February 6, 2009
i am yq!!! i duno y , y teachers are so biased towards mi .... mi wrong scold mi , mi rite scold mi . mi nvr do anything aso scold mi...
today CHANNEL NEWS ASIA REPORTERS came to our sch ... they went to sec 4a and interview them... i had nvr seen how a reporter work so is veri happy... and peep in through the window with kevin.... well then mi alone was scolded by kevin... kevin tis is not scolding u... but i am rather unhappy with mr philp tan... wat aso scold mi....
tis is the conversation...( tink is almost the same)
MR tan : yongquan, u think is funny ?
mi : wah when did i tot tat it is funny i aso nvr say anything, u all aso nvr say cannot c... c got wrong meh...
MR tan : u better dun giv mi tis face...( well when did i giv u any face wtf)
mi: WAH.....( then MR chiu pushed mi into the class....maybe he noes tat i get veri angry easily and if i shout 1 vagualities, punggol sec reputation will be ruined.....
wah mr tan u tink i am afraid of u, i can tell u here tat i am not even afraid of u ... u wan to noe how a bad student act i can show it to u... last time not i shout vagualities aso say mi shout wtf... dun u tink tat u r pretty bias to mi... u call mi to change and u aso always accused mi for nth... fuk man ... u wan cane mi jiu cane mi la , i dun care now. NB kevin aso there u juz scold mi, y u think bully small or wat sia... if not for mr chiu i can tell u i will argue with u to the end even if i will have a definance case or canning.... wah i aso dunno tat i cannot peep through the window... i am juz too interested with the reporters and u tink i am trying to cre8 trouble...zzz....u noe tis is the 1st time i saw reporters... i really veri tulan now.... interested with reporters aso muz get scold , and somemore is alone get scold... call mi change and u gave mi such a fuking attitude and how to u expect mi to change... darn ur excuses... darn u... i can tell u if u accuse mi 1 time i will juz flared out... i won giv a darn even if u are the lvl deem...
and plz la u wan mi change and i was trying and u so bias towards mi ...wah tink k, wah...
PERSONAL MATTERS:i really duno wat i am doing... i am so much feel with jealously... i onli noe tat i had started to avoid u again... i noe i sldnt be jealous... but whenever i c u and him , i will juz walk past and treat as nth has happen..but nowadays i noe tat i being avoiding u again... my reasons of avoiding u is tat i dunnoe how to face u ... whenever i face u , i jiu emo ler.... i really wish all tis would not happen... SECONDLY, i dunno wat sld i do whenever i am in ur presence... i can aso peep at u sometimes from my corner of my eye... sometime i tink when our eyes are nearly met i will immediately move my eye somewhere... i dunno y ... i juz cannot control... i am still scare to approach u.... i cannot forget the days be4 sec 4 ... the dark days when i was always alone... when i tink of u... Well actually when u told mi to be bak as ur best fri, i was kind of upset for a moment... i was tinking tat u dun like mi anymore, u sure dun like mi anymore...AT tat time my heart aches alot...WELL whenever i tot of u , i felt like crying... i noe i am foolish, but i juz cannot control.. so wats the fucking problem is happening to mi...NVR SMS U AND CHAT WITH U FOR 2 DAYS as i tot tat u would not nid mi, but prefer speaking to other of ur friends... So i decide not to sms u on both of tis day ... but whenever i remember u , i will pick out my phone... but still nth ...i really wish to c ur sms everytime or c ur name appearing from a incoming call.. i noe i still cannot forget the life when we always chat with 1 another every nite... but will tis happen again... i cry, i plead , i shout, i endured, and i emo... but tis days will nvr come bak... i missed the days... i miss u ... i miss the moments... i plead them to be bak but till now there is still nth... i realise tat tis days will onli come bak, but onli in my dreams...
u will nvr remember mi, u will nvr miss mi... but i really miss u... really love u.... I noe i am breaking my promise of be ur best fri... but i really cannot help it, i cannot resist it... i am scare... PLZ call mi a coward, plz call mi a sucker, or plz kill mi... but i will still remember u... i am stating tis unhappiness in my blog not to blame but juz to confess my feeling... i juz hope tat u will understand y i still avoiding u .... i won blame u... its my fault... i sld not had tot tat u will love mi anymore... I am tis sucka sucker yong quan....
WELL chat with darryl as darryl has said... then spoke to zice evelyn and darryl again , hoping to cheer myself up.. darryl even tried to tell mi jokes, but i still cannot laugh... i still tinking about uuu!!!!!!!
not gg to do hw again as i am totally not in the mood to do... done juz 1 math question in the self study today, slept all the way through the self-study after... well, yq listen u muz concentrate on ur work starting tis saturday 7/2/09 ... u muz worked hard... i do not want to be depised, i will prove to all teachers tat look down on mi... i will shoe them tat i can be the veri best.... i really wish i can do tat... but can i?
yq work hard work hard...
Labels: i miss u everyday... but do u miss mi?
let it go
2/06/2009 10:48:00 PM
