February 5, 2009
Emo not ? thinking of this just now . can i ? DD:
During chem i tio cancer , keep dropping hair .. Hey , i find that the blogskin is okay , so no worries yongquan . :DD
today quite sian , but still ok larhhs . Kana scratch by zankai again , yawnns , same pattern somemore , wtf .
Schooooooooooool time , nothing interesting to elaborate , just that msg her .. But , she say she wanna msg other guys . So , bwg let her lorhhs . hais , D: . Off-ed my phone for 2 hours , den on back when sch finished . den she say nvr msg le , hais so continue . Play raping game in class and went to play basketball . Den nvr notice a ball flying towards me , den hit me on the head . Damn pain , you noe why ? I bite my tongue , Knnbccb . fucked up. Den played basketball with lots of guys and finished . Went to spc and bus-ed home . Skipped the self-study cos very tired . den walked home with chenjun . Emo-ed on the way but didnt show only .
I told her that i want emo , den she say anything .. i bwg , nvm . i told her i wanna die , she say can dun keep say die die die anot ? Very piss de .. Wth , neverminds . i went to the 4th floor on my block , stay-ed there for a period of time . i asked about the essay i helped her , in the end , havent hand in .. Neverminds , den i told her i wanna jump off the building , goodbye . guess what she say , SHE SAY -.= TAKECARE , TATAAA~~~ . WTF ? den i took the picture on top , and thinking of going to the 17th floor . but but what about my parents ? My friends ? decided not to and went home , hais .. most emo today .. den went home , bath-ed (35mins) and went to my room . Anyway , i didn't msg her at all till now . She didn't even care .. so i asked my mom . Below was my conversation between me and my mom about suicide :
darryl: 妈，如果我自杀你会怎样？
mom: 哭死啦 ， 干吗突然问这个？
darryl: 嗯，没事 ， 问爽而已
mom: 如果你爸爸死你会不会哭？一样的吗。
darryl: ...... *went back into the room*
Hais , i should not yea , suicide . Maybe must think of other way le .. took a nap for around 1hr+ and now posting . Anyway , chenjun oso got a blog , tag him soon after his CBox was made. (:
Anyway , i love the picture on top . Very emo . lols . and and i miss her alot . DD:
To cianyuhhh: why must you treat me lidat ? DDD: neverminds , i dun blame you . So dun take it to heart . Hope you find a better love , far better than me . and and , hope you happy . You can't speak because of sorethroat , but that makes you even more cute . take care baby . Drink more water and cover blanket when u sleep . I won't expect that u'll miss me , maybe i'm already or SHOULD BE ALREADY dead in your heart . ily , but u don't . iwy , but u dowan . imy , but u don't . iny , but u dun nid me ..
Dear god , please heal her sorethroat , u can have the punishment on me . thank you .
PS: the phrase on top was from the song called thunder . (Boys like girls)
-Days without , and waiting for her . 9 days and going ..
Labels: darryL . ™ (:
let it go
2/05/2009 06:47:00 PM
