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August 28, 2009

Its being a long time. Its being a long 4 years. We are finally going to reach the destination. Buck up Everyone. Its prelim now. Without another long time, we will be at the examination hall taking our O level. I swear I have been waiting to get over O level for very long. I have contained my hyperactive inside me for long. After O level, It is going to explode. You will see me playing basketball. Playing anything. As long as it is fun.

English prelim was Okay. I was confident for paper 1 but there are some vocabularly mistakes. But paper 2 , I have no confident. Hope I can do it this time. Chinese prelim paper 1 was quite difficult, I think I will get very low grades for it. Social Studies prelim is quite Ok. I think I am going to do it this time. 5 days of rest before another start of prelim. I need to prepare. But today, I think I will be resting and playing. Not gonna study. Prelim is the reflective results of our O level. Hope I can get my desired results , which is quite untruth for now.

Lastly, I want to point out 1 thing that I bloody hate about Mr Ong. Don't you think that it is very sensative to joke around with my future. You say that I cannot make it to O level. You say that I will retain. You are trying to look down on me right. I hate your prejudice against me. I hate it when you everytime use me as bad examples while you use other people for good examples. Tell me, when did you ever truthfully praise me for the things that I did? No matter how well I try, you will just think that it is not enough. Whenever your joke makes me angry, My friends will call me to tolerate you. Why? because they do not want me to get into troubles? or because they respect you? If that is gonna be the respect you gave to me, I think I am very wrong in choosing you to be the dedicated teacher. I think that I should not be respecting you so much. You looked me as the same as my brother. I know my brother and I had caused many troubles in the school. But have you ever wondered why we did that? Have you? I tell you . It is because of the respect you teachers gave to us. You thought that we are always wrong. You looked me upon like my brother. You show me a black face whenever I try to tolerate your nosense. You always try to point me out as the bad example. For instance, if that is something bad happening, you will sure point to me and think that it is me. I hate the attitude you are giving me. I gonna warn you. If I really cannot go across O level, If I really retain, I swear you will get it. I swear I will not forgive you. I swear I'm really going to do something about it. You always say that you have been supporting me. But where the support? I only see the prejudice towards me. I know you dislike me. There are so many good students. You can pick anyone to be your vice-chairman. You do not need to choose me. Seriously. If you think that I am really that bad, you shouldn't have chosen me. What the hell am I going to tolerate you when you are discriminating me. Sometimes I looked you as my motivation pillar to study and turn better, but where the support and motivation I need. I hate you to joke at my O level . Yes I am petty. I am sensative. You know it. And you should know you should never cross the border.

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8/28/2009 05:01:00 PM



August 23, 2009

HI , I am back. Have been very happy and also sad throughout the week. Reasons is because it my birthday. Received a wallet from 12 friends which piled up their money to 60 something dollars to buy it. So elated to hear that. And for that, I sincerely thank them for that. I love the wallet so much. I also received a present from bestie. Love it very much. I have placed it on my table, so I will remember you calling me to mug for exams and not slack. Thanks very much. Furthermore, after so long, finally can talk le we. lols. Thanks for offering the pizza when I was down. Thanks for holding it for so long and it burn your hands for so long when I say I don't want to eat. Thanks for trying to save that piece for me. Thanks for it. Sorry I did not eat it. Sorry I spoilt your effort. I sorry for letting you hold so long and I don't want to eat. And I'm sorry for thinking of too much now. Because I did not appreciate your efforts , I think I am very bad. I'm sorry. But I am not emoing.


I had B3 and MERIT for my chinese O level. Thats so BAD. I want an A1. I still cannot decide if I want to retake. Most probably will ba. My ENG oral is a total crap. Think will not do well for it. Nevermind, I will try my best in my written papers. I can do it de. It no use Emoing now. so better to be happy.


Recently, feel very pity and sad for friend. And feel Angry and dissappointed in someone , who go to this extent in doing something he/she wants. Really don't know he/she is really sure he/she has done a good thing. Does he/she really want to continue what she is doing? Not a bad remark here. Just saying out my feelings. Hope I can change my view soon. I don't want anymore friendship to break.

Anyway, Quarrelled with Cj on the pizza thing. Its ok now. It very lame. But Its ok now .

Heard that someone wanted to beat my another friend. I dared him to do it. If he dared touch him , I sure give him die. And quarrel with one of my best friend somemore. If you dare to lay even a finger on him too, be careful hor. I sure hit until you bark like a dog. Even when you said that you are very talented in fighting, which we doubt about.( clue for some of my friends. The story is on 'three little pigs')

And here is another thing for hiadi Harry. Don't Emo. Everything is destined. Don't think so negatively. Maybe you will be happy after O level. Maybe your dream might come true.

I find that going out with my usual group of friends is very fun. We can do what we want, talk what we want, and play what we want.

But mentioning about others friends. Talking about xin shi is also very fun. Hope we can be friends forever.

And one more thing. For Yi xiang . Singapore people cannot praise de. When you said you are not sticky, you immediately faced the glue. hahas . just a joke . hahas .

Okay I have crapped a lot. Time to go. BYE. Have a good night.

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8/23/2009 12:38:00 AM



August 15, 2009

爱转角

我伪装着 不露痕迹的 想在你身边
静静的陪着看着天边 骑着单车 往前行进着
某个路口 爱在等着 你往前走 不回头看了
记忆的笑脸 缓缓的敲着我的琴键 我不舍得
让你孤单单的 我爱你的 心牵挂着
心不再拼命躲 不去害怕结果 假设有个以后
你会怎么说 一直想跟你说 幸福不再溜走
下个路口 你会看见爱 有美丽笑容
爱转角遇见了谁 是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街 能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁 是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解 让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪 不让你掉眼泪
现在永远 你就是我 就是我的美

心不再拼命躲 不去害怕结果 假设有个以后
你会怎么说 一直想跟你说 幸福不再溜走
下个路口 你会看见爱 有美丽笑容
爱转角遇见了谁 是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街 能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁 是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解 让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪 不让你掉眼泪
现在永远 你就是我 就是我的美

爱转角遇见了谁 是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街 能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁 是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解 让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪 不让你掉眼泪
现在永远 你就是我 就是我的美


Recently, I have been avoiding her again. I'm sorry. I found out that whenever I am near you, I will recollect the past unknowningly. Give me some time. I promise we will be true best friend when I truly forget about you. I'm sorry. Whenever I think about it, I will be filled with unhappiness. I have try to conquer these unhappiness for nearly 1 year le. I don't know why, why It is so hard to forget you. Many of my friends will think that I'm useless because I cause myself so much hurt for waiting for you and also because I cannot forget you. I sorry for always avoiding you. It is not meant to be. Sometimes I will still steal a glimpse at you. I admit. Especially today, after Social Studies, when you are at the bus stop. You are standing alone without your friends. I was thinking all the way. However, I still do not have the courage to walk over. And run to the bus immediately when the bus arrived. This is the only way I could get myself away from all those sadness. HAIZ. DUIBUQI.


Those above is just something I need to apologise to someone.


These week, I suddenly found back a little of my interest in maths and A.math after teacher bought us the PASS WITH DISTINCTION BOOK. I wish this interest will bring me all the way across O level, if not I will be slacking all over again. And, I wish to get back my interest in Science again. For a few times, I felt so happy when I got first in math and science. But after the "dark clouds" have covered my bright sky, I started to slack. For the remaining days till after O level, I must prove that I can be the best. I must beat anyone that have higher results than me in the past. For once please , work hard for O level. Let your name be remembered by every punggolites for once. Try to be the favourite in polytechnic. Try to get 6 points . A1 for all subjects. I must not fail. I must not. I must conquer English. I have no fear of English. Because I will be taking English oral on my big day. My wish is To get the best result Punggol ever had In O level.


My Chemistry and physic skills is getting lousier. I sure need to buck up on it. But the first thing I should be concentrating now should be English.

I have only think of Finishing O level. After O level, I am going to work, train basketball, and train muscles. I want to be stronger. I don't want to lose to anyone again.

Furthermore, I want to prove to all those that had been looking down on me from the starting of even secondary 1 till now. I want to prove that I can win them. Come on, continue to belittle me. Tell you, you may win me in the past, But I will strive to win you in future. No matter of any subjects. Especially English. I will win you. I will win you. I will win you. I will win you. I will win you. NO matter how hard it is going to take. I am going to win all of you, including myself. I will prove to myself too that I am not a failure, not a useless faggot. I will try to change. But I need time. Change change change. I love English. I love chinese. I love Social studies. I love History. I love A-Math. I love E-Math. I love Chemisty. I love Physic. In my heart, That will not be 'you'anymore. Because it is filled by all these subjects.

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8/15/2009 02:15:00 PM



August 10, 2009

hi ! Just did my english . Boring , so came to blog. It seems a long time,When I started to think so much. I started to think back to the past when I have brought so much chaos into the class. All those jokes and funs that caused misery in our class today. All those attitudes I have towards teachers. Maybe something is going to happen to me next week. Maybe I have created another problem for the class. I am so foolish. I thought being the vice-chairman, i am already very good. But in the midst of it, I have caused so many troubles. I have set a very bad examples for my peers.


If I have a chance, I will not do it again. I am hot-tempered and too sensative. I fooled around without caring of others' feelings. I know I hurted many people . But why do I always repeat the same mistakes?

I will still try again.

I am a love failure, a failure in vice chairman position. Failing in many different things.

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8/10/2009 02:55:00 AM



August 9, 2009

HI , I'm here. Thought through the things I did yesterday . Maybe I was wrong too . I am too rash and sensative to judge . Sorry is the word that I am going to use . I am sincere about it . My anger got over me yesterday . Maybe I will lose my sense of wrong and right when it comes to the word love . Well , the thing has happened . I cannot do anything to change it . So , I can only say sorry . bye

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8/09/2009 09:13:00 PM



Hi , I am back . Recently , Me and some of my Best friends , always hanged out till near midnight or midnight , Just to talk , Gossip and BOYS-BOYS talk . Of course got play basketball . Anyway , recently , I have a feeling that someone is backstabbing me to another one(that is very important to me in the past) . I hope that it is not you , the one that I am talking about in many post. If not , You will know it . If it is really you , I hope you backstab more or me to her . Make me more angry of you . You will see how I treat you . I don't mind losing a friend such as you . One day , when I cannot endure any of your rubbish , you better be careful . Although to be frank , I still love her a bit , If you are really trying to make use of that weakness to subdue me . I still encourage you . You have my secrets , I have your secret . Better don't let me know that it is you , If not your secrets may spill off to any unknown person . Got my warning ? Seriously , I agree with Harry , I don't think that you will ever change . Will you ? Prove it to me . Say Say only ah . Are you really serious about that "sorry" , Or are you just trying to say sorry because 2 of us are pin-pointing you and you are sure to lose . I don't care what anybody thinks of me when I wrote this post . If you want to go to the extreme , I can accompany you .


If the culprit is not you , I am not going to say sorry . Because , I know I am not gonna be serious in my apologise .


All those talks about my house been a dog nest , Do you think I don't know. When I heard of it , I have already felt of screwing you up . The chance is finally here . Who owns who a apology . You called my house a dog nest . Will you deny it . You wanna me go find out all the evidence and tell you in front of the whole class. Tell you , I am capable of doing that alright .


Mr ong called me to have peace with you . Well , I think this is the only way to have peace with you , If you want to play this game with me . Huh? If I am in the wrong , Then let the lightning strike me . To be honest , It is very difficult for us to be together again , until you show us the real change in you . Have a good read at my post ...... Happy? Its all about YOU!

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8/09/2009 03:04:00 AM



August 5, 2009

HI , this post is for someone . I did reflected and I am now encouraging you to go and reflect . if you don't , I don't even care . You have your friends , and I have my friends . You can distance me , I can distance you too . Because I hate your attitudes towards friends . You are apparently using them , Not treating them as real friends . You still thought we are at fault at distancing away from you since secondary 3 and secondary 4 . Why don't you think of what you did wrong that make us detest you . HUH ? If you don't have any thing that we despise , Why would be bother of pin-pointing you . ZZZ . You are just self-centered and think that you are always in the right . You say you do not want to learn us by criticising on the blog , but you did too .Even if you stop and say you did not . Aiya . You want to do anything to me , I wait for you nia . Not need say so much . If you want at school settle , I feng pei nia . ZZZ . What make us hate you so much ? ask around ? maybe someone might give you a very small tip . and at that time , DELL . farewell . Your comments will be replied as soon as I can on the computer .

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8/05/2009 12:49:00 AM



August 4, 2009

HI , I'm back today . Gonna post for a short while before taking a small nap . Today , Mr chiong treated us pizzas . Me and Yixiang steal 1 box . lols . I know is selfish , lols sorry . hahas . And because of this , got into a tiff with a friend . Nevermind . I got wrong . But that doesn't prove that you do not have any wrong . So , Let heaven made the decision . you want to be back as friends , I am okay with it . But if not , Then I also don't mind .


This few days have been okay . Just that I think I am changing back to my bad side . I know . I will change back . Lets wait for my good news . Lols . No one know me better than I do . Yongquan change . Yongquan change .


It been so long . I still have not receive any call from polytechnic for interview . Maybe my fair record in secondary 2 blast my chance off . Hais . I regret for being so mischievous . Just hope that if they don't accept me , then I will do my best for O level . Show them that I can do it . I am the best .


PS : (to her)
Have you received the call for interview ?

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8/04/2009 06:35:00 PM



This is a positive post . It is finally August . I will soon be 16 and will be able to watch show of NC16 . LOLS . And the more I get close . The more I think about the past time . When I was young . Many things happen . And I remembered all of them .

I am also getting closer to GCE O level , so I should go now . Lols . BYE BYE DON't miss me .

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8/04/2009 12:37:00 AM



Hi guys . It been quite a while since I have blogged . For your information , This blog is belong to me from today onward . ACTUALLY I have tons of things to share , But due to the time constraint , I can only say that lots of things happened recently . Conflicts , bla bla bla .


Actually , I don't really understand some of the people . If you are our friends , and we are quarelling with other people , you can either stop us or help us . But what the use of stopping us , Or watching show and come to complain to the teachers . Do you know that you are putting extra stress on the teachers ? Somemore , This thing does not related to you . Some of my friends , Even though scare , They try to stop us . Hello , Even some guys that don't act Hero in school got the ability to stop us , But some guys that always acted hero stood there and watch the show , and Say so loudly at the teacher after the events . What the use ? Are you all still depicting yourself as a hero ? zzz . From your information , I treated your actions as cowardly . What the use man ??? If you want to get related , you should stand in from the beginning , and not stand in the end . It useless , Don't you understand . Digusting .


The conflict has end . But the my feeling towards your cowardice remained the same . Unless you prove to me that you are not coward , If not , You are always a coward in my eyes , without any doubt .


Okay . This is just my personal view of 'some people' . I shall stop here . Gotto rush my history seq . Bye .

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8/04/2009 12:15:00 AM