or finish our homework ? With this milestones , how are we going to rest ?

SS ---> 12 essays . 36 factors , havent add conclusion . And was so long for SS compared to history .

Plus homework piling up like mountain everyday , i'm so stressed .

No dota for weekdays is my plans , maybe only weekend for some relaxation .

I would also have to improve my science (chemistry) , planning for assesments , but when am i gonna do ? i dun even have the time to finish other subjects .

Nowadays was so pissed off , for small reasons . Moodswing ?

And guys , i dun have menses . -.-

Alrights , thats all . Gonna start my dnt soon ~ D:

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let it go
3/24/2009 11:13:00 PM



Hais , something for you ..
I cried when i saw that . );

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let it go
3/22/2009 01:38:00 PM



Hey all , i'm so bored so decided to post when i got nothing to post , lols .

Today woke up , den ate my late breakfast and went to online .

She's busy ltr , so too bad . I'll have to past today alone .

Sighhs , sian ..

Felt like seeing her for once . Neverminds ..

Should be updating later . Stay tuned~

Hey peeps , i'm back to update this post , lols .

Today did nothing much , just rot and rot at home . den watch finish final destination 3 , managed to survive through it , but hand numb again , LOLs .

Now on msn chatting with soem people , still no mood lea , sianz .

Was chatting with joey right now , and i suddenly ask her where cj , kevin and yf go . cos whole day nvr see them online , lols .

GUESS WHAT JOEY SAY ? SHE SAY THEY GO FCUK EACH OTHER , ORGY PARTY !! (actually orgy party is i say one) LOLS !! JOEY IS SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SICK !!~~~~

JOEY , I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS !! HAHAHAHHAAHA !

darryL . ™ ¸ うぇいじえ ¸ 100% お宅 (: says:
today nvr see kevin cj yf online sia
dunno they doing what
lol
Jo ; pocketful of sunshine . ♥ says:
so fuck each other
*go
LOL
darryL . ™ ¸ うぇいじえ ¸ 100% お宅 (: says:
LOL
orgy party
HAHA
Jo ; pocketful of sunshine . ♥ says:
MAYBE
darryL . ™ ¸ うぇいじえ ¸ 100% お宅 (: says:
HORNY JOEY
OMG
Jo ; pocketful of sunshine . ♥ says:
NOT ME
LOL

alrights , thats all for today , lols . sianzzzzzzz D:

Labels: darryL . ™ (:

let it go
3/21/2009 12:56:00 PM






我试过握着你手但偏偏，雨渐渐大到我看你不见还要多久我才能在你身边等到放晴的那天也许我会比较好一点 从前从前有个人爱你很久但偏偏风渐渐把距离吹得好远好不容易又能再多爱一天但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜. Post tis song juz for my own memories.Haiz i still cannot forget. someone take a hammer and hit my head plz.i dun want to return to the past. i want to be a new yongquan, tat has no grieve and worries, onli happiness.HELP!i tink i am out of my mind, missing a girl tat dun even miss a little pieces of mi.HAIZ. JUZ WTF I AM DOING!!!! HAIZ


today, wake up went rivervale mall eat. then after tat went bak watch show. at 4 sth went down play basketball alone as none was free at tat time.went 188 then no warm up jitao play match. yay i am almost the shortest among the teams. but i win all of them in rebound, lol. too bad la i jump too high ler.then got 1 guy dunnoe how to box up sia. use elbow, nvm dun care him, cos i still win, yay. gonna train more. muscles is gg to rest and fats is coming. lol. went home ate my dinner, bathe, attempted to do some homework, but failed. went computer . downloaded lots of song, then now posting to all of u. GoOdNiGhT.!

Labels: i still cannot forget u. and listening to jay chou song make it worser. i cannot even dun listen to jay chou song even 1 day. i am gg crazy.haiz. u would nvr noe how i feel right now.

let it go
3/21/2009 01:01:00 AM



Yo guys . i'm back to post , lols bored .

Woke up , prepared and went to compass with mom . Bought my shoe and bought some groceries , crap hahahs .

After that reached home and (L) says she coming over to my house . So went to fetch her , hahahs .

Reach home again , and watch Saw with (L) , my mom and my sis . Wahhs , gore sia , make me feel so numb , lols ..

Den slacked a while and her friend called her , calling her to go gym . Wahhs , den pangseh me . T.T

After that , i cycled her home as she's in a rush . Sorry (L) , still quite slow . :X
But its a fun experience right ? First time leh , hahahs . :DD

After that , offered to cycle her to compass . Wahhs , den cycle cycle lorhhs . Damn super tired , maybe too long nvr exercise le bahhs . :XX

Sweat all over and finally reach the destination .. Den cycle home .

Had steamboat for dinner , yummyumms . (:

Now posting , damn sian sia , nothing to do . lols .

(L)'s K* !! (:

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let it go
3/20/2009 08:25:00 PM


DID any1 heard of tis song called "Taylor Swift Love story"?


well when i 1st heard tis song , i remember of the story of romeo and juilet. well they are both from family who are always quarreling. they love each other, but were not gg to be together as their family forbade them. And at last both are dead by commit sucide, well hope their together by now. and tis video is to remind every1 to cherish ur loved ones,or u will regret it 1 day.


Well back to the main topic, i came here today to post for 18/3/09, 19/3/09


On 18/3/09, went to dinner with basketball friends and ms tan of course. dunno at E hub wat restaurant eat. and ms tan treated us more than 200dollar. YUMMY. nice sia. eat and eat and eat. still got unlimited ice cream and water lol. then after tat went to zheng yuan chalet. they play poker awhile and i sianz juz sit there.


After tat , went play volleyball at pasir ris park. and hong ming accidentally hit the ball down the big big drain. GG. lol. then went to buy water and take bus 3 with guang yuan and marvin home. they alighted 1st as they lived in pasir ris, and i alighted at prime market, and found out tat my earpiece spoilt. SIANX.

Reach home at 12 sth. bathe and juz fell asleep. so tired ... Haiz last gathering with those basketball player, and i am the onli 1 excluding the sec 5 to leave the basketball team tis yr. sianz lor. haiz work hard for so long le, then now still muz parted. so another ting, tis is our last yr to be together in punggol secondary,i wish every1 cherish ur friends. because at the end when we parted our way, we may not meet again.


Next on 19/3/09, went to compasspoint, change my "天龙八部" disc for another part of “西游记" lol. cos my dvd player veri lousy cannot read "天龙八部". sianz.

then ate , went popular bought stationaries and saw one book about Stalin , and actually wanted to buy, but veri expensive,so nvr. went home, watch “西游记". slept, went for dinner, then again watch “西游记" , and at last posting to all of u.


PS
Do any1 have books to lend. I wanted to improve more on my english, and sometimes i am vei engrossed by the books i read. So if u have any extra English books to lend mi, plz do so, thanks.

Labels: i love basketball, i love coffee, i love friends, i love my parents, i love myself and i love books.

let it go
3/20/2009 12:56:00 AM



Hey peeps , holidays is so boring , i want go school !! :X

At least dun have so much homework , lols . got holiday then teacher think we very free so flood us with homework . damned . Half of our holiday already gave the lessons le leh . T.T

Alrights , today woke up at around 11+ den start to do homework . do do do till around 2+ den played dota with chenghan , hahahas .

Anyway managed to finish chemistry , even though there are a few blanks . :X

After that , went to find (L) at compass , den hang around and went to rivervale mall . But she dowan eat leh , den walk walk and she decided to go home , cos she's tired and moodless . Its alrights (L) , i dun blame you . (:

After that went to prime mart and bought the things she like and send her home .

Walked home alone and now posting . Ate spaghetti just now , yummyumm . (:

Realise that all my dota-mates are offline !! Means i gonna do homework le lorhhs , sianzxzxzxzxzxzxzxz .

(L)'s K* !! (:

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let it go
3/19/2009 09:21:00 PM



hey all , darryl is back . i'm so damn sian now but its my mom's birthday so must put on a happy face and not to disappoint her .

today went to school for lessons . was ss at first , den was a break . Went to spc to buy food and went back . i could not eat le la , cos no money , lols .

den was history . finished and got another break before dnt . did not eat cos lazy walk to spc and no money , so went up to pccg room to slack . den time was up and went to dnt . quite efficient today as i finished my one consideration . lols .

den after that went up again to pccg room to slack . den went home .

now doing nothing . no mood play dota , no mood do homework , no mood to eat . and bla bla bla . the list just seem nvr ending . sighhs .

later would be eating cakes bahhs . bo bian have to eat , so entertain my mom lurhhs .

hais , i totally agree with yongquan for his post below . i dun trust anyone anymore . everything was just bullshit . -'-

and once again , happy birthday mom . (:

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let it go
3/18/2009 05:24:00 PM


hihi . i here today to post again bout 17/3/09 and 18/3/09....

17/3/09, went to sch. then after lesson play awhile basketball. then went to PCCG room watch them play pool.then went ate. after tat walk home bathe then cycle with darryl, go punggol end then bak to sch fetched zi ce go cp then cycle go cj hse play bb.. hai, so sian my skill is so lousy now, haiz, i nid to aim when i layup now, last time no nid, haiz, then after went home, bathe and watch tv then slept.



18/3/09, went sch . after lesson went to pccg room, watch them play , but aso got play alittle. seriously , i muz try out pool man, it looks fun, haha , kar wong remember ah teach mi.:) went to punggol plaza with some guys, then brought waffle and bubble tea. then walk home, now posting to u peeps. anw gg for a free dinner with ms tan and my basketball friends at 6.30. hope it will be nice lolz.


P.S
i seriously cannot understand y a girl/boy muz toy around with the alternative 'ppl' hu love her/him. They will not noe the pain which the 'ppl' has to endure. looking at some of my friends tat has to endure through all tis heartbreaking pain, i began to remember bak tat i have once experience tis pain. its fuking pain. i wish those hu treated the 'ppl' as a toy fucking wake up. cant they even feel the pain suffered. are u all humans. huh... i am fucking pissed off man... y sld all of us endure through all tis pain.huh? y? wtf u tink u play alr then pat pat backside go ah. huh. tink wat we barbie doll or wat. fuck man.Come on la if u dun like the ppl, u sldnt be toying them, 1 day i assured u, u will noe the pain de. 所谓，善有善报，恶有恶报，不是不报，时间未到 . u will nvr understand it until u experience it, u will now tink tat it wont hurt. if 1 day u experience it, i ensure u the pain will be like 心如刀割... and dun ever tink of getting bak the 1 that loved u so much, because u are not even fucking worthy to be their maid,and so dun even tink bout be their wife/husband....


Lastly , if any1 not happy wat i have said. WU JI come find mi la cb. u won noe the pain suffered, u won noe. u onli noe it onli noe tat u r happy, and tat is enufff....... u dun care bout ppl life and death, u dun even cherish them. i can ensure u whenever u gave them 希望, they are veri happy, but when u suddenly love another 1 , they will become 绝望. so plz . if u dun like them, plz dun play with their feelings, plz they are humans, not born for u all to treat as toy. plz i really beg of u all, STOP IT!!!! FUCKING IRRITATING. PESTS. dun make them so sad. 1 day sure get depression, then if they die, tink u all aso won care de ba.


haiz sry for all the vuglarities, i going ler. hope all these tings will stop once and for all. bye.

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3/18/2009 03:57:00 PM



Hey all , because of me , yongquan have to stress like fcuk just to change the blogskin , sorry yongquan . :X

today nothing much , nearly late for history supplementary lessons as i tot was 8.30 start but actually was 8.00 lols . rushed there and mr tan didn't scold us , (:

then was break , and english . english nid to do some compo thingy which is very sian . lols .

Den actually got dnt , but i have no questions to ask , so did not stay . den went to pccg room to slack , lols .

after that went to econ , pass (L) the money and went to eat .

anyway tmr wont be eating le bahhs , no money le . neverminds , at least get to see her for once .

den emo-ed when on the way back . met yongquan at his house downstairs and offered to go punggol end to emo .

he agreed , so went home to change and got our bikes . den we cycled to punggol end to emo ..

after that , heard that zice coming back from sp so we went to find him , den cycled to cp as nothing to do .

cycle back and went to find chenjun to play basketball . but tmd there got damn lots of insects , bats , and mosquitos . ZZZs , all suffering , lols .

today was the same , still damn moodless , emo .

PS: Hais , i dowan this ending larhhs , but i will still respect your decision , and giv you my blessings .
(L) , ily . we seldom chat anymore , maybe thats the life you want bahhs . Hope you happy ..

hais , );

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3/17/2009 10:42:00 PM








i Love coffee.....

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3/16/2009 08:03:00 PM

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3/16/2009 07:51:00 PM


i am here today to post about 15/3/19 and 16/3/09......


15/3/09
nth much happen except slp . study and slp again. lolz.


16/3/09
have chinese paper 1, paper 2 and chinese oral at sch. felt tat i could pass in my paper 1 , but paper 2 dunno ler. cause in paper 1 i wrote alot of points, hope i could get to my target... paper 2 , hard... not much confidence i can pass, as i could not understand the 2nd passage. Oral, can pass , but not quite well bah.... Nvm i muz perserve, to get to my goals. i dun care any obstacles, i dun care any1 hu look down on mi, i juz noe tat tis is my dream and i fucking hell will accomplish tis dream. If those guys hu noe veri well bout mi, u sure can c i am darn serious bout it... and i will accomplish it...


after oral, went slacked at the table. then lots of ppl were there too. then suddenly dunnoe y tot of u again, so decided to have some peace at the stairs. went to stairs there emo awhile, listening music. then joey came consoled mi and walked away. awhile later darren came and aso consoled mi. thanx to those guys hu console mi, i really hope tat i could forget her. but it seems impossible. i muz have the discipline to do wat i do not want to do. and tat is to forget her. I have walked the 1st step by deleting all the sms and picture from her. so dun worry. i cannot walk bak from here again. i will nvr reverse the situation again.. i will nvr become the fucking yongquan hu cares bout relationship and not study and friendship. friendship and study are definitely more important to mi now. i will not step into relationship again. unless a girl likes mi and i really like her bak. i will step bak into relationship until if a girl can proved tat she really love mi, and if i aso love her bak.


after waiting from 2 to 4 for darryl. veri tired, couse i play basketball from bout 3 to 4 like tis. then walk to spc brought starbucks coffee. nice sia. then walk go econ with kevin . bought burger and took bus 3 to the prime market and walk home ... and after bathing , now blogging to u all... hope every1 has a better day than mi, dun learn from the emo brothers.. goodbye

Labels: how i swear i would forget u. but the fact now tat i love u still remains the same. tell mi how am i gg to change tis fact to some girl tat could reciprocate the feelings i have for her.

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3/16/2009 07:01:00 PM


Darryl here , totally moodless man .. D:

Today got chinese mock exam . So had paper 1 at first . Completed a 5 pages essay again and not quite sure i can score or not . Sian .

After that got break , den was chinese paper 2 . Finished and write damn alot of things , maybe this is the only way to express my feelings bahhs . Scribble ...

Den got another break , so bought drink and went back to class to slack . Den was oral time . Was the last few so was chatting in class with quite alot of people .

Den my turn , this time not nervous at all , maybe got higher self-esteem bahhs . den the conversation damn charm . only manage to score a 21/30 . den total would be 29/40 , an A2 . sighhhs . DDD:

den went to spc and bus-ed home . Now posting and thinking of her . I just cant stop thinking of her .. Sighhhs . I just kept on msg-ing and calling her , and i can feel her fed up tone towards me . Sorry ..

Singing and blasting music in my room .. Maybe it would help abit . would keep myself busy by doing homework bahhs .

That would be all for today . Thanks for reading .

By : Moodless , hopeless , loveless person ..

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3/16/2009 06:34:00 PM



Hey all , tis would be a short post only about today . (:

Today , woke up and went to white sands myself , cos yufei late , lols .

Bus-ed to white sand and met raphael . makan-ed and later yufei came .

Wait for him to makan and we 3 went to the church . Kevin nvr answer our calls ,
so he would most probably be sleeping ba .

Reached there , had class and went off to white sands's popular bookstore .

Went to buy pen and found some offer thingy and bought one for (L)
as she has been finding for that one for very long , hahas . (:

Den my dad offered to drive we all home so we agreed .
Sent raphael home followed by yufei .

Den reach home and practiced my guitar .

Would be doing homework bahhs , and trying to keep myself busy ,
cos (L) is outside now . );

Neverminds , hope she enjoy !! :DD

And and its raining , so (L) , muz be careful okay ? (:

(L)'s K* .

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3/15/2009 05:56:00 PM



well tis post is juz to remind every1 to remember of the trainers, ADAM KHOO AND PAMELA . remember to use the strategies taught. remember to be confidence in yourself, remember to focus more on ur good points and not on ur bad points. search the hero in ur heart.When u do not noe how to do a question,do not be demoralised,be positive and optimistic. have confidence in ur work. be proud to show it.jiayou graduating students... Promise urself tat u will do ur best, get ur goals. and lead a happy life. Participate 100 percent in class, revise ur work thoroughly,and memorise, and finally get gd results for ur O.. haiz sianz cannot the "HERO" video.



anw glad to announce tat tis is our 100th post. hip hip hooray... jiayou. dun giv up.

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3/14/2009 01:36:00 AM


HI every1 i am here to post on both 12/3/09 and 13/3/09.

on 12/3/09, we r having motivational camp with ADAM KHOO. 4A and 4B mixed together and was divided into 2 groups, 1 called obama and 1 called singapore bush . i am in singapore bush lol. the trainers,ADAM KHOO AND PAMELA there is veri humorous and their joke is so hilarous , cold de lor. zzz. haha... then felt quite motivated after the camp, although it was tiring, i still hope to go for the next day de motivational camp. it so fun. after tat, went with darryl to econ, ate. went up rooftop garden playground there slack. Slack till bout 9 then walked home. went home ,bathe , did hist and slept.


on 13/2/09, tis is our 2nd day in the motivational camp.well again felt motivated.Actually was quite happy. but again tragic happen when we have a break. i called jermaine(DUNNO SPELL CORRECTLY MA)then suddenly XIN WEI shouted my name. i turned around and saw ur HOR FUN lying on the floor. Xin wei told mi is i hu made it. i really dunnoe at tat time i dun even felt tat i made it, i dun even hav the feeling, and i dunno how i made u dropped ur hor fun. then i was scolded by xin wei. OK. i admit, it my wrong. but i really dunnoe how i made it dropped. but i will still apologise to u. sry.


Then no mood to eat ler. walked bak to learning hub and sat at the staircase and juz EMO again. haiz. send a sms to tell u tat i am sry. and again no reply. OK noe u and xin wei is angry with mi. and i had apologised even though i dunno wat has happened. and wats more can i do. apologised ler u nvr reply, confirm still angry with mi de ba. aiya i really dunnoe wat to do then every1 will be satisfied with my result. felt tat all my friends is drifting away 1 by 1. No matter how hard i try, no matter how good i try to make it, u are will not even giv a darn, wats more will be impressed. so i really fucking hell dunno wat to do. Aiya i dun care anymore le la. haiz...

Juz then Juinn tat , kar wong , gerald goh, yee zheng, cheng han, darryl came to console mi once more. Hai . Believe or not, i really darn sry about it. bak to learning hub, beginning was emoing, but after tat slowly recover to active state. well 2nd break. bought hor fun sat with xiu yun xin yi and yee zheng. ate , bought bread sticks and went bak up. then tok to joey. thanx for trying to cheer mi up, although u aso eat all my breadsticks . lolz.

then bla bla bla....... finally reached the worst or sld i say the most emo part of the day. ADAM KHOO told us to close our eyes to imagine mani tings. well mani ppl cry, including mi. i cannot control my tears when he reached the part where it says that my mother lying in a coffin. although i was always quarreling with my mother, she is still my mother, i still love her. then write letters to ourself and aso to our parents. which i doubt i will show it to her. the reason is PAiseh.went down took out dinner to multiplex room ate, listened to toks and finally sang the song last time with our trainers. BYE trainers, i miss ur teachings. help mi to have confidence in my O lvl.


walk to econ, halfway saw u, decided to walk faster as i doubt u will wan to c mi, and aso because i nid to forget u, so i walk further away.... HAIZ. wat a fuking life i am leding. waited for darryl which arrived with a big group and went to econ. ate tok. and walked home...now after bathing , and posting to all of u.
my 1st goal is to forget u
2nd goal is to do well for O
3rd goal is to change the impression of myself in others eye
strategy for my 1st goals stop watching the past sms and pictures
strategy for my 2nd goals start studying soon,plan my schedule.
strategy for my 3rd goals change my behaviour in class. don be too noisy


my actual results and my targetted results is shown below
Subjects ACTUAL MID-YR EXAM PRELIM OLVLrespectively
ENGLISH D7 B3 A2 A1
CHINESE D7 B3 A2 A1
E-math A1 A1 A1 A1
A-math A1 A1 A1 A1
COMBINED SCIENCE A1 A1 A1 A1 COMBINED HUMANities B3 A2 A1 A1

okay quite a long post again.... well tis is my goals . i noe i can do it . i cannot giv up. i muz giv my self the confidence i nid ....

Labels: I will and i MUST achieve my goals. so wats the strategy.

let it go
3/14/2009 12:05:00 AM



Hi all , (:

today got the adam khoo thing , bored so as usual went to meet (L) and went to econ to buy things , lols bought her favourite and went to school .

Lucky me , today no haircheck ! So went to learning hub to have the course . reached , and went to style hair lols . hahas . Den started the course , overall was okay larhhs , but the duration is long la !! Damn . But i still manage to meet her between all the breaks . (:

Bought some snacks and went back to class . den started to draw things for (L) ! (:
I know its not nice larhhs , but i know you wont mind . :D

Finished the damn course and went to econ to makan with yongquan . den went to roof garden to slack . she at first could not come down , so was damn sian . den was like keep peeping into her window , cos imh !! D:

den slacked for quite a while and saw her coming down !! :DDDD
she wanted to give me a surprise , thanks (L) . <3

den went to pei her to shop for her snacks at econ . den again slack , hahahs . Saw choon kiat's girl , hahahs joke . (Lazy elaborate)

den send her home with a hug and went to prime mart to buy things . den went home .

Yawns , gotta do history later and go sleep bahhs . Tired of this course and and tmr nid to stay till 9 !! WTF ? T.T

(L)'s K* (:

Hais , neverminds . Byebye ! :D

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3/12/2009 10:01:00 PM



hi its mi again.

Firstly, i wanna thanx xinwei, darryl, zice , evelyn and aso darren for showing concern towards my probs. thanx i now then noe that friends is veri important to us. we cant possible to be not have friends. so thanx. best friends. i cant possibly live without u friends. thanx . anw juz for u all information, today is not as bad as yesterday ler.

went sch at 7.09 cause overslept today, then near late and reach at 7.20 sth. heng. went to lessons and is happy to announced , well not hao lian but i really happy with my results.although my last few test not veri good, but if i really want to study tings will be different. it is proved last yrs tat if i study i can get gd results. well tis past few weeks i really cannot concentrate because of certain reason. well not anymore. on term 2 , i will start my studying for every test. haha my achievement tis yr is for 5 sub. amath 2 a1 with 1 of them full marks, yay clap for myself.then physic, 44.5/45. first in class, it makes mi darn high man. then e math though last few test not good, my recent test got an a1. not bad ler. no study aso can haha.jk but ,muz study to get higher grades. then chemistry 46.5/60 . a1 yay. hist 41/ 50 cheers. haha . wat sianz is tat i failed once more my eng and chin, my language definitely sux. well i dun wan to be look down by ppl hu has better language than mi. i will try my best. i wan to be 1st in class and lvl. dun look down on mi as u will soon see my name with the highest result amongst all of u. i muz nvr be looked down. lol.

anw,hai i did someting bad again today, i played with choon kiat and he hit his head on the table, and was feeling griddy juz now. well feel so bad bout it. SRY choon kiat. haiz anyway walked home and did everyting except my hw, and now posting.


anw to the problems that concern her, i do not feel so bad now. thanx for making mi give up of u. since that i have decided to giv up, i muz do it. well good luck to do wat u wan. Well, i no longer is the yong quan u noe, i am gg to work hard onli for the O tis yr. i will not let any1 looked down on mi . thanx for making mi wake up. if not for u i maybe still clinging to the dreams. thanx for making mi change so much in the past months. i wan to become bak a good boy . i wan to quit as a bad boy now.lolz. if any1 tink it is impossible, try mi!

after much consideration, i found tat in my heart, my future gf muz be not like an ah lian or hongster, i wish they are kind and friendly and most of all caring. well got to go now bye.

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3/11/2009 09:01:00 PM


Hey all , remember darryl ? (:

10/3/09

Forget alot of things le , just know that got lessons , den went to meet kimberly as she coming over to my house . Harry wanna go compass also , so we both waited for her for around 30mins ? Neverminds , nothing much . den bus-ed to compass and we both bought out food . den harry did not decide on anything to buy so again , bused home . reach home , bathed and started to makan . den went to slack around as my com could not play the disc . so slack till around 9 , den my mom call her go home , lols . den send her home and went back home to study my ss , den fell asleep , crap lols .

11/3/09

Again went to find her in the mornings and went to school together . after that was lessons and lessons followed by recess . She sits with her friend so i also sit with friend lorhhs . den was again lessons . and i managed to pass my chem with a just pass mark and a a2 for physics . lols , so for this term , DID NOT FAIL ANY MILESTONES !! Quite an achievement bahhs , grats myself , lols . den was maths remedial . did some algebra worksheet and learn quite some things . den den was dnt remedial . den was keep suan-ing yi xiang and was fooling around until mdm lim dulan , lols . so do work lorhhs . complete some and went to rivervale mall with yufei as chenjun dowan go no matter how many times we called him . hahahs , bought a new wax and went home . den reach home and my parents again started to flood me with those fcuking questions about her . make me damn pissed off , tmd . would be doing homework later bahhs .

she was out with her friends today , yupp .
alrights , (L)'s K* (:
copy you , hahhas . xD

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3/11/2009 07:20:00 PM




tis is the present u gave mi. I dunno wat i sld do with it. Tell mi someone wat sld i do with it. i am fucking sianz rite now. tell mi. i cannot ta han. i gg to break down. my heart is beating like having heart attack. too much pressure le. y god muz be like tis to mi. havent i suffer enuff. y leave mi a broken heart. tell mi how am i gg to survive tis , i dun have confidence. god plz strike mi with thunder when it is raining. plz. i wish i am dead. .

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let it go
3/10/2009 06:22:00 PM


today, i went to sch with juz cj. went spc buy thing then sching starts. play , study , do hw . then nvr eat breakfast , ate lunch and dun wanna eat dinner. no appetite.

Well tis is for u. i have Juz being to ur blog.If i did not misunderstood tis time, i noe tat u have find ur love. good for u. hope u can be together with him forever. I guess u are not meant to be mine from the start. hope u last long with him. I onli got tis word to say to u now . 保重! i cannot be the guy u want. u chose another guy other than mi again. i am juz a fucking loser. Bye bye to my xiao zhu zhu. tis is the last time i am calling u xiao zhu zhu again. bye bye. i hope tat "he" will treat will well.


going off now. signing off with sad emotions u can never imagined. Bye Bye! 因为你从来都没爱过我，我决定从今天开始做回一个人人都认识的 low yong quan. let mi shout1 last time I LOVE U ! I LOVE U! GOODBYE MY LOVE! GUESS TAT U R NOT MEANT TO BE MINE FROM THE PAST TILL NOW！ 也许是我自作自受。 再见了我这一秒最爱得你。


I tink i will nvr drink Green Tea again. it reminds mi of u. bye bye. 保重!

Labels: u r nvr meant to be mi. y muz god make fun of mi? i am a really fucking bastard.

let it go
3/10/2009 05:50:00 PM



.....(:

Hey all , sorry for not posting the past few days . :DD

8/3/09
I've forgotten most of the things , only remembered that i was sleeping when suddenly kimberly called me and wanted me to pei her go eat dinner . Agreed and went to meet her . Bus-ed to compass and was deciding on what to eat . So in the end , had her favourite Subway , hahhas . Anyway , guess who i saw ? HARRY TAN QING HUI !! He was with his mother and his sister . hahas what a small world . So finished eating and went to walk walk lorhhs . Hang around at compass and went to bus interchange . Sent her home as usual and walked home . Reach home , studied for physics milestone and slept !
Enjoyed the day !! :DD

9/3/09
Today got milestone , so went to school early . Reached there , took milestone and went for a break . The milestone overall was still okay lurhhs . hahas . Ate and went back to class . after that got lessons , and followed by recess . Met her ! woo finally , :X but she sitting with her friends , hahas its alrights lurhhs . No worries ! Den makan-ed and went to multiplex for english . Had some presentations and our english milestone was returned . got c5 which is 17/30 . quite an achievement bahhs cos i had been failing her paper . :X den was some talk with mr tan . Was not concentrating , hahhas . so after that went to canteen to meet her and went to bus-stop . board bus 83 and she say she was bored and dowan go home . den in the end also dunno why decided to come my house . lols . so dropped at prime there and went to buy chocolates . walked home with kimberly and yongquan . while yongquan went home first . reached my house , and started to slack , hahhas . Chatted and she was tired so she slept on my bed ! Dun think too much hor , we're pure and innocent childrens ! (: den she used my com to surf net and msn and blog .. Hahahs , den went to living room to chat with my parents . Den my mom say she very skinny so kept on calling her to eat . HAHA ! funny , den watch-ed tv and bla bla . she decided to go home so sent her home again . hahahs . den ownself walk home lorhhs . Now posting and realise that i havent do alot of things !!

I havent study SS class test , havent do kingsway practise 5 , havent do dnt , havent complete my research ! die liao la !! DDD:

May god bless me . );

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3/09/2009 08:42:00 PM


haiz its monday already. And she has not reply mi. i noe she is really really angry about mi. does tat mean tat i sld giv up. i dunnoe wat sld i do. i really cant . tis is for her. if u did not reply mi because u still do not have a decision, plz reply mi soon. my handphone is forever 24 hours waiting for u. yesterday, at 7 i have already started to giv up hope. but due to fri helping mi to cheer up, i stil decided to giv it a try. i waited from 7 to 12 , doing some my hw aso, although i am not concentrating in it. but the clock ticked 12midnight. but still there was no sms from u. i was heartbroke. the pain was excruciating. i canot bear it. i can onli try to play and make myself happy. and i try another way to make myself better. but it is 以痛治痛. i try to cut myself with several rulers , as long as i can find. i wanted to get into my storeroom to get the penknife. but my mum is there. peeps say mi useless if u wans. say mi scarely cat if u wish. well the fact is my mum is really there. there was a orginal mark made by clarance during physic when we are pplaying with the ruler.then is was like a tick. i use my sharp metal rule, wooden ruler, and even my nails, i try to cut a cross. but i onli managed to make a swollen piece on my skin.

then it is not pain enuff. went sch today. did physic, quite easy. the paper was 1h 30min , and i use 30 min to finish, the other 1 hour was use to slp. then after milestone went to disiao karwong. went down canteen , no appetite to eat. went bak class , run around in the class trying not to be catch by karwong. then after VE.its karwong revenge time. run and run. and he play with mi. hit and hit. and at last use chair to bang mi. Well i wanted more pain, but i juz cannot feel any pain. haiz. Y? then physic lesson. i was emoing at the bak again. i throw paper ball up on the the fan, trying to make use of ball to make mi happy. but again useless. saw by philp tan, heng he nvr catch mi. then ss, cannot revise, juz kip staring at karwong and he stared at mi bak. well dun misunderstood we are juz fooling around . lolz.

recess, went canteen, actually no appetite de, still ate chicken rice, while covering the jacket over my head and listening to mp3. then el, did nth juz watch ppl presentation. have a better knowing how how to present our site ler. but sadly , lol but happily aso, the site is not done by mi ut francis again. then u went up to present. Quite well, if for mi, i won do better. then got bak our eng results. Grats for getting the highest in sec4a and b. i noe u can do it, TOP o lvl student. i onli get 13/30 i have passed by negative 2 marks. haiz. actually can get 16/40 de but minus marks for small matters. haiz. i can be the top OLD LVL student ler. haiz. then went to philp tan tok. so sianz .after tat decide not to go for a math, went home together with darryl and kimberly. walked long way home , but not wet, then listening to songs again.

well bak home , i still dunno wat to do. went to bathe and now maybe going slp soon. my head dunno y is aching. veri pain. maybe i am missing u too much. I still cannot forget of u. i really cannot... no matter how much pain, i still cannot . plz reply mi, i really dun wan to forget u. i really dun wan. i really love U! Perhaps i sldnt write such a long post today, peeps have being complaining about mi. SRY GUYS. ok i will write to here . goodbye every1!

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3/09/2009 05:12:00 PM








the 1 with the three words is written on my hand on oct or the ending of sept. u remember? i was so happy after tat . i nvr wash it away for 3 days . i cannot bear to. but it will faded away anytime. so i took a photo of it. it remains as my memories , and whenever i am unhappy, i will c these photo. but can it be still on my hand. can it be real. looking at it, i remember ur love during tat time, but for now. when i am not looking at the photo, i cannot feel ur love. have ur love faded away during the sept holidays? i dunno. i really nid ur answer, do u love mi?

Ok the remaining 3 photos are written by myself when i am emo during social studies lesson. sry if those photo are blur. i dunno how to take photo.it is use to remind mi. as i do not noe how u feel bout mi. is it love or not love. so i decided to use tis way to stop emoing. but it doesnt improve.

Well back to the main point. saw ur post. i noe tat u r veri veri angry with mi. well i dun blame u, but i can tell u i blame myself more because i dunnoe how to explain to u. i sux in explanation and so u would nvr understand mi. So i juz wanna ask again, DO u love mi? it is real when u wrote on my hand? well if it is real, and if u really love mi, can u show it to mi. can u show how much u love mi? cause u muz understand i was really confused, i dunno whether u love mi or not. Plz juz tell mi 1 or 2 words. Either love or dun love. plz. juz sms mi tell mi. i really nid ur answer. so tat i can noe wat sld i do. i noe u hate mi, after those misunderstoods we had. u noe after 2day lessons, 1 girl went to tell mi tat she tinks tat u like mi, haiz, making mi so confused. u noe whenever i was near u, toking to u, i really cannot feel ur love. I try to show my love towards u as much as possible. but it seems tat it is useless. Ok u said tat u hate mi saying bout ur ex, i will not say, i dun wanna increase our misunderstanding.

well from last yr nov to now, i had been thinking alot. do u love mi? wat are u doing when i am not with u? do u miss mi as much as i miss u? etc. but all my answers came to nothing. i really want to find out mani question. but i noe u dun like ppl to question much in ur business, so i decided again, not to ask u.

Well i tot tat i have a chance to prove tat i really love u during valentines day. and so i asked u out. but sadly, not any1 faults, but the date faults, y muz valentine be on the day of ur cousin chalet. and again i cannot prove it again. Actually if u really agreed to go out with mi, i really dunno where to go. i onli want to be with u, alone, maybe out at beach or watching movies. well if u dun like , we can aso walk around somewhere as long as i am with u. but the dreams are destroyed. and on the next week sat , i actually wanted to call u out again. but i am again too timid to ask u. so, i did not ask again.

i really wish juz to hold on to ur hands, making eye contact, showing tat i love u, or juz holding hands. i really juz want a simple life, i dun wanna make tings so complicated, and again the same words, as long as i am with u, i am already contented.If u love mi , plz tell mi. plz... i now it is difficult to forget ur EX, but i promised , in 1 day, u will forget him. i watched movies and saw tat most of the guys swear and promise their loved ones tat they will do anything to be together with their loved ones. well and then they aso left the girl eventually,and so, i felt tat they are juz using these words to convince the girl to stay by their sides, when they love the girls, but once they had finished their business with their girl, they will juz pat their backside and leave. Ok i am a man too. U say tat most man are jerks. well i dunnoe wat to say, cause i can onli say tat wat i have told u is really my heart words, and they are really truthful. If u dun belive, again i dunno wat to do ler.

after the social studies lesson, i remembered seeing u around the overhead bridge. there was a sec when my eye meets ur eye. but i turned away, well juz for ur information, i am not hating, blaming and aso not angry at u. However i did all those juz because i dunnoe how to face u. well , tell mi plz do u L0VE mi ? I have been trying veri hard to get ur love. do u really love mi? i really nids ur love. And so i ask all these questions all because i want to noe where sld i go.Every time when u r not around mi, i was like fucking miss u and could not do anything. Well there was piles after piles of homeworks every day. i have being neglecting and tinking of u.. i juz fucking cannot get my eyes and my minds off u. even for a moment. and so again i ask u again, can u be together with mi? let mi hold on to ur hands. play with ur fingers. I even tot of hugging u when u are unhappy, but i am afraid tat u wouldnt let.
remember the day of ur birthday in 2008? when u all are at west plaza outside the clinics because cheng han have fall off to the drain. u remember ? mi , kevin and juinn tat went to find u all . at first we walk in tot tat u all are joking with us. but once again when i saw u crying, i felt sad. then remember we running up the escalators. i saw u crying. i tried to console u. but again i failed. i still dun dare to hug u. i always saw movies when the girl is upset and the boys juz hug the girl. and i wonder if u can be the main female actor and mi as the main male actor, with mi hugging u. can it be possible? Well at tat time when you are crying, i put my hands covering ur eyes, and u push it away. i noe u feel tat i am playing, but actually i can tell u, i am trying to wipe up ur tears. And after tat u went to the toilet while i stood outside waiting for u.and then there comes another guy bringing ice lemon tea for u, u noe at tat time, i felt useless and aso helpless. i remembered u looking and mi, and i told u to drink it. i dun wan u to be upset anymore, so i told u to drink it, then after tat i juz walk bak with the groups of ppl. tinking mani tings again. i wanted u to be happy at ur birthday and these tings happens. Haiz, and somemore i dunno how to make u happy. Tell mi, Am i juz a useless person? i cant even make a girl tat i love so much to be happy. i cant. my brain is juz as useless as stone, i sld not have brought basketball to ur birthday party. i sld not have. i sld not have kept playing basketball and neglecting u when u are sad . Haiz its all my faults. not urs. it all my faults. and somemore i misunderstood u... u confirm will be hating mi veri much. And somemore on ur birthday, u asked mi to teach u how to play basketball. and on tat day, i did not teach but went to play match with other ppl. haiz its mi neglecting u again.


Well 1 more ting i noe tat u sure hate bout mi. it is my behaviour in class rite?

1st- i noe u hate mi behaving like a monkey, playing around disturbing teachers and aso when i became difiance. well i have being trying veri hard to change, well did i improve?
2nd- i noe u dun like my mass spamming of vuglarities like it is my 1st language, and i have already being changing. well tell mi again, did i improve?
3rd- u hate mi playing basketball and entering the self study period with sweats, making the class smelly. i noe u hate it, and so after the incidence, i have aso tried to stop playing basketball. and i have reduced to play onli 1 time every week. is tat fine with u? Well u told mi in the valentines letter tat not to go to play basketball every time, as it affect my studies. and so after all my competition, i have stop playing basketball everyday. Tell mi. Did i improve?

haiz, it reals , in sec 1 and 2 , no one can stop mi from playing basketbal, but now. onli u can stop mi!!!! and tat shows tat U have already replaced basketball as the most important ting in my heart.

in hist lessons, mr tan often tok bout love tingy. u remember him toking bout men not leting women meet the men parents . and this show tat men is treating their parents veri badly and so will be treating their future wife badly...

Well the reason i refused to let those girls i like to come in my hse is because i dun wanna my mum to be spread it all around. well we make an example. if a boy brings his girl friend home and the girl friend break with the boy soon after the visit. well guess wat the boy mum will say. "MY son is useless , cant even keep a girl" isit? i dunno.

Another ting, i dun belive wat mr tan says bout man treating their wife the same as their parents. i often quarrel with my mum because of small matters, but we will remain as closed as ever. tis make mi an unfilial child, well . i have 100% guarentee, no matter how much i quarrel with my parents, they are still my parents, and i will take care of them when they are old. As for my wife, i once promised tat i will nvr scold my girlfriend(if i got 1).And i will not.If u scold mi, means tat u cared for mi, and i will be happy. and not quarrelling with u. the past 2 misunderstanding from mi to u, is because i am worried. i worried tat u would not like mi. i am worried because i care, and i care because i love u. So plz understand . I noe u are still veri angry with mi.

And lastly , i want to tell u tat my handphone is 24 hours waiting for ur sms or ur incoming call. Plz even if u hate mi but still wans mi to hold on to u. Plz tell mi wat sld i change? And if u r not angry anymore and wish mi to hold on to u? Plz forgive mi and can we start afresh? ok! it is sunday now.i wish i could get ur answer soon. better by 12am of monday. i really wish i could extended the time, i really cant bear to part with u. i really cant. haiz. but some times, we have to do some tings that is difficult to be done, or to do tings tat u do not want to do. i kept imaginating tat u lying by my chest, looking at the sunset. i really cannot forget the times with u....... I juz love u!!!!!!

Labels: Haiz can u tell mi tat u love mi?

let it go
3/07/2009 11:13:00 PM


today saturday ler
went for history class in the morning with darryl alone as cj was late.... then we reach there at 8.31 late by 1minute. when i went in, u were not sitting at the seat beside mi anymore,but a seat long long away from mi... well nvm ... i noe u will hate mi... Haizz... then hist lesson past, went to social studies. sat there listen to ms farrah chanting the whole lesson.. then feeling so sianz and again started to emo again while half listening to ms farrah. wrote mani things on my hands , and no one notice except ashley and joey, heng they cannot c wat i was writing.

then afer ss, went to compass point for lunch. reach there, shoes step into mud. then wash in basin and was complained, nvm i wear my sch uniform so nvr kb bak lor. then juz put on my earpiece at there listen dun care lor. anw i was already kind enuff to help the woman to wash up the basin while she kept staring at mi from behind zzz.then went to KFC. sat there emo while they went to buy their food. and thanx harry. he tot tat i no money and so bought some ting for mi to eat.ty. paid him, ate then buy 1 more zinger meal to eat.

after tat shop around, then went home. reach home, watch movie again , and then bathe watch movie again and then finally went to slept till 6.Then darryl called mi to play basketball with him. but i cant. so darryl sry cannot pei u all. ate, watch movie,then bathe . and now posting.... tomorrow nid to do hw ler . haiz any1 can made my life a little bit more interesting and happy. i will be grateful for it.

let it go
3/07/2009 11:01:00 PM


Hi all , darryl is back !! :DD

today is a saturday , so as usual , got remedial in school . -.-

History first , followed by SS . History is always fun ! but SS hor , KAO , super sian sia , bwg , falling asleep lerhhs , crap . den den went to compass for a late breakfast with yongquan , chenjun , harry , raphael . Cause we walk the stupid road den got mud mahhs , den went to toilet to wash lorhhs . den reach there knn got a lao CB dunno at there kbkb smlj . we only wash den she down there bark bark bark and call security guard dunno for what . Make me damn fcuking pissed off . nvm nth happened . after that went to kfc , had our chickens and went to comics connection . Looked and bused home .

reach home , bathed for around an hour or so ? cause gotta wash my slippers , tmd . after that , on com den go slack slack . no people online so nvr dota . den went to bed for a nap . woke up and on com again , lols . den slack slack . did my chinese paper while chatting with peeps on msn . den felt damn hungry and called my mom . first call , nvr ans . second call , nvr ans . thrid and forth was the same . tmd make me damn fucked up . den call chenjun pei me go eat den he dowan . ZZZZs , damn you . den went to find him to play bball .

finished and felt damn tired and hungry , the first time for 7 hours i nvr eat anything , tmd . den dowan go buy , cos damn pek chek . was thinking that my mom will buy , if she nvr den i die lorhhs . Starve to death also not bad ? Reach home and found my mom eating . tmd , scold her for not answering the call and went to makan . phew , but now still hungry , lols . bathed and now posting .

Btw my grandma came to my house to overnight . After some conflict , i manage to stop her from sleeping in my room , lols . hahhahas , lucky me . Den cianyuh say i very bad . ZZZs , where got sia ? its my room leh . damned .

later will be dota-ing bahhs . hahahs , life is just so so so bored . don't you agree with this ? (:

alrights , thats all folks .

To be continued~~ :DDDD

Labels: darryL . ™ (:

let it go
3/07/2009 08:11:00 PM






Well though u told mi to be bak to be ur besties. the sad ting is tat i dunnoe if i can be together with u anymore. so tis song 好朋友 show how a boy likes a girl, and the girl told him tat they are best friends. but when the girl is about to marry, she told the men tat she love him. and tat make the men stuned.And i aso remember tat the song u say u veri like de. at sept last year . it is called 一路向北. am i rite?

Labels: can i instead of be ur 好朋友 but be ur love?

let it go
3/06/2009 07:39:00 PM






Well today tis video is juz for u. i remember last yr went u were crying after the english paper 1 as u noe tat u flunked for the paper. then i dunno wat to do. well then vivian suggest tat i sing tis song for u. it is call 小乌龟. it is a song tat toks about love. well at tat time i was still paiseh. and dare not sing for u. Well till today i still dun dare to sing for u. so i decided to post it. plz be happy, and remember tis song if u r unhappy. and if u still have the hello kitty tat i gave to u during ur birthday, u can do anything to it as i has said last yr. u can hug it if u r happy. but it is impossible now to hug it. well u can scold it or hit it if u felt angry. or say out ur feeling to it when u r sad.but if u had disposed it alrdy, i dunnoe how to make u happy ler. well hope u will be happy.


HAI today i still did not get any of ur sms. i still do not noe ur answer. i really nid to noe tat is it possible for us to be together. is it possible for u to love mi again. is it possible? if it is impossible, i tink i sld juz stop in my routes of chasing u and then try to forget u and then go to use the time for study. it is veri veri impossible for mi to forget u. i tried it be4 from last yr NOV to JAN . i did not contact u even , but still i tinks of u whenever i am doing nth. I even lie on the floor when it is raining be4, emoing, tinking of u, wishing u to be bak to my side, but i knew it is impossible. because u would nvr 4get the "he" in ur heart. i would nvr replace him in ur heart. NO matter how hard i try, or how hard i did. i once saw a blogskin be4. it says bout taking the heart of the guy out to show it to the girl and let them noe tat how much we love them. well if i have no relatives, i will do tat. i will even do tat in the front of u, i would show u how much i love u. even at the cost of my live. but nvm, even if i still left it in my body, it is already dead. it is filled up with ur memories, my love towards u. it is dead now. if i ever take my heart out in front of u, i wanna ask u a question. Will u take it with both ur hands crying? or juz left it where it was, and feed it with a animal. which 1 was u. i was confused with ur love. sometimes u r really veri concerned bout mi.it was in sec 3. the sec time i asked u for stead, u reject at the beginning. but accept it at last. but after 2 hours, u told mi to be ur besties first as u still cannot for get him and dun wan to treat mi as substitution .and the next day , i was emoing the whole day. u ask mi wat happen, and i did not tell u. and then u became emo and cried. sometimes i tot , r u crying for mi, or r u juz crying because of other matters. i am really confused... can u tell mi..

And aso in sec 3. remember when i read ur blog, and sent a message to u saying bout " dun care bout mi , if u wanna patch with ur stead, juz patch dun nid care bout mi." . and the next morning i was emoing again and then was being irritated by mr kuma somemore. well then i became mad, keep shaking with fury and emoness. even use a ting to hit my head. well though not veri hardly, it may be still pain. then u are bak to console mi once again. u wrote a letter to mi. and told mi to be happy as u did not patch with him. even draw lots of smiling face trying to make mi smile. haiz... i really wished these days can be bak when i can feel the concern from u. Haiz, but will it be bak.

in sec 4, i had a quarrel with mr KHOO and u once again conforted mi. make mi cheer up. but tragic happen again when u shouted mi when i was playing with harry. i noe it was nt purpose. and i dun blame u. but it really breaks my heart as it make mi feel tat the days tat u concern mi will nvr be bak. i cried at tat time. then u apologised to mi and we become slowly bak to besties. well i really dun blame u, juz tat u really hurt my heart deeply. In my lifes , u r the first girl tat i loved for the longest and the first girl tat hurts my heart so deeply.

Moreover, when we are bak to be besties. i cannot feel ur love anymore. i aso cannot find ur concern to mi anymore. and whenever i am emo, and needs u, u r away. Whenever i am emo and waiting for u, u would nvr be there . Is it because u have started to hate mi. Is it because u tinks tat i sux. i waited days and nights juz for 1 of u sms. but after tat i still dun received it. In the past , u would always be the first to start up a conversation with mi after i first confessed to u. and u r aso the first to tell mi tat u love mi. these 3 words really affected my life alot. Now. Most of the time it was mi hu started the conversation. but sometimes nvr reply it and sometimes i asked u to chat on the phone as i wanna noe more bout u. but u will rejected and say tat u were busy. is it a retribution, to wat i had done to my EX. not tat i had avoided my ex, but it was like i was working and she was lonely, and i do not have any time to accompany her. it is my retribution. cause now whenever i was lonely , u would say u were busy. Haiz. U would nvr care for mi like u did in the past. i had made u angry 3 times during sec 3 and sec 4 times.

the first time i made u angry was tat i was sitting at xiu yun place and was chatting to her , and aso bullying mrs pang. u was angry with mi. because u told mi tat u dun like mi to bully teacher and get demerits and lastly had to be caned. tis shows ur care towards mi in the past. and aso u was angry with mi as u tot tat i was flirting with xiu yun... well u have misunderstood, i have treat every girl except some and aso excluding u the same... with some i treat them veri worsely. and u, i always wans to try to find ways to pleased u. i was not flirting with xiu yun at tat time, i was juz starting a normal chat. Hai and tis is the second time u show ur care and love for mi. but in the end, now i still cannot get ur heart. Haiz.

the second and third time i made u angry is when we were in sec 4. i had misunderstood u 2 times.... first time i misunderstood u liking for a boy in sec 3. and then avoiding u. and then u became angry with mi for 3 days. the 3 days for mi was like living hell. i sms u and u dun reply. i was emoing all the way on the 3rd day when darryl and xin wei came to my hse to study. after xin wei went home, i even cried in front of darryl. i really cannot tahan. i am scare. and then u forgave mi on the 3rd day. i was as happy as a lurk. i kept running about in my house. like the passage in chinese passage. translate in eng is tat man ancestor is monkey , and man has not forget bout their ancestor liking as a monkey to climb around. maybe , i have more monkey blood in my body than human blood. i went jumping and jumping.

then again recently, i misunderstood u of liking another boy. haiz ... then u started to be angry with mi again. haiz before the incident, i used to sms u. till 1 day u told mi tat ur hp bill had boomed. i was afraid. i tot u are using an excuse so as to avoid mi. haiz. Like wat darryl had said, i care for u because i love u. and tis is the way i express my care. well then after tat u started not to reply mi , and the tings u wrote on the blog, make mi tot tat u had started liking another guy. i noe i am pathetic. haiz. i was scared. i knew tat i cannot lost u. but if tings go on like tis i will aso be emo. and if i parted way with u, i will aso be emo. Tell mi wat sld i do? in the next few days, till sunday, if u dun reply mi, means tat u do not love mi . and doesnt want mi to wait for u anymore. but plz even if u dun love mi, plz juz sms mi tis last message. let mi had ur last message. Even if ur answers will not be a pleasant answer to mi, i still will wait for it. PLZ tell mi. sld i still hold on to u.

whenever i looked into my drawers, i tot of u. the veri first present u gave to mi during valentines. at tat time i was veri happy, as ashley told mi i was the onli 1 hu received tis heart from u. a red heart. and moreover red is ur favourite colour. And the nite be4 valentines , i asked u if u can go out with mi. U reply and said tat u cannot not because u dun wan as ur mother forced u to go to ur cousin chalet. and on the next day , i went to melvin party on valentines day. i was feeling soooo sianz without u on tat day. then i smsed u and actually wanted to buy some presents to giv u if we go to PASIR RIS PARK. u tot tat we are gg to pasir ris park and wanted to meet us there. but in the end, they wanted to juz stay in e hub. i was sadden as i missed the chance to c u on valentines day. although i did met u in sch. but it is not enuff. it is onli 1 hour. and on tat time, we are in social studies remedial... HAIZ...

a few days after valentines, i went to the econ to buy sweets for the class and i came by a hello kitty sweet. i noe tat u love hello kitty. and once i asked u wat sweets u like most and u told mi is "hello kitty sweets". so i decided to buy it to u. altough it is cheap, it contained all my love in it... i was so pleased when u told mi tat u like the sweet. but wat was sad is tat u are having sorethroat at tat time. haiz...

Red is the favourite colour u like, which makes mi remember of 1 incident when u have rashes on ur face during sec 3. i told u to go to the doctor, but u refused. and in the end, the rashes became red. on one side of ur face and u were joking bout it.

and once when u wanted mi to teach u are ALGEBRAIC MANIPULATION when the graduating student on tat yr was starting their self studies till bout 9. and u aso promised to teach mi eng. And in the end, u went home . and u mention tat it was because u dun wanna make it so obvious and chen jun make u shy. and i was so sad as i was left alone again. i juz wanted u to be by my side.I juz need ur love. ur love means everything to mi.

we mentioned about prom night, and about us partnering. i dunno, if i can do it. i may break my promise. i dunno how to face u. and we even discussed of u teaching mi POA after the O. the reasons for mi wanting u to teach mi, is tat i wanted u to be by my side again, patiently teaching mi, showing ur care to mi.but it will nvr happen. rite?

Well till now i still had not giv up on u. but i have decided if u do not want mi to hold on further or if u did not sms mi and tell mi your answer, before monday 1200 midnight, i will treat it as u dun love mi anymore, and dun want mi to hold on to u anymore. this is not a threat. but is tat i really nid ur answer. i am trapped in the path. dunno whether to turn left which is holding on to u or turn rite relunctantly leaving u. plz tell mi sld i hold on the you.

haiz tat a veri bad ting about mi tat i hates it. it is tat is have bad memories for tings tat i remember. but good memories to ting tat i dun wan to remember. which means tat i will remember u, if i decided to leave u,and will be veri difficult to 4get u. Of course, if i still hold on to u, and eventually u fell in love with mi. i will still remember u. i will sure cherish the love with u. It is like wat i has told Xin Wei and darryl and karwong all those friends, i really believe in forever love.if i even really or finally get to get into relationship with u, i would try to do anything. anything so we can get to marry next time, and giv birth to children as i noe tat u love children. Well , now it still sounded as a fairy tales （童话） to mi. however if i have ur answer, i will noe whether to quit tis fairy tales or to continue tis fairy tales with u. 幸福和快乐是结局。 让我们一起写我们的结局。HAIZX......

haiz today we are again avoiding each other. i noe u hate mi, and i dunnnoe how to face mi. juz how long is tis gg to go on. i am really tired of tis. i have 2 choices. 1 is to hold on and another is to quit. Haiz , and aso 2 more question i have for u.


1)do u really love mi in the past?
2)do u love mi now? can we still get on?

Haiz hope tis would pass soon, so hope tat u would reply mi by sms soon. i really hope tat i can be together with u. haiz. well i leave the choice in ur hand. i wish for ur answer.all rite .... sld have written enuff for today post. will continue on the next day post.

Labels: tis is wat darryl teach mi...... 1 way 2 tell 3 words 4 you .I love you

let it go
3/06/2009 06:00:00 PM





erm i am here to post a video tat suits my feelings. and aso to post on wat happen on tis two days. wed and thur.

wed
erm nth much except emo throughout most of the lesson. even though i am always playing, i am still emo deep in my heart. then after sch remedial all the way till 5. watch show , bathe and then sms her. and seems tat i am misunderstood her again. haiz i am really sorry.


thur
today went to sch with cj oni, as yf was late again and darryl was going to sch with kim.then normal lesson. And i have a feeling tat she was avoiding mi. then after sch, lesson again.then in a math lesson had a quarrel again, well dun wanna mention the name. but i juz wanna say, if u want to play dun be angry, if u want to be angry dun play. nb play with him and then get scolded by him.. wtf.

until 4 sth actually prepared to go home but suddenly decided to pei kw they all as they wanted to play pool. though i dunno how to play pool, i can onli c how they play. well and then from 4 sth to 5, i was writing a 9 pages long messages for her. well will show the message to her below later. well then went home together with darryl ashley. then buy sweets and met yu fei and buy ice cream then went home. well i am aso veri angry at those stealers that steal our sweets. better dun let mi find out hu u r, if u dun admit. if u admit , i will treat it as a small matter, but dun let mi catch u, or dun blame mi.then went home, and then now posting to u peeps.



the messages to u are followed , i had add some more thing to the messages.



well i noe u won forgive mi again for misunderstanding u. then well i am already out of solutions to make u happy and forgive mi again. i dun wanna help from others again.well if u really cannot forgiv mi , jiu nvm ler, cause i really dunno wat to do.then if u continue to be angry with mi, then on today onwards u in class , u can juz treat mi as nth. cause i juz wan u to be happy. plz dun be sad , dun make mi more emo. i cannot tahan tis emoness again. because the feelings u gav mi everyday is tat it is useless anymore to wait for u. because u won like mi anymore. my heart is dead now. i am veri tired chasing u. in the past , i tot tat i confirm can be together with u. but now i am veri confused . i noe it will be pain for mi. hai well let begone be begone. and i will not trouble u any further. well i really hope to receive ur message to tell mi ur reply.if u really cannot forgive mi and dun wan mi to wait for u anymore, juz reply as a NO!... i won blame u as i had promised . and if u forgiv mi,and still want mi to wait for u, plz reply a yes!. it is difficult for mi to continue like tis. well reply mi soon. if after 3 days i still dun get ur reply, i would take it as a no. i would try to be happy... it is hard for mi to chase u if u cannot forget him, or if u dun even want to giv mi a chance to try.

i had rephrased it. well sianz. remember the first time i stead, my stead told mi tat my heart was locked with millions of padlock, and she cannot noe how i tink. well now i noe how she feel ler. my key cannot fit into ur lock and so cannot open it. i dunnoe how u tink.

my heart was once divided into 4 parts for my EX during sec 2 time. 1/4 is her. 1/4 is money. 1/4 is exams. 1/4 is parents. and she say LOL!.... well. my heart from sept till now tat more than half of my heart is u, and remaining half is money parent and exam. i tink tat u are more important than even my parents. WEll i have waited for u for bout 5 mths ler. the route is so tiring. i remember the first time i like u is the starting of sec 3. but i did not confess. and i confess at bout sept. the memories together with u is unforgettable. at bout oct, u wrote on my hand tat u tink u love mi. and at oct aso u aso wrote on my hand tat u love mi.. i dunnoe how true is it. but i kept the words on my hand for nearly a week, i dun bear to wash it away. am i stupid or wat. well i am not, i juz waiting for a chance for u. then today , i walked past the shop beside pharmacy in rivervale mall. it reminds mi of u again. went in and saw the actual tings tat i wanted to buy for u on ur birthday. the first birthday i celebrate with u. and while looking at the tings, there was tis emo song playing which make mi more emo. HAIX. i would nvr forget the memories with u. nvr forget tat u like hello kitty and aso red colours, and most importantly , ur idol is jay chou.Moreover, i would nvr forget the feelings when u held on to my hand.the feelings when u first time told mi tat u love mi.every time i was with u, i dread to hold ur hands again, but i noe u wouldnt want, so i still decided not to......... well i hope u can reply mi soon. is 3 days enuff for u to consider. WEll hope u can reply mi soon. MAYBE TIS is the last messages i might get from u, or the last message i would be senting to u. i hope u understand. i giv up because i noe tat u would not love mi again. the "he" in ur heart will nvr replaced by mi.well i really belive in everlasting love, and sought to have my everlasting love with u, but the answer is gg to be told by u again. onli u can giv mi the answer. tis is maybe the last time that i would say these to u again. the last time i will say iloveyou, imissyou, ineedyou , and iwantyou again. i still cannot bear u. tis route to forget u is aso veri difficult haiz. i wish i was nvr borned, wish i could juz fell asleep and die. U won miss mi rite?


well yong quan BE HAPPY!. be happy. let begone be begone.. we will c on sunday. hope u will not be emo or sunday. plz sent mi all ur best wishes. bye every1. i need to go le. bye

Labels: 从爱得来得痛... ARGH. chasing for unworthy tings for so long . i really love her.

let it go
3/05/2009 06:56:00 PM


darryl here !! (:

same as yesterday , today went to meet kimberly and went to school together . went to spc and she bought me chocolate ! which i cannot eat cos i got sore throat , so keep properly at home lorhhs , (: anyway i forget to buy alethea's sweet which i promised to buy her , HAHHAHAH SORRY ALETHEA . DDD:

After that was lesson time , lessons and lessons , damn sian . den was recess , makan-ed and went up to class .. den lesson and lesson again , damn tiring . stupid block timetable la !! den was english time , was doing the speech thingy and damn tired . den suddenly kimberly came , cos she wanna return book , den i help her , hahahas . so nice of me , :X

den was dnt , makan again , den slack . and was break time , muahahhahas . makan again again and went up to class to play , hahahhas . den mr tan came , tok about something and do the physics worksheet . den started to play wax , hahhas i put on chenjun hair den i go anyhw make his hair , hahhahs . den all went to toilet and do . den i finished and raphael help chenjun wash his hair , my fault ? hhahahas .

after that , slacked till around 4 and went to dnt which was suppose to start at 3.30 . reached there , designed the mini-journal and ended . hahahs , den went to play bball . played for a while and started raining . den when shu hao went to put the ball , it stopped . den we called for the ball again , den when the ball was taken out , it started raining again , zzzzzs .. damn joke , hahhas . den all pek chek and dowan play le . so all went to take bus .

yongquan , ashley and me took bus 136 and we went to rivervale mall after that . on the way , i heard from them that a packet of sweets were lost . To whoever that guy is , are you so poor that u cant afford a packet of sweets ? you could have just tell us that you want but not taking it without people's permission . felt abit disappointed with such an act in our class . hais ..

went to ntuc , bought sweets and went down . den saw yufei buying correction tape , was like , 7-10 ? lols , den i bought 3 while ashley dunno buy hw many for jiunn tat . den went to watsons and to macdonalds for my ice cream . den walk home ..

i've got nothing to say le lurhhs . hahahs , maybe being friends is the best way , so yupp . last long with him .

Labels: darryL . ™ (:

let it go
3/05/2009 06:32:00 PM



Hey all , today is such a tiring and pangseh day . :X

Starting , i pangseh yongquan , chenjun , yufei and i went to meet kimberly . Walking there and my throat was damn uncomfortable so went to econ and bought my strepsils first . Pop one into my mouth and felt better . den she went down and went to econ again , lols . btw saw choonkiat , raphael and mr leong when on my way . ahhahahs small world .

den walked to school with her and raphael lorhhs . Reached school and had a practical lesson on chemistry . den after that was recess . went down , makan -ed and still did not see her . so went back to class with chenjun thinking thats he won't come down . den den when i walking to class , she msg me that she waiting for me . LOLS !! second pangseh of the day . Anyway , sorry sorry , i dunno mahhs !! DD:

after that was physics practical lesson , den slacked and nothing much to talk about . only know that i keep suan-ing mr cheong saying that his 'toooot' was 3 cm . HAHAHH den he say , '' see you of course 3 cm la '' . den i was like laughing like mad . hahhas , den he got no voice den keep zou ying . damn joke sia . Mr cheong is so cute can ? I LIKE HIM LA . :DDD

den was chinese , wahhs damn disappointed with my score . 49/70 . i was aiming for 53 de leh , knn ); . its a a2 and i want a a1 !!! CRIES *

neverminds , den was history time , copied essays again and den got a open book test . TMD , the teacher damn act sia , sibei buay song him . den my essay nvr finish , do till second point only , sianzzzzz fail le la . T.T

den went to break and was maths remedial . MR ONG , I GOT FINISH THE PAPER THAT TEACHER GIVE HOR , SO DUN SCOLD ME !! :DDDDD
I KNOW YOU READING LA , HAHHAHAHAHAAHHAS .

then went to dnt . slack slack , makan makan , drink drink , tok tok , till 4.30 . den was raining again , sian . so went to canteen and started to play monkey . lols , hahas . went to bus stop , and pangseh chenjun as me harry and yongquan taking bus 83 . lols , third pangseh .
den on the bus , harry decided to go compass as he only can go there , and yongquan want to go prime market . lols , so pangseh-ed yongquan and went to compass with harry . forth pangseh . den reach compass and took lrt home .

now posting lorhhs . just completed SS and will be doing dnt later . Damn tired sia , still feel so weak . lols . sighhhhhs .

take care and goodbye readers~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Labels: darryL . ™ (:

let it go
3/04/2009 07:59:00 PM



tis is yongquan post... i am here to post on monday and tue....

MON nth juz sch then assembly then mr tan dun let mi go off , but let mi go off to the doc.. fortunately, when i reach there, the sengkang polyclinic, when i take my number, they go closed the door and put a close sign there. WAH HENG. then after went cp ate , then brought 2 drama show . they are 西游记 and 天龙八部... mi pay 70 sth for it...zzz. then went home chiong show bathe , did some hw and slept...

tue , early in the morning chiong to prime market to buy sweets for the class... then went to class as usual... after a math lesson, i was darn flared up, the sweets tat were supposed to be open the next day was eaten all... and wat made mi more angry is tat some1 say tat it is 4a hu ate all... ok eat the sweets is ok , but it is bouoght for class 4b. then u all ate finish and somemore ate the next day sweets, u all won feel tat veri guo fen meh.... darn fucked up, went to question some guyss.... well if u hav anyting tat u disliked bout mi, juz say it out... then after sch went to c the prefect investigue... well quite boring. then i meet shu hao, we ate bread sticks outside the sch hall.. then suay suay mr tay walk past.. call us to be on pumping position and took a photo of us... after tat he turn away and we decided to.... ZAO AH !

went bak class, found 1 math worksheet from mr ong, and decided to finish it be4 mrs haffidz even reach the class.. but sadly, when she came in, i had 2 question more... lol, nvm i still finish them ... lolz.. then after eng went to hist. copy again...zzz...

walk to the block karwong is living and then walk to econ and then he told mi someting really unpleasant to my ear. dun misunderstood, we did not quarrel. but he told mi bout 1 ting tat i had been not able to face.. shall not tell u more about the prob... then mi went econ buy sweets for the class, and i chicken burger. diet!!!! then walked home and found... darryl! gave him hist notes and we parted. reach home chiong 孙悟空 again... then finally bathe . and on com . then saw someting tat i really dun dare to face... well after seeing tat , well , my heart felt like it is feed with poison, or even worst, it is again starting to shatter... i really dun dare to face the prob... i hate myself. i hate my fate . y muz god be so cruel to mi. Y??? everytime i tot i have the chance , and then it was gone again... i simply couldnt grab on to it. well chat with kar wong awhile , told him my probs and then still cannot resist the pain. i really buay ta han ler.. PLZ if u peeps noe about my temper. PLZ do not ask karwong about the probs. it is onli a secret between us... LET MI ALONE SUFFER . after seeing those unpleasant tings over and over again, i started to remember about tis fews day. tis few days , i had aso not being veri well. IN addition to my cough, i am always tinking bout those bad results. i simply hate myself. i noe i am ugly.. i wanna scream out loud, but i cannot either... dun noe y? since last time incident, i knew tat it is now really veri impossible. but i still try, but no matter wat i do, no matter how hard i try, i cannot hold on to the chance... whenever i reaches it, it suddenly disappears. well y god muz be so cruel to mi, i hav long term memories to those ting tat happen long ago. and this make the incident kept on flashing bak in my mind. i cannot resist. i like a beggar, i am like a dog. always begging for chance.. always wishing for a good day... Y ? HOW can i grab hold of the chance. it really tiring. it really painful. but i have continue chasing for the little chance throughout the long times. but y i juz cannot grab hold of it... Y ? i feel like exploding. HAIZ tis is onli a small part of my feelings rite now. i duno how to describe the fucking feeling out.. i onli noe it really hurts. so PEEPS TIS IS FOR EVERY1. BEWARE. Dun try to play with mi these few days. i will explode. ty. i nid accompany. but i noe truly from my heart tat no 1 will want to accompany mi. it require great endurance to ppl hu want to accompany mi rite now! . kk .... i fucking nid to stoop tinking bout these tings anymore. i nid to study for my next day a math test. bb..

Labels: y does the heartbreaking feeling kept coming bak to mi.

let it go
3/03/2009 08:11:00 PM

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