March 14, 2009
HI every1 i am here to post on both 12/3/09 and 13/3/09.
on 12/3/09, we r having motivational camp with ADAM KHOO. 4A and 4B mixed together and was divided into 2 groups, 1 called obama and 1 called singapore bush . i am in singapore bush lol. the trainers,ADAM KHOO AND PAMELA there is veri humorous and their joke is so hilarous , cold de lor. zzz. haha... then felt quite motivated after the camp, although it was tiring, i still hope to go for the next day de motivational camp. it so fun. after tat, went with darryl to econ, ate. went up rooftop garden playground there slack. Slack till bout 9 then walked home. went home ,bathe , did hist and slept.
on 13/2/09, tis is our 2nd day in the motivational camp.well again felt motivated.Actually was quite happy. but again tragic happen when we have a break. i called jermaine(DUNNO SPELL CORRECTLY MA)then suddenly XIN WEI shouted my name. i turned around and saw ur HOR FUN lying on the floor. Xin wei told mi is i hu made it. i really dunnoe at tat time i dun even felt tat i made it, i dun even hav the feeling, and i dunno how i made u dropped ur hor fun. then i was scolded by xin wei. OK. i admit, it my wrong. but i really dunnoe how i made it dropped. but i will still apologise to u. sry.
Then no mood to eat ler. walked bak to learning hub and sat at the staircase and juz EMO again. haiz. send a sms to tell u tat i am sry. and again no reply. OK noe u and xin wei is angry with mi. and i had apologised even though i dunno wat has happened. and wats more can i do. apologised ler u nvr reply, confirm still angry with mi de ba. aiya i really dunnoe wat to do then every1 will be satisfied with my result. felt tat all my friends is drifting away 1 by 1. No matter how hard i try, no matter how good i try to make it, u are will not even giv a darn, wats more will be impressed. so i really fucking hell dunno wat to do. Aiya i dun care anymore le la. haiz...
Juz then Juinn tat , kar wong , gerald goh, yee zheng, cheng han, darryl came to console mi once more. Hai . Believe or not, i really darn sry about it. bak to learning hub, beginning was emoing, but after tat slowly recover to active state. well 2nd break. bought hor fun sat with xiu yun xin yi and yee zheng. ate , bought bread sticks and went bak up. then tok to joey. thanx for trying to cheer mi up, although u aso eat all my breadsticks . lolz.
then bla bla bla....... finally reached the worst or sld i say the most emo part of the day. ADAM KHOO told us to close our eyes to imagine mani tings. well mani ppl cry, including mi. i cannot control my tears when he reached the part where it says that my mother lying in a coffin. although i was always quarreling with my mother, she is still my mother, i still love her. then write letters to ourself and aso to our parents. which i doubt i will show it to her. the reason is PAiseh.went down took out dinner to multiplex room ate, listened to toks and finally sang the song last time with our trainers. BYE trainers, i miss ur teachings. help mi to have confidence in my O lvl.
walk to econ, halfway saw u, decided to walk faster as i doubt u will wan to c mi, and aso because i nid to forget u, so i walk further away.... HAIZ. wat a fuking life i am leding. waited for darryl which arrived with a big group and went to econ. ate tok. and walked home...now after bathing , and posting to all of u.
my 1st goal is to forget u
2nd goal is to do well for O
3rd goal is to change the impression of myself in others eye
strategy for my 1st goals stop watching the past sms and pictures
strategy for my 2nd goals start studying soon,plan my schedule.
strategy for my 3rd goals change my behaviour in class. don be too noisy
my actual results and my targetted results is shown below
Subjects ACTUAL MID-YR EXAM PRELIM OLVLrespectively
ENGLISH D7 B3 A2 A1
CHINESE D7 B3 A2 A1
E-math A1 A1 A1 A1
A-math A1 A1 A1 A1
COMBINED SCIENCE A1 A1 A1 A1 COMBINED HUMANities B3 A2 A1 A1
okay quite a long post again.... well tis is my goals . i noe i can do it . i cannot giv up. i muz giv my self the confidence i nid ....
Labels: I will and i MUST achieve my goals. so wats the strategy.
let it go
3/14/2009 12:05:00 AM
