September 6, 2009
There was a boy
He was naive
He waited for a friend
But they never came.
Is it his decision
To avoid his friend?
Or is it his friend
Who hated him?
He cried in pain,
uncontrollably pain.
He wishes for the day,
for his friend to understand him.
Was he his fault?
Is he the cause?
What did he do
Which caused this pain?
He was the boy
which suffered immense pain
Which waited desparately for a friend
a friend,
that he could really relied on
and trust.
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Firstly: Maybe I did something wrong, that caused all these.
Secondly: Maybe I was too sensative to notice all these imaginary things.
Thirdly:Maybe I brought these all on myself.
I really treated you all as my best friends. However, you all might not have regard me as the same way that I regard you. Maybe all along, I have being imagining that all of you are treating me as best friend. Maybe I have already been accustommed to the feelings of all of you as my closest and best friends. I know I was sensative. I don't know all these things is because they really started to hate me , or is because I was too sensative to imagine all these Fucking imaginary things. Maybe I do not deserve to be their best friend. Nevermind, whatever will be, will be. If all of you are not my best friend in the first place, and that it is me that is thinking too much, then I think that I shouldn't pursue the friendship dreams and commitments. Because it would be meaningless. I hope that it is me who is thinking too much. I hope that I can stop thinking again. These will only brought pain and suffering among us. Maybe I don't deserve to be your friend. Sorry for suffering if you hated me and I kept pursued after you. I will slowly distance myself away from everyone, till the day when I can find out the truth. Is it all my fault? Nevermind if you don't treat me as your best friend. I do. I will wait in the darkness till a day when I find out the truth. Forever unknown best friend .
On the above, is the feelings I get from some of my best friends. In fact, those are the friends that know most of the things about me. I trusted them.
Below, I have going to speak a short short true story about one of my best friend.
He was one of my best friend. We teach each other any things we don't understand. We solve our problems together. However, he had a problem with another friend recently. I do not know how to help. I just wish them to be together again. But..... Maybe he don't trust me. It hurts to see him running off yesterday. I wish everything will be okay again.
The end
Two more last things that I want to tell those best friend that will come to my blog. Remember this. I am always here, if you need any help, find me.
And, I don't wish one more of my another friend to be beaten outside. I wish he can become back to himself. Because he is walking more and more like a gangster. And, he might not have know, I don't wish him to get hitted outside. I wish them to be happy onwards. No troubles. Even though I was really disapproval of your new stead initially. I can only wish you all happiness. I won't get immerse in your matters ler. I will leave.
Anything, Call me if you want. I will be there.
Labels: Your silent friend?
let it go
9/06/2009 10:59:00 PM
