February 7, 2010
Drunk like crazy, I saw image of you flashing through my mind........
Waited at the ten floor of buang kok, imagining that it was your block, and imagining it is on the 7th storey.
Stains of tears like water remained beside the drain, like memories of you remaining like a pile of secrects in my mind.
And I silently screamed in my heart for you.
And the stupiest thing is that I know you wouldn't want to care,
And I still tried
And I may destroy your happiness.
I may laugh, I may smile, who knows that what have been hiding behind my laughter and smile. I may play, I may jump, but who knows the real motive why I try to make myself busy. I may cry, I may be sad, But who knows who will be the one that really care. I may be drunk, I may be crazy, But who knows that who I am really thinking very much in my heart that I smash glass bottle, I kicked the dustbin, And I silently screamed in my heart.
Yes, It is just my stupidity, My foolishness.
But, It was me, It was me to held me till today, till the day that I sweared that without anyone I can still live. To that day that I really only cared for myself.
But it was me that held myself up to think of some ways to numb myself of every pain that has been acheing in my heart for so long.
But it was me, to hate people who don't even respect me for who I am.
But it was me, to hate people who tell me somethings and doing other things.
But it was me to hate people who I helped a lot and in the end, He doesn't even care about me at all. And IT was me to hate people who always said that He was very good to me but only really been good to me once.
But it was me to occupy all the memories, to reminsce all the memories. But it was me who fell down on the 10th storey to hide from all the memories haunting.
But it was me...........
I am me.........
Remember this I am myself.
It was me who missed and loved you for so long, and it was me who used almost every means to forget you, and It was me who stupidly still did not succeed. Sorry. Sorry for disturbing you yesterday. Sorry for saying all those to you. Sorry for not forgeting you. Sorry for who I am . Sorry.
Labels: Sorry I am me.
let it go
2/07/2010 11:18:00 PM
