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December 24, 2009

Hi everyone. The last time I post was like so long ago. And seems like no one came to my blog anymore. Hahas. Maybe is because I blogged less frequent as before or I have a very boring post. HAHAS


Okay, Here's the good news. Went to tampines square CPF building to seek for an agent. And I have an Interview at Changi North next week. A packer job. $6 per hour. From 7am to 3pm. After that, I can have OT from 3pm to 7pm which is $9 per hour. Hope I get this job. Even though it is very faraway. Hahas. Better than nothing to do at home bah. Hahas. OKay. I just came back from playing basketball. Going to play game soon. Hahas. Lastly, Hope the group that is going to sentosa tomorrow enjoy themselves. BYE everyone.

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12/24/2009 02:05:00 AM



December 17, 2009

Boring. Doing the same thing every day. Did not went to the interview. Because too many people around there. Maybe finding job with my brother next time . Boring life every slacking . I need money for poly. I think I am going to sleep soon before my father wake up and nag me . HAHA. Goodnight friends.

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12/17/2009 05:02:00 AM



December 12, 2009

Wow, It has been few days since I last posted. Nothing to do recently. Everyday same routine. Wake up at 5 pm. Makan, cook for coffee, bring it down. Come up, play game till 5am in the morning. Nagged by mum and dad to find job. But I am already trying to find but don't know find what job. LOLS. OKay. Next time then post. Lols .

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12/12/2009 05:13:00 PM



December 9, 2009

Well just as those other bloggers as said, we went to macrina house for dinner. Ate, watch ghost videos, and drank alcohols. Okay la, this time never even unstable dao. LOls. But I did realise something. Maybe I was wrong about friends on those few days. But I first need to get back my trust and change my temper as It has been boiling this few days. Gonna change.


Nearly quarrelled with mother, brother and father. Cannot even go out to enjoy 1 night... zzz.

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12/09/2009 12:51:00 AM



December 5, 2009

5566 - 心如刀割


两个人站在门口
女的说别再回头
握着拳 男的说请你别走
就这样 故事正要走到尽头
谁的心飘在空中
你再也不想多说
擦去泪 我没有一点保留
天知道 可否能有任何请求
即使我的心如刀割
你已不再爱我
任凭我这么痛
你却无动于衷
我就快要发疯
我的爱已失控 Oh no
无可救药的我只能忍着痛
你已经不再爱我
连话都不想多说
看着你 我比谁都还难过
希望他 可以给你更多更多
即使我的心如刀割
你已不再爱我
任凭我这么痛
你却无动于衷
我就快要发疯
我的爱已失控 Oh no
无可救药的我只能忍着痛
编辑:x⊙゛*yμE ^
王仁甫&孙协志 - 心如刀割
即使我的心如刀割
你已不再爱我
任凭我这么痛
你却无动于衷
我就快要发疯
我的爱已失控 Oh no
束手无策的我只能低下头
悔不当初的我不愿意放手


let it go
12/05/2009 02:23:00 AM



存在 by 5566

你说着 我听着 像海浪打着 沙滩烧着
你的忧伤大于快乐 连彩虹都只剩下一种颜色
我听着 你说着 像刀子划的 隐隐痛着
就因为爱没有规则 所以心痛了死了回不去了
但是我存在着 我一直存在着
和你一起的照片仍在我的手机上贴着
爱会永远永远 你说的
离开我的时候 却没舍不得
我真的存在着 我一直存在着
不管是疯的气的我受着我紧紧手握着
傻傻的陪着守着证明你值得
但我会笑着因为一切都值得
你说着 我听着 像海浪打着 沙滩烧着
你的忧伤大于快乐 连彩虹都只剩下一种颜色
我听着 你说着 像刀子划的 隐隐痛着
就因为爱没有规则 所以心痛了死了回不去了
但是我存在着 我一直存在着
和你一起的照片仍在我的手机上贴着
爱会永远永远 你说的
离开我的时候 却没舍不得
我真的存在着 我一直存在着
不管是疯的气的我受着我紧紧手握着
傻傻的陪着守着证明你值得
但我会笑着因为一切都值得
我真的存在着 我一直存在着
和你一起的照片仍在我的手机上贴着
爱会永远永远 你说的
离开我的时候 却没舍不得
我真的存在着 我一直存在着
不管是疯的气的我受着我紧紧手握着
傻傻的陪着守着证明你值得
但我会笑着因为一切都值得

原点 by 5566

心像飘落的枯叶踩在地上都会碎
我说我爱着你但你却又假装你没听见
我像个隐形人 逗你开心逗你笑
但你总是看不见
难道要很多考验 还要很多抱歉
才能够 证明我会爱你到永远
寻寻觅觅 我们还是又回到了原点
心像飘落的枯叶 要怎么熬过这冬天
好想抱你直到明天 怎么这双手又退却
我像个胆小鬼 只敢想像只敢暗恋
就是不敢放手追
难道要很多考验 还要很多抱歉
才能够 证明我会爱你到永远
寻寻觅觅 我们还是又回到了原点
我已经无法承受 没有结果的结果
在爱的洪流 我只能继续去漂流
有太多太多考验 还有太多抱歉
放不下 我在想着你 你想着谁
寻寻觅觅 我们终于又 回到了原点
难道要很多考验 还要很多抱歉
才能够 证明我会爱你到永远
寻寻觅觅 我们还是 又 回到了原点
我没有方向 也没有了知觉
我忘了方向 也忘了所有感觉


let it go
12/05/2009 02:01:00 AM



what goes around by justin timberlake

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your han
I just can't seem to understand
So why your love went away
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?
Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Can you tell me is this fair?
Just so confused about it
Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around comes around
You should know that
What goes around comes around
What goes around comes around
You should know that
Don't want to think about it (no)
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?
Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
But that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Music
Let me paint this picture for you, baby
You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes
You cheated girl
My heart bleeds girl

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12/05/2009 01:43:00 AM



December 4, 2009

Who want to go for gyming & swimming & Basketball session on Sunday ?


let it go
12/04/2009 11:27:00 PM



Agent never called today again. So, basically I just slack all the way after I woke up at 5.30pm. This few days always wake up late and sleep late. I need to have a job quick to adjust my lifestyle.


Maybe gonna play basketball tomorrow if agent never call again

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12/04/2009 11:23:00 PM



Like A Knife by secondhand serenade

I dream a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life



Hero- Mariah carey

There's a hero If you look inside your heart You don't have to be afraid Of what you are There's an answer If you reach into your soul And the sorrow that you know Will melt away

And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you

It's a long road When you face the world alone No one reaches out a hand For you to hold You can find love If you search within yourself And the emptiness you felt Will disappear

And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you

Lord knows Dreams are hard to follow But don't let anyone Tear them away Hold on There will be tomorrow In time You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you


let it go
12/04/2009 12:58:00 AM



Today, Agent never called again. Maybe tomorrow? Went to play basketball just now, to put off all the stress that had accumulated throughout the days.

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12/04/2009 12:26:00 AM



Chenjun
Ya, I had lost my trust.
But first, I have lost my trust in myself.
You know, even I cannot go out,
Hearing you guys calling me go out also
can cheer me up a little.
I did not call you all,
because I felt that you guys can be
happy with yourself. Why must I go out
and spoil your day. Plus, I really don't
like to like call people to ask where
you all are. Because It seems that I am
very thick-skinned. I don't like. Ya,
whatsmore, I hate shu hao, I cannot learn
his pattern. This is not about outcasting,
Just the trust was gone. And you know that
I have a very strong self-esteem.
I always thought that if we are friends,
we will contact each other often to update each
other. Is my thinking really wrong?
Ya, I will emo because of her in the past.
But I had mention, I am gradually forgetting her
now. I think that The feelings is not fully
pressurising me anymore since when I drank to nearly
drunk at YUFEI house. I don't want to have
One-sided love anymore. And the trust I have given
and contributed, makes me lost myself. Ya, I lost trust
but more in myself, who called I am so useless in
many things huh. But if you think I never hear your
advice, then you are wrong. You know how hard I take to
this day, to forget her. Now I finally done it. It's not I who
do not want to hear your advice, but I really cannot solve the problem
even with your advice. I really cannot feel the Care that we used to have, the commotion and communication we once had. But now, I felt that everything is gone. Ya, my temper is not good. But I had tried to change it for very long. Didn't I? I thought you should know because you are 1 of the guys that helped me this few years. If not, I think I may have been expelled or caned again in this school. And, I am already grabbing hold of the fact that I can never been together with her again. My heart is dead, so is my mind. I don't know what to do now. Really. HAIS.




Kar Wong
Although we are not closed together anymore,
But I once mentioned this to you before:
I did not leave the group, but I am just trying
to pull this 2 groups together
so that Our class can be more united.
But, maybe it's my fault for not
making my intentions known. If I is not doing that,
I will not even ask you what is wrong when I felt
that you are moody. ya, You know I love to have lots of people gathering to share the
fun. But I can't seems to do all this Because of me. I don't know is it me or what. But what I really know that It was pain too putting all this down,
putting everything we once love and like and created
down, Like destroying the things we have sacrificed to fulfil
, but What can I do ? Yup, I will forget her completely sooner or later,
since I have forgot halfway. Maybe let me get back my trust in myself first.
And, I will try to be happy whenever I can.

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12/04/2009 12:01:00 AM



December 3, 2009

Congratulations, I Hate You – Alesana

no one ever said that life was fair and I’m not saying that it should be
so knowing that you are where you want to be and I’m not comes as no surprise
but don’t expect me to be happy for you
and don’t smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too
I don’t want your pity…I hate your pity

taste your vanity and its sweet bitterness
as you hide behind your veil of my stolen hopes and lost dreams
…you took them all…
I watched you steal my thoughts and had to see you smile

as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I’ll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

swallow your pride

beg me to make this easier and listen to my hopeless cries

suffer alone in emptiness
I lust to see you swallowed by the mess that you left in your wake
disgust lies deep within your empty gaze…

beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
send stares into your meaningless eyes

my envy can’t describe how I loathe you for having all the stars
leaving my eyes to marvel the sky knowing it should be mine
yet it’s you I see wasting the dream that only I deserve
I’ll tear off your face to see your smile.

as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I’ll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

swallow your pride

beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
send stares into your meaningless eyes



Alesana-Apology

Sweat drips in my eyes (you’re everything)
Screams of lust we cry (you’re everything)
Tonight, you are everything (you’re everything)
You’re everything to me
No more as I wake
From this perfect dream
I can not stay down
Live this lie for I
Now must think only of myself
And to think that you will not be
Scared or surprised I severed
All these ties (this is the end)
This is the end

I’ll lose myself in anguish
For tonight (this is the end)
Help me get over you (I feel so numb)

I feel so numb too
See this bitter end
It has come to this
One last kiss
Broken pieces will not mend
To save our past
Save our past now
(this is the end)

I’ll lose myself in anguish for tonight
Help me get over you (this is the end)
Can one last false apology
Help me get over you

In my mind blood drips from your eyes
A beautiful last goodbye

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12/03/2009 03:58:00 AM



December 2, 2009

I felt that the feelings I have for her is gradually decreasing in this few days. I seems to get back some of my cheerfulness. Hope everything will be well.


And, I am no longer troubled by friends. Because, I am gonna show them that I can be alone. Last time, I planned to find work together with them. But now, I preferred working alone. Having an interview with an agent soon which my brother has introduced. Will soon gonna have my job.



Within these few days, I have so called 'opened' my mind. Whenever I have troubles they won't care. Whenever they have troubles, I tried to help.


It is so unfair. And I am not gonna to care for it any further. I want to be myself from today onwards. Because I am yongquan. Don't think of even changing my mind. My friends are myself. And I'm gonna work and be myself. Got troubles don't call me. And you could call me a coward if you want. Because I am so gonna not going to risk my brother and myself again.

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12/02/2009 09:42:00 PM



December 1, 2009

This post is for someone. The recent friends things is not talking about you......

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12/01/2009 08:51:00 PM



Given up everything? Gonna have work really soon. Maybe I too can use work to drown away all the sorrows that I have been suffering.


Another chance to be drunk on Friday night. This time, I must make myself 100% drunk.


Because everything is making me more and more disappointed now.


Not mentioning Love, that is Friends.


Gonna train myself up soon too.

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let it go
12/01/2009 01:47:00 AM