will be posting on today's activity . anyway if some of u guys realise , i'm damn sad today .. yupp , because of her again . will start with yesterday night ..

we chatted till very late , as she just came back from malaysia , yea , miss her alot . she sounds ok , normal and i love it . so chat till around 2+ bahhs . den she headache so let her sleep , i dowan her 辛苦 yea ? alrights , anyway miss-ed her till the next morning , which is today .

woke up and prepared for school and msged her , but she still sleeping cause she stay very near to her school . neverminds , waited for her to wake up and msg me at yongquan's hse downstairs , i always go there emo / think of her / be loner de .. so , went there around 10 mins earlier and stare at blank space . Loner mahhs , neverminds , 习惯就好 . so finally finally , she replied . went to sch and continue to msg her on the way .. den , idk what happened which is during lesson time , and she say she've decided not to carry on like this , she say she wont say those stuffs anymore . I was like , wtf when i read that msg . Hais , baby what happened ?? den i questioned her and she say is she dowan , she dowan me , SHE DOWAN ME .. !! she wont accept me , SHE WONT .. I really feel like crying you know ? wtf sia , neverminds , 忍了好一段时间 .. really cannot take it liao , so wrote the words which is showed above .. den took out my ruler and started to scratch my hand .. cos i really dunno what else to do le . nvr bleed la , just scratches . hais , den jitao no mood and nvr even say a word till end of class .. fuck , feel like killing myself . Never in my life i was so sad before , but i nvr show out in front of my friends . anyway , thank francis for entertaining me . :DD so went to play bball after sch and felt better . continue to msg her , telling her that i do not want this , and i still love her . she just keep skipping it , hais why muz god do this to me ? ): den went to maths and waste time again , den went to play bball again .. tis time my mood get better le .. den went home and went to cj hse to do dnt .. finished my moodboard and went home ..

Now posting and toking to her while listening to music .. quite emo bahhs . always lidat de , ALWAYS . _l_ love . hais , but i wont accept another relationship le bahhs except for her , yea . so , baby i'll wait for you . for a chance , for a miracle ..