November 19, 2009
Prom night have come and passed. Really hope that it will go through slower. But, it still too fast. I really don't wish it to end so fast. If that thing have not happen, I will have more time.
But nevermind, what has passed has passed. I think it's time to really let go and rest. Let go of everything. Be back to the old yongquan. But I will miss you. Because you are really the first girl that I have fall so much in love.
Saw what your stead has done for you for your birthday. Now, I understand, I could never get better than any of your stead. Because the reason is I don't know how to create surprise all those. And, because I am me. Really hope that time would stay at that moment forever. I know I'm being selfish. But....
After prom, accompanied you with the groups around. After a while sat on your father car to dobby ghaut. Really appreciated it. Pity I never get the chance to say goodbye in front of you.
Went to coffee shop, ate laksa. Drank beer. 1 of them became drunk and vomit all around. It really heart pain for me when I see him like this. Although we often talk, he was still my friend.
Then, take cab to macrina hotel. Tried to stop those drunkard in the hotel, and I received a few more bite marks and bruise on my hand. Really upset to see everything using beer to numb themselves. Hais.
After that, camped that, tried to stop the drunkard for the whole night. They never stop until 7am.
After that, I don't why ki siao and joke with dean for very long. lols. Laugh until siao.
Went out of hotel and take a cab home at 10+. Reached cj house. camp a while and now back at home.
Ps- Although I say that I will try to forget you, I do not know whether I could really do that. I will still waiting for you until I really forget you. Thanks for giving me such a memorable night. Really like it. But Prom night is too short. I wish that It could be longer. Because this may be the last time I gonna see you in this year. I really cannot bear. But, For your sake, I will still try to forget you. Bye, I will miss you and you will be the best girl that I have love so much. Today, I need to hold back every bits of my tears and fight back and become the old yongquan. But, in my heart, it will only be you, you and you. I am so jealous of him. How I wish I can be like him, getting your love. Hmmm, I think I shall not disturb you any further. Goodbye.
If this is a letter, I think it will be sealed with tears. Because I still can't bear to leave you. You are right. good thing don't last long. But in the world, there are very few people that will appreciate this good things. Especially 4 hours with a girl that I had liked most in my life. Anyway, you are very beautiful on that day, unlike me. Was shocked when I saw you.
If 1 day, you need me, you will know how to find me. Because, I will be waiting and loving you always.
Labels: I really really really love you .
let it go
11/19/2009 12:02:00 PM
