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October 30, 2009

Hey friends. I'm having a very bad mood now. And that's the reason I am posting now. This 2 weeks, we are having our O level examination. English, I think I can just secure a passing grade. And E-Math, I thought I can get very well. But in the end, only to discover, I forget to do a 12 mark pentagon question on paper 2. Saw it only when I hand up my paper. Wtf. Then A math was okay, except, I forget to do a 7 mark question again. Sians. Now I doubt if I can still get A1. It Seems like I have kissed my A1 goodbye. Hais, fucking hell so unlucky, wish I have been more careful. Hope still can get A1. Sians. And thanks yeezheng and chenghan for consoling me when I am sad just now. Thanks.

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10/30/2009 06:58:00 PM



Escape the Fate Something Lyrics:
So now you're running
it's hard to see clearly
When I make you angry
you're stuck in the past
And now you're screaming
So can you forgive me
I've treated you badly
But I am still here

Sometimes I wonder
Why I'm still waiting
Sometimes I'm shaking
that's how you make me
Sometimes I question why I'm still here
Sometimes I think I'm going crazy

Can you help me understand?

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else
Something to somebody else


You look at me through clouded eyes
I know you see through my lies
See the sky, see the stars
All of this could be ours
Out of sight, out of mind
we've been through this a thousand times
Turn your back and then you make me feel so crazy

Can you help me understand?

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else

You know I would wait for ever
Yes I would wait (I would wait)
You know I would wait forever
Yes I would wait

And now you wish that you meant something
And now you wish that you meant
Something to somebody else
And now you wish that you met someone
And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else
And I'm the one that should mean something
But still you wish that you meant something to somebody else
Something to somebody else
Something to somebody else


let it go
10/30/2009 06:57:00 PM



October 24, 2009

Hi everyone. Been out these few days. With friends. Yesterday went to changi airport to study. Then I sleep for 20 minutes. so comfortable. Then return to compasspoint at 7. Lols . Played with friends. Then on bus, did nothing. Not in the mood to do. Reached compass. They ate dinner while I never eat because I no money le, and not very good mood. We walked around after that and Yi xiang take bus home, while clarance, Harry and I went to find Dean.


Talked and did some maths. Went home at 11.50 . After that slept immediately after i bath. Too tired.


Okay now to the main topic. Raphael once told me, Don't fall for someone that do one wants to catch you. He's right. But I still cannot do it. But I also wished my friends that are trapped in love to be happy too. At least after O bah. I will try too. Even though it will be very hard . I will try.

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10/24/2009 02:06:00 PM



October 22, 2009

Today, had our science practical. Was confident this time. Hope can get super good results. I will not want an A2 , I must have a A1
After that we were quarantine in multiplex and the teacher were there. We are only released at 1.30. fuck sia so late.

After that, went to rivervale mall. The guys had Long John Silver while I had roti prata. Then went to find them. Walked, and saw those guys that tio us before. After that walked home. Bathed. Now using computer, will go to her birthday later . hahas, Hope will enjoy much .

Okay jiu zhe yan ba. Happy birthday to hao peng you and darryl. and bye ...

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10/22/2009 03:45:00 PM



October 21, 2009

I'm back today again. Today, nothing much. Due to motivation from all of my closest friends, I finally am trying to let go of her. She will be nothing to me anymore, sooner or later, I will have my own girlfriend, after O level. Meanwhile, I think I will focus more on O level first.

Just have a few rounds of game. Did enjoyed. Its still unknown for me if I will go to your birthday party or not. I think I will ba. At least this is the last time I will be celebrating your birthday. At least this may be the last time I will see you. At least this may be the last day I love you. At least I get to get out of my home.

Lols. went to facebook. Grace said me gangster and violent. How could I be? Being a gentle and civilized guy, how could I be a gangster or violent guy.

Prom night is getting closer and closer. O level is just another day from now. I hope everyone put in all their efforts, to fulfil their dreams L1R4 or even L1R5.

After O level, we may not be seeing each other again. But I still hope we can still gathered around and have fun fun fun!!! Especially the clique. My best friends that supported me in my worst times. Lols .No need repeat ler. hahas . I hope we can still contact around after O level. Okay?

Okay, time to go to sleep. must study in the night for practical. Wish all of you good luck, especially you. Don't careless mistake again. Haha . Remember six pointers ar! And happy meal too. I shall go . Goodbye guys . See all of you in the examination room tomorrow. Remember to be confident of yourself. Farewell.

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10/21/2009 05:38:00 PM



October 20, 2009

With the clock struck 12, every feelings about you will slowly fade away. Leaving nothing then just pure friendship. Like what many people say, it is not worth to abandon the whole forest just for 1 tree. It is meaningless to love a girl and lose my friends. I swear you will become nothing in my mind soon. And, the prom night thing is still in your hands. Its your call, go, or send me a sms to say you are not going. I will be waiting. I do not know when you will see this. But I hope it will be soon.


Yesterday, when to seoul garden makan. Then after that walked around. Some guys decided to play pool. So follow them. hahas. I very noob. Lose 4 times to liang ge. hahas. After that, went to compasspoint buy coffee food. Later, went to my grandmother house. Camp there for 1 hour plus and used computer. Left at 10.30 I think. Walk with my brother home, as he wants to deliver my computer back to my home. Thanks. Reached home, use my computer. hahas.


My brother left at 11 plus. Then at that time, I was searching for ULTRAMAN. Lols . I'm so lame. But I have the interest in pokemon and ultraman now. Have so many doubts. Bathed at only 12pm. Then continued use computer ultil 2. Send songs from my another brother phone. Then went to sleep. Wasting the whole day, as I did not study. Hahas.


Today, woke at 11. cooked instant noodle to eat. Then, using my computer again. Going to history at 2pm. Slacking now. May study only after 6pm. now I want to play. Maybe last time playing until after O level. Okay Guys, seeya,. and Jiayou for O level. We will overcome it.


PS- My computer is okay now.

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10/20/2009 12:12:00 PM



I'm back! And everytime, when I bloghop, I leave with a heavy heart. Why? I ask myself. It's because I knew that I had failed once again in my life. Once again, I knew that you have a boyfriend. Once again, I am crying. Why? Why am I still grabbing to this thin thread that is impossible to hold on? Why am I still crying? Why I still feel the pain? Why I still reminisce about the past? Most importantly, Why are you still in my mind? Why? Can anyone answer me? Can anyone take a knife and plunge into my heart? Because the pain is too overwhelming for me. Everytime I have a chance to talk to you, I think that everything is possible again. Everytime, I thought we can be together, something happened. You will have your sweetest sweetheart. And I was with nothing again. Actually, I knew these things since a few days before. Someone told me that you are attached. Someone make me feel that I failed once again. Someone make me cry for a whole night. Someone that makes me give up hope again. After that day, I did not SMS you anymore. You know why? It's because, I knew I am disturbing you everytime. I finally slowly grab a hold on myself by not thinking of you for so long. But things again started to change when I saw your blog. I'm sorry. I will cry tonight, just tonight, and everything is over ... Cancel prom night if you want please. Just sms me, I waiting for your answer. sorry.

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10/20/2009 12:20:00 AM