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October 20, 2009

I'm back! And everytime, when I bloghop, I leave with a heavy heart. Why? I ask myself. It's because I knew that I had failed once again in my life. Once again, I knew that you have a boyfriend. Once again, I am crying. Why? Why am I still grabbing to this thin thread that is impossible to hold on? Why am I still crying? Why I still feel the pain? Why I still reminisce about the past? Most importantly, Why are you still in my mind? Why? Can anyone answer me? Can anyone take a knife and plunge into my heart? Because the pain is too overwhelming for me. Everytime I have a chance to talk to you, I think that everything is possible again. Everytime, I thought we can be together, something happened. You will have your sweetest sweetheart. And I was with nothing again. Actually, I knew these things since a few days before. Someone told me that you are attached. Someone make me feel that I failed once again. Someone make me cry for a whole night. Someone that makes me give up hope again. After that day, I did not SMS you anymore. You know why? It's because, I knew I am disturbing you everytime. I finally slowly grab a hold on myself by not thinking of you for so long. But things again started to change when I saw your blog. I'm sorry. I will cry tonight, just tonight, and everything is over ... Cancel prom night if you want please. Just sms me, I waiting for your answer. sorry.

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10/20/2009 12:20:00 AM