erm i am here to post a video tat suits my feelings. and aso to post on wat happen on tis two days. wed and thur.
wed erm nth much except emo throughout most of the lesson. even though i am always playing, i am still emo deep in my heart. then after sch remedial all the way till 5. watch show , bathe and then sms her. and seems tat i am misunderstood her again. haiz i am really sorry.
thur today went to sch with cj oni, as yf was late again and darryl was going to sch with kim.then normal lesson. And i have a feeling tat she was avoiding mi. then after sch, lesson again.then in a math lesson had a quarrel again, well dun wanna mention the name. but i juz wanna say, if u want to play dun be angry, if u want to be angry dun play. nb play with him and then get scolded by him.. wtf.
until 4 sth actually prepared to go home but suddenly decided to pei kw they all as they wanted to play pool. though i dunno how to play pool, i can onli c how they play. well and then from 4 sth to 5, i was writing a 9 pages long messages for her. well will show the message to her below later. well then went home together with darryl ashley. then buy sweets and met yu fei and buy ice cream then went home. well i am aso veri angry at those stealers that steal our sweets. better dun let mi find out hu u r, if u dun admit. if u admit , i will treat it as a small matter, but dun let mi catch u, or dun blame mi.then went home, and then now posting to u peeps.
the messages to u are followed , i had add some more thing to the messages.
well i noe u won forgive mi again for misunderstanding u. then well i am already out of solutions to make u happy and forgive mi again. i dun wanna help from others again.well if u really cannot forgiv mi , jiu nvm ler, cause i really dunno wat to do.then if u continue to be angry with mi, then on today onwards u in class , u can juz treat mi as nth. cause i juz wan u to be happy. plz dun be sad , dun make mi more emo. i cannot tahan tis emoness again. because the feelings u gav mi everyday is tat it is useless anymore to wait for u. because u won like mi anymore. my heart is dead now. i am veri tired chasing u. in the past , i tot tat i confirm can be together with u. but now i am veri confused . i noe it will be pain for mi. hai well let begone be begone. and i will not trouble u any further. well i really hope to receive ur message to tell mi ur reply.if u really cannot forgive mi and dun wan mi to wait for u anymore, juz reply as a NO!... i won blame u as i had promised . and if u forgiv mi,and still want mi to wait for u, plz reply a yes!. it is difficult for mi to continue like tis. well reply mi soon. if after 3 days i still dun get ur reply, i would take it as a no. i would try to be happy... it is hard for mi to chase u if u cannot forget him, or if u dun even want to giv mi a chance to try.
i had rephrased it. well sianz. remember the first time i stead, my stead told mi tat my heart was locked with millions of padlock, and she cannot noe how i tink. well now i noe how she feel ler. my key cannot fit into ur lock and so cannot open it. i dunnoe how u tink.
my heart was once divided into 4 parts for my EX during sec 2 time. 1/4 is her. 1/4 is money. 1/4 is exams. 1/4 is parents. and she say LOL!.... well. my heart from sept till now tat more than half of my heart is u, and remaining half is money parent and exam. i tink tat u are more important than even my parents. WEll i have waited for u for bout 5 mths ler. the route is so tiring. i remember the first time i like u is the starting of sec 3. but i did not confess. and i confess at bout sept. the memories together with u is unforgettable. at bout oct, u wrote on my hand tat u tink u love mi. and at oct aso u aso wrote on my hand tat u love mi.. i dunnoe how true is it. but i kept the words on my hand for nearly a week, i dun bear to wash it away. am i stupid or wat. well i am not, i juz waiting for a chance for u. then today , i walked past the shop beside pharmacy in rivervale mall. it reminds mi of u again. went in and saw the actual tings tat i wanted to buy for u on ur birthday. the first birthday i celebrate with u. and while looking at the tings, there was tis emo song playing which make mi more emo. HAIX. i would nvr forget the memories with u. nvr forget tat u like hello kitty and aso red colours, and most importantly , ur idol is jay chou.Moreover, i would nvr forget the feelings when u held on to my hand.the feelings when u first time told mi tat u love mi.every time i was with u, i dread to hold ur hands again, but i noe u wouldnt want, so i still decided not to......... well i hope u can reply mi soon. is 3 days enuff for u to consider. WEll hope u can reply mi soon. MAYBE TIS is the last messages i might get from u, or the last message i would be senting to u. i hope u understand. i giv up because i noe tat u would not love mi again. the "he" in ur heart will nvr replaced by mi.well i really belive in everlasting love, and sought to have my everlasting love with u, but the answer is gg to be told by u again. onli u can giv mi the answer. tis is maybe the last time that i would say these to u again. the last time i will say iloveyou, imissyou, ineedyou , and iwantyou again. i still cannot bear u. tis route to forget u is aso veri difficult haiz. i wish i was nvr borned, wish i could juz fell asleep and die. U won miss mi rite?
well yong quan BE HAPPY!. be happy. let begone be begone.. we will c on sunday. hope u will not be emo or sunday. plz sent mi all ur best wishes. bye every1. i need to go le. bye
