March 3, 2009
tis is yongquan post... i am here to post on monday and tue....
MON nth juz sch then assembly then mr tan dun let mi go off , but let mi go off to the doc.. fortunately, when i reach there, the sengkang polyclinic, when i take my number, they go closed the door and put a close sign there. WAH HENG. then after went cp ate , then brought 2 drama show . they are 西游记 and 天龙八部... mi pay 70 sth for it...zzz. then went home chiong show bathe , did some hw and slept...
tue , early in the morning chiong to prime market to buy sweets for the class... then went to class as usual... after a math lesson, i was darn flared up, the sweets tat were supposed to be open the next day was eaten all... and wat made mi more angry is tat some1 say tat it is 4a hu ate all... ok eat the sweets is ok , but it is bouoght for class 4b. then u all ate finish and somemore ate the next day sweets, u all won feel tat veri guo fen meh.... darn fucked up, went to question some guyss.... well if u hav anyting tat u disliked bout mi, juz say it out... then after sch went to c the prefect investigue... well quite boring. then i meet shu hao, we ate bread sticks outside the sch hall.. then suay suay mr tay walk past.. call us to be on pumping position and took a photo of us... after tat he turn away and we decided to.... ZAO AH !
went bak class, found 1 math worksheet from mr ong, and decided to finish it be4 mrs haffidz even reach the class.. but sadly, when she came in, i had 2 question more... lol, nvm i still finish them ... lolz.. then after eng went to hist. copy again...zzz...
walk to the block karwong is living and then walk to econ and then he told mi someting really unpleasant to my ear. dun misunderstood, we did not quarrel. but he told mi bout 1 ting tat i had been not able to face.. shall not tell u more about the prob... then mi went econ buy sweets for the class, and i chicken burger. diet!!!! then walked home and found... darryl! gave him hist notes and we parted. reach home chiong 孙悟空 again... then finally bathe . and on com . then saw someting tat i really dun dare to face... well after seeing tat , well , my heart felt like it is feed with poison, or even worst, it is again starting to shatter... i really dun dare to face the prob... i hate myself. i hate my fate . y muz god be so cruel to mi. Y??? everytime i tot i have the chance , and then it was gone again... i simply couldnt grab on to it. well chat with kar wong awhile , told him my probs and then still cannot resist the pain. i really buay ta han ler.. PLZ if u peeps noe about my temper. PLZ do not ask karwong about the probs. it is onli a secret between us... LET MI ALONE SUFFER . after seeing those unpleasant tings over and over again, i started to remember about tis fews day. tis few days , i had aso not being veri well. IN addition to my cough, i am always tinking bout those bad results. i simply hate myself. i noe i am ugly.. i wanna scream out loud, but i cannot either... dun noe y? since last time incident, i knew tat it is now really veri impossible. but i still try, but no matter wat i do, no matter how hard i try, i cannot hold on to the chance... whenever i reaches it, it suddenly disappears. well y god muz be so cruel to mi, i hav long term memories to those ting tat happen long ago. and this make the incident kept on flashing bak in my mind. i cannot resist. i like a beggar, i am like a dog. always begging for chance.. always wishing for a good day... Y ? HOW can i grab hold of the chance. it really tiring. it really painful. but i have continue chasing for the little chance throughout the long times. but y i juz cannot grab hold of it... Y ? i feel like exploding. HAIZ tis is onli a small part of my feelings rite now. i duno how to describe the fucking feeling out.. i onli noe it really hurts. so PEEPS TIS IS FOR EVERY1. BEWARE. Dun try to play with mi these few days. i will explode. ty. i nid accompany. but i noe truly from my heart tat no 1 will want to accompany mi. it require great endurance to ppl hu want to accompany mi rite now! . kk .... i fucking nid to stoop tinking bout these tings anymore. i nid to study for my next day a math test. bb..
Labels: y does the heartbreaking feeling kept coming bak to mi.
let it go
3/03/2009 08:11:00 PM
