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March 9, 2009

haiz its monday already. And she has not reply mi. i noe she is really really angry about mi. does tat mean tat i sld giv up. i dunnoe wat sld i do. i really cant . tis is for her. if u did not reply mi because u still do not have a decision, plz reply mi soon. my handphone is forever 24 hours waiting for u. yesterday, at 7 i have already started to giv up hope. but due to fri helping mi to cheer up, i stil decided to giv it a try. i waited from 7 to 12 , doing some my hw aso, although i am not concentrating in it. but the clock ticked 12midnight. but still there was no sms from u. i was heartbroke. the pain was excruciating. i canot bear it. i can onli try to play and make myself happy. and i try another way to make myself better. but it is 以痛治痛. i try to cut myself with several rulers , as long as i can find. i wanted to get into my storeroom to get the penknife. but my mum is there. peeps say mi useless if u wans. say mi scarely cat if u wish. well the fact is my mum is really there. there was a orginal mark made by clarance during physic when we are pplaying with the ruler.then is was like a tick. i use my sharp metal rule, wooden ruler, and even my nails, i try to cut a cross. but i onli managed to make a swollen piece on my skin.

then it is not pain enuff. went sch today. did physic, quite easy. the paper was 1h 30min , and i use 30 min to finish, the other 1 hour was use to slp. then after milestone went to disiao karwong. went down canteen , no appetite to eat. went bak class , run around in the class trying not to be catch by karwong. then after VE.its karwong revenge time. run and run. and he play with mi. hit and hit. and at last use chair to bang mi. Well i wanted more pain, but i juz cannot feel any pain. haiz. Y? then physic lesson. i was emoing at the bak again. i throw paper ball up on the the fan, trying to make use of ball to make mi happy. but again useless. saw by philp tan, heng he nvr catch mi. then ss, cannot revise, juz kip staring at karwong and he stared at mi bak. well dun misunderstood we are juz fooling around . lolz.

recess, went canteen, actually no appetite de, still ate chicken rice, while covering the jacket over my head and listening to mp3. then el, did nth juz watch ppl presentation. have a better knowing how how to present our site ler. but sadly , lol but happily aso, the site is not done by mi ut francis again. then u went up to present. Quite well, if for mi, i won do better. then got bak our eng results. Grats for getting the highest in sec4a and b. i noe u can do it, TOP o lvl student. i onli get 13/30 i have passed by negative 2 marks. haiz. actually can get 16/40 de but minus marks for small matters. haiz. i can be the top OLD LVL student ler. haiz. then went to philp tan tok. so sianz .after tat decide not to go for a math, went home together with darryl and kimberly. walked long way home , but not wet, then listening to songs again.

well bak home , i still dunno wat to do. went to bathe and now maybe going slp soon. my head dunno y is aching. veri pain. maybe i am missing u too much. I still cannot forget of u. i really cannot... no matter how much pain, i still cannot . plz reply mi, i really dun wan to forget u. i really dun wan. i really love U! Perhaps i sldnt write such a long post today, peeps have being complaining about mi. SRY GUYS. ok i will write to here . goodbye every1!

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3/09/2009 05:12:00 PM