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January 18, 2009

hi i am not being blogging for 1 days after friday because i went to play basketball in the sch with friends as mention with darryl... then after tat it is bout 8.30 then i reached home then ate bathe then juz slp... having cramps on the day...woke up on the next day at 12 sth ate and slp again at 2.30 till 8.30 lolz i am slping monkey haha.... now after finishing almost all my hw, i then decided to post... lolz wat i wanted to say has already said by darryl :) we 2 心灵相同 lolz dunno correct ma!!!

PS(copy from darryl de) : due to the prom night ting, i maybe decided not to go, i do not want to force a girl tat maybe do not like mi to go with mi. although i may be sad or whatever, i dun mind, it can be a lesson to mi...... so tis is for her, do watever u like, yongquan is juz a illusion, he is nth more than a illusion..... choose whoever u wan to choose and be with whoever u wan to be with.... I finally understand the meaning of love, love is two people really have strong and good feeling with each other and a special kind of liking which bond each of them together..... i noe u dun have tis kind of liking for mi but for another guy i noe, so i onli hope for ur happiness and will not disturb in ur affairs again though it is hard... i will try.... i will not forget the days tat we have being together... so i may not be gg to the prom night party, even if i go i will remain like a lost spirit invisble, so u will not c mi..... i knew maybe u have not being loving mi from the start and maybe are toying with mi(which i tink is not the truth but it is aso maybe the truth) i will not hate u or anything i juz wan u remember tis a guy hu is always loving u is always waiting in one corner to fake a smile.... and if u need any help u can find tis guy..... haiz i remember when kar wong ask mi a problem when i told him tat u had promised to be my prom night party... he said tat"wat if someting bad happen to u 2 be4 the prom night even starts?"
At tat time i believe in u so much and couldn't find any problem with wat he say so i replied "aiyo nth will happen de, if she really love mi and i really love her, 1 day we can be together."
and now if kar wong still ask mi tis question, i really cannot answer him with so much confidence again... I can onli say fate decides everything... Darryl aso once metioned to mi tat love tat started at secondary sch are "puppy" love which means it will not end forever... and i reply tat i believe in forever love the onli problem is tat is the 2 of them really truly in love with each other.... Do any1 agree with mi?? it require mi alot of courage to write all tis down.... so i hope tat u will understand my feelings and emotions... my emotions has brought mi bak to my old self in sec 2, which mani has agreed on, i am unable to control myself and has lost hope in everything... Homework is like thrash to mi everyday home , i watch it and then throw it to one side.... so if u really dun like mi, i dun wish u to partner mi, i do not like to force u, u decide ur own... Example: i do not want to force a girl tat do not like mi to marry mi , tis sux.... so maybe prom night i will be juz there to watch and envy all the dances , celebrationg with shirts tat are spoil, with holes and smelly and be like a smelly and dirty 1 tat no 1 will choose...... I onli can say time will decide, time will decide..............................................................................................................



after tis post i suddenly realised tat wat i wanna tell u is longer than wat i wanted to say to those readers , even though i have more to say tat is had not say ...... so readers plz bear with mi, let mi say out some of my emotion .... if i dun say out i really veri 难受..... And ty every1 for consoling mi whenever i am emo......


i promised 1 day i will become bak to myself and remember i had a target for my O result, which is quite impossible , but i am aiming for tat....


My target results:7
ENG:A2 CHI:A1 Math:A1 SC :A1 A math: A1 combine humanities: A1
hope every1 wish mi to get my aims ty .... and aso sry to tell u tat i will not be posting veri much in tis coming weeks as i nid to rush my work as i have being falling behind mani of my friends.....

Lastly: goodbye....( tis would be the most boring and longest post u would had seen in my blog)

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1/18/2009 12:39:00 AM